~Life Like a Musical.. Love is so Beautiful~

FT Island- 그대 눈물까지도 (Even Your Tears) lyrics [Eng. | Rom. | Han.]

2012-01-23T16:35:00.000+08:00

FT Island - Like Birds MV [eng sub + romanization + hangul]

2012-01-17T22:45:00.000+08:00

Play FT Island, SG 15012012

2012-01-17T22:12:00.002+08:00

[PLAY! FTISLAND concert in Singapore]

The songs performed on 15th January 2012:

1. 바래 (I hope) My all time fav.
2. 빙빙빙 (bing bing bing)
3. FTI vs PRI
4. Hello Hello
5. 널 갖겠다 (I will get you)
6. 사랑사랑사랑 (Love love love)
7. Life
8. I want
9. Let it go
10. Flower Rock
11. Sunshine Girl
12. 고백합니다 (I will confess)
13. 그대 눈물까지도 (even if you tears)
14. 신사동 그사람 (that person from Sinsadong)
15. 모두다 사랑하리 (I will love everything [from immortal song 2]
16. 그대는 인형처럼 웃고 있지만 (You're laughing like a doll but...[from immortal song 2])
17. 돈키호테의 노래 Don Quixote song
18. Troublemaker
19. Primadonna

Encore
1. 사랑앓이 (lovesick)
2. 나쁜 여자야 (bad woman)
3. 새들처럼 (like the birds)

Credits - @FTBlueFacts

Jaejin says it's hot in Singapore because of the fans here! (should sing Raining, since it's so hot & humid)

Their second Japanese song, I Want just ended and Hongki is speaking in English again! Telling us that he wants to speak in Korean. Jaejin insists he speaks in English so Hongki says "I love you" to a bewildered Jaejin. Jaejin asks why and Hongki replies, "I don't know. I just love you."

At the start of encore, some fans were rushing forward to the stage. A petite security guard stood directly in front of me, blocking my sitting view of HongKi (starting to sing) & MinHwan. Then other security men came to block. I quickly stood up.

Because I Don't Know How To Love ENG SUB

2012-01-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

Lyric added by: miyu
Saranghaneun geudaega nareul ddeonaganeyo hanmadi byeonmyeongdo nan mothaetneunde
Saranghaneun geudaega haengbokhago shipdeyo hanmadi aewonjocha mothaetneyo

Eonjena seulpeum pyeojeongeui geudaebappeudan pingkyero wimyeonhaetdeon
Hanshimhan baboyeosseunikka

Geuddaen molratjyo saranghaneinbeomeul molraseo
Ddaddeuthage anajuljul molraseo
Yeoringaseumgaseumi muneojyeonaerineun geol moreugo
Musimhi bal georeumeul dolryeotjyo

Geuddaen molratjyo saranghaneun beomeul molraseo
Geudae honja namgyeodwitneyo mianhadan maljocha
Eosaekhage boyeo geujeo moreuncheok jinachyeotnabwayo

Dareunnugulmannado nabodadeo nahgetjyo geuraeseo geudaereul nan bonaeneyo
Dareunnugulmannado geudaemaneun mothajyo geuraseo geudaereul nan motjiwoyo

Mianhadaneun mareun manneyo jalgaranmal bangabgemothaneyo
Gaseumeun ulgoitneunde

Geuddaen molratjyo saranghaneinbeomeul molraseo
Ddaddeuthage anajuljul molraseo
Yeoringaseumgaseumi muneojyeonaerineun geol moreugo
Musimhi bal georeumeul dolryeotjyo

Geuddaen molratjyo saranghaneun beomeul molraseo
Geudae honja namgyeodwitneyo mianhadan maljocha
Eosaekhage boyeo geujeo moreuncheok jinachyeotnabwayo

Ijenaljiman saranghaneunbeomeul aljiman
Saranghajul geusarami eobneyo

Neunmulmanjunsarangeul modu itgo budi haengbokhagilmaeilnan ulmyeo gidomanhaneyo

Daeumsesangen nae orinsarangi anigil jeongmal sarangirangeol alge
Geuddae dasimannamyeon naepume angyeoyo
Haengbokhanggumman geurilsuitdorok

Jigeumeun geudael ddeonabonaejiman..

http://www.jpopasia.com/group/ftisland/videos/because-i-didnt-know-how-to-love::13820.html

[eng] FT Island - Thunder

2012-01-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

I miss Won Bin...

New year resoln [eng] FT Island - Trouble Maker 080906

2012-01-03T21:31:00.000+08:00

Lyrics Troublemaker - F.T Island

Romaji
Troublemaker
F.T. Island

jjijojin bajireul ibko twi-neun moriga
saramdeul nunen isanghalji mollado

namanyi kku-meul ggumyonso korogalteya
munjearago bureulji moreujiman

namdeuri useubdago
sugeundaemyo nollindedo
borandeushi nan igyonael koya

I am a trouble
nareul bureu-neun i-reum-do
onjen-gan baggwil-koya
sesan-geul nollage hal-koya

I am a trouble
nae apeul magason dedo
momchuji a-nhullae
tangdanghi majsobol tenikka

ttoggateun goseul hyanghaeso karahajiman
jiruhan iren gwanshimjo-cha om-neun gol

roboteu-chorom sallago kangyohajima
pa-nhangarago pureulji moreujiman

choldaero pabo-chorom
pogihajin a-nhul-koya
mosjin miraereul irul tenikka

I am a trouble
nareul bureu-neun i-reum-do
onjen-gan baggwil-koya
sesan-geul nollage hal-koya

I am a trouble
nae apeul magason dedo
momchuji a-nhullae
tangdanghi majsobol tenikka

saegangyon-geul ggin chaero bo-neun shisondeul
oneu kot hanado nan turyobji a-nha

I can fly higher
nae ireumi bit-na-neun nal
modudeul kidaehae-bwa
geu nari daga-ol tenikka

I can fly higher
kkot irona sorichyo
kok-jong ttawin boryo
ijebuto shijagiya

I can fly higher
keuge han bonman wechyo-bwa
orida mushihaet-don
sesan-geul hyanghae ttwi-neun goya

I can fly higher
sojunghan kkumdeureul an-ko
han go-reum han go-reum
ijebuto shijagiya
Kanji
Troublemaker
F.T 아일랜드

찢어진 바지를 입고 튀는 머리가
사람들 눈엔 이상할지 몰라도

나만의 꿈을 꾸면서 걸어갈테야
문제아라고 부를지 모르지만

남들이 우습다고
수근대며 놀린데도
보란듯이 난 이겨낼 거야

I am a trouble
나를 부르는 이름도
언젠간 바뀔거야
세상을 놀라게 할거야

I am a trouble
내 앞을 막아선 데도
멈추지 않을래
당당히 맞서볼 테니까

똑같은 곳을 향해서 가라하지만
지루한 일엔 관심조차 없는 걸

로보트처럼 살라고 강요하지마
반항아라고 부를지 모르지만

절대로 바보처럼
포기하진 않을거야
멋진 미래를 이룰 테니까

I am a trouble
나를 부르는 이름도
언젠간 바뀔거야
세상을 놀라게 할거야

I am a trouble
내 앞을 막아선 데도
멈추지 않을래
당당히 맞설 테니까

색안경을 낀 채로 보는 시선들
어느 것 하나도 난 두렵지 않아

I can fly higher
내 이름이 빛나는 날
모두들 기대해봐
그 날이 다가올 테니까

I can fly higher
힘껏 일어나 소리쳐
걱정 따윈 버려
이제부터 시작이야

I can fly higher
크게 한 번만 외쳐봐
어리다 무시했던
세상을 향해 뛰는 거야

I can fly higher
소중한 꿈들을 안고
한 걸음 한 걸음
이제부터 시작이야
Translation
Troublemaker
F.T Island

My torn pants and attention-grabbing hair
might look weird to people, but..

I'm just walking on dreaming my one and only dream, even though they might call me a problem child

Even if others think it's ridiculous and make fun of me, I'm definitely going to succeed my way through this

I am a trouble
Someday, even the name I go by will change.
I'm going to shock this world!

I am a trouble
Should my path be hindered, I don't want to stop
Because I'll confidently fight against any obstacle

They tell me to go toward the same goal they're reaching for,
but I have no interest in boring things like that!

Don't pressure me to live like a robot, though you may call me a rebel.

I'm never going to give up like an idiot, because I'm going to fulfill an amazing future.

I am a trouble
Someday, even the name I go by will change.
I'm going to shock this world!

I am a trouble
Should my path be hindered, I don't want to stop
Because I'll confidently fight against any obstacle

The scenery I see now with these lenses of color...
There's nothing I fear!

I can fly higher
Look forward to the day my name will shine, because it will arrive!

I can fly higher
I get up with all my strength and scream,
throw away all my worries.
This is the beginning.

I can fly higher
I shout loudly once,
running towards the world that ignored me for being young.

I can fly higher
Embracing my precious dreams and going forth step by step...
This is the beginning![edit]Last edit by nukumori on Saturday 02 Jan, 2010 at 19:00 +7.4%[/edit][edit]Last edit by nukumori on Saturday 02 Jan, 2010 at 18:58 +7.7%[/edit][edit]Last edit by nukumori on Saturday 02 Jan, 2010 at 18:57 +9%[/edit][edit]Last edit by nukumori on Saturday 02 Jan, 2010

http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/24654/ft-island/troublemaker.html
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hLPKK6wUS1w&feature=share

FTIsland - Tears Are Falling [subbed eng+romanized]

2011-12-10T21:25:00.000+08:00

Tears Are Falling -

눈물이 흐른다
Nunmuli heureunda
Tears are falling

닦아도 멈추지 않는다
Dakkado meomchuji anhneunda
Even I wiping them, they dont stop

그대가 흐른다
Geudaega heureunda
You are falling down

지워도 온몸에 베인다
Jiwodo onmome beinda
Even though I erase you, you are cut all over my body

바람이 보인다
Baerame bonaenda
I saw the wind

그대도 기억들도 실어보낸다
Geudaedo gieondeuldo shireobonaenda
I am sending you and the memory with it

그래도 난 남자라고 웃어본다
Geuraedo nan namjalago useobonda
But I am trying to smile to be a man

그대를 사랑했다고
Geudaereul saranghaedago
I loved you

살아가는 이유였다고
Saranganeun iyooyeodago
You were my reason to live

그대 길을 막고서
Geudae gireul mangoseo
I want to stop you from going

나 소리치고 울고 싶은데
Na sorichigo ulgo shipeunde
I want to scream and cry

그리워도 참아볼께
Geuriwodo chamabolkke na
I am going to be patient even I miss you

나 그대에게 줄께 없잖아
Geudae ege joolkke eobjanha
You know I have nothing to give you

그대의 행복을 빌며 보낸다
Geudae ye haengbokeul bilmyeo bonaenda
I will send you my prayers for your happiness

그대를 부른다
Geudaereul bureunda
I call you

가슴에 외치는 한마디
Gaseume wichineun hanmadi
My heart cries out a word

눈물로 삼킨다
Neunmulo samkinda
I suppressed with my tears

불러도 그대는 없는데
Bolleodo geudae ni omnundae
Even I call you, you are not there

사랑아 어떡해
Sarangha otteokhae
My love, how can you

흔한 인사하나 없이 떠나니
Heunhan insahana eobsi tteonani
Leave me without saying anything?

날 버린 그대
Nal beorin geudae
You who dumped me

오늘도 미워한다
Oneuldo miwohanda
Today again, I hate you

그대를 사랑했다고
Geudaereul saranghaedago
I loved you

살아가는 이유였다고
Saranganeun iyooyeodago
You were my reason to live

그대 길을 막고서
Geudae gireul mangoseo
I want to stop you from going

나 소리치고 울고 싶은데
Na sorichigo ulgo shipeunde
I want to scream and cry

그리워도 참아볼께
Geuriwodo chamabolkke na
I am going to be patient even I miss you

나 그대에게 줄께 없잖아
Geudae ege joolkke eobjanha
You know I have nothing to give you

그대의 행복을 빌며 보낸다
Geudae ye haengbokeul bilmyeo bonaenda
I will send you my prayers for your happiness

여전히 그대 하나만 찾는 바보라서
Yeojanhi geudae hanaman chajneun baboraseo
Like before, I was a fool who only looking for you

괜찮아 사랑했잖아
Gwaenchanha saranghaejanha
Its ok. You know I loved you

사는 동안 행복했잖아
Saneun dongan haengbokhaejanha
I was happy during my life

그대 보내주는 일
Geudae bonaejuneun il
The day I send you off

나 죽을 만큼 하기 싫지만
Na jukeul mankeum hagi shirjiman
I hate it as much as death

그리워도 참아볼께
Geuriwodo chamabolkke na
I am patient even though I miss you

나 그대에게 줄께 없잖아
Geudae ege jurge eobjanha
You know I have nothing to give to you

그대에 행복을 빌며 보낸다
Geudae ye haengbokeul bilmyeo bonaenda
I send my prayer of happiness to you

Nightcore ~ Core Pride 【Ao no Exorcist】

2011-12-04T21:17:00.000+08:00

UVERworld - CORE PRIDE Lyric

Lyrics: TAKUYA∞
Composition: TAKUYA∞ & Akira
Arrangement: UVERworld & Satoru Hiraide
---------------------------------------

Romaji

Sei wo uke sorezore ga jinsei wo ouka
Nou no "black box" wo shiru sore wa kou ka
Your limit line wo subete ryouga
Saa ikou ka fumidasu sore wa kyou da

Yappa hibi wa ika sen kou
Sotsunaku konashitecha, no, no

Stop nagare wo mikiwamema
Mazu mono to mo sezu ikou ze here we go

Todokanu mono ya kagiri aru mono ni
Atsuku naru mune wo osaetsukeru no wa
Rikai mo sezu osaetsukeyou to shitekita
Kirai de yurusenakatta ano otonatachi to onaji janka yo

Doushitatte kanawanai esoragoto darou ga
Mune moyasuhi wa dare ni mo keseya shinai
Sora kara furu kuroi ame ga kuno mi
Nurashi furitomanaku tomo
Mada kesasenashinai kono mune no hi sore ga pride

Yohou toori ni furi dashita ame　
Yosou ijou ni nakama wa atsumatta
Otagai no hibi ya shourai no hanashi de　
Atsuku natte naguri ai ni natta

Jyuugo no koro mo fuan kara nogareru you ni
Onaji youna koto de naguri atta koto
Omoi dashite omae ga warai dasu kara　
Kawatte nai natte ore mo fuki dashitanda

Douyatte ijihate furunbate ikite nakuja
Jikan no mayaresae mo kowakunaru
Hontou ni naguru beki ai te wa sonna jibun darou
Tada ima omaketa kunai jibun ni umakenai "pride"

Stop nagare wo mikiwamema
Mazu mono to mo sezu ikou ze here we go
Stop nagare wo mikiwamema
Mazu mono to mo sezu ikou ze here we go

Doushitatte yappa hitori no yoru wa
Jibun no koto sae mo waranaku naru
Sonna ore to wakari aoutoshite kureru kimi ga iru nara　
Motto tsuyoku nareru

Mou dounattate ii kakkou aku tatte ii
Shi ni mono gurui de mirai wo kaete yaru
Doushitatte kaere nai unmei da to iwarete mo
Mada ore wa kawareru jibun de kaete miseru

Kore ga sou pride sorezore no basho de...

Mada mada kieru na kokoro no hi wo
Mada wasureta kunai mune wa zure saa wo
Mada mada kieru na kokoro no hi wo
Mada mada ikeruzo ikeruzo
Oh baby, my pride !

Kanji

生を受け　それぞれが人生を謳歌　脳のブラックボックスを知る　それは幸か？
要はリミットラインをすべて凌駕　さぁ行こうか　踏み出す　それは今日だ
やっぱ日々は如何せん　こう　そつなく過ごしてちゃ　NO NO

ストップ　流れを見極めな　まずものともせず行こうぜ HERE WE GO

届かぬ物や限りあるものに　熱くなる胸を押さえつけるのは
理解もせず　押さえつけようとしてきた
嫌いで　許せなかった　あの大人達と同じじゃんかよ

どうしたって　叶わない絵空事だろうが
胸を燃やす火は誰にも消せやしない
空から降る黒い雨が　この身を濡らし降り止まなくとも
まだ消させはしないこの胸の火　それが?プライド?

予報通りに降り出した雨　予想以上に仲間は集まった
お互いの日々や将来の話で　熱くなって殴り合いになった

15の頃も不安から逃れるように
同じような事で殴り合ったこと思い出して
お前が笑い出すから　変わってないな…って　俺も吹き出したんだ

そうやって意地張って　踏ん張って生きてなくちゃ時間の流れさえも怖くなる
本当に殴るべき相手は　そんな自分だろ
ただ今は負けたくない　自分に負けない?プライド?

ストップ流れを見極めな　まずものともせず行こうぜ HERE WE GO
ストップ流れを見極めな　まずものともせず行こうぜ HERE WE GO

どうしたって　やっぱ一人の夜は　自分の事さえも分からなくなる
そんな俺と分かり合おうとしてくれる君が居るなら　もっと強くなれる

もうどうなったて良い　格好悪くたって良い
死にものぐるいで未来を変えてやる
どうしたって　変えれない運命だと言われても
まだ俺は変われる　自分で変えてみせる

これが　そう?プライド?それぞれの場所で…

まだまだ消えるな　心の火を
まだ忘れたくない　胸の熱さを
まだまだ消えるな　心の火を
まだまだ行けるぞ　行けるぞ
Oh baby my PRIDE !

Translation

Born into the world, each enjoying his own life, discovering the black box in his head...is this bliss?
The important thing is to surpass your limit line. Shall we go? Take your step, and outdo yourself today!

But what should we do with our days? Trying to live flawlessly is a big no no.
Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!

If I try to suppress my heart, which is burning hot about things that are unobtainable or constrained,
how am I different from those adults, whom I have come to despise and will never forgive
for their constant attempt to pin me down blindly without even understanding why?

No matter what I do, it'll probably forever remain a pipe dream that will never come true,
but the fire burning in my heart cannot be doused by anyone.
Even if the black rain falling from the sky drenches me completely and doesn't stop,
I will never allow the fire in my heart to be extinguished. That, is my "pride".

It started pouring, as predicted. A lot more buddies gathered around than I had expected.
While talking about one another's days and futures, we became impassioned and started a fist fight.

Thinking back about how we were also fist-fighting the same way
back when we were only 15, as a means to quell our anxiety and uneasiness,
you laughed and said, "You haven't changed a bit..." So I ended up bursting into laughter as well.

If we don't stubbornly stand our ground like this, even the flow of time will become a scary thing.
The only true opponent whom I should hit is really my prideful self.
But still, I don't want to lose right now. I have "pride" not to lose to myself.

Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!
Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!

No matter what I do, when I'm alone at night, I become even unable to understand myself.
When you're with me, and we try to understand each other, then I'll be able to become stronger.

I don't care how things turn out, and I don't care if I'll look uncool,
I will desperately try to change my future.
Even If I'm told that my destiny is immutable no matter what I do,
I myself can still change, and I will prove to you that I can change myself.

This is, that's right, "pride", each in its own place...

Don't perish yet, the fire in my heart.
I don't want to forget yet, the heat in my chest.
Don't perish yet, the fire in my heart.
I can still keep going, so here I go!
Oh baby my PRIDE !

Source: Gendou+Animelyric

Read More UVERworld - CORE PRIDE Lyric ~ ImagineWorld http://akiranosekai.blogspot.com/2011/05/uverworld-core-pride-lyric.html#ixzz1fZUpRhsn

http://akiranosekai.blogspot.com/2011/05/uverworld-core-pride-lyric.html

SCIE2225 exam 2011

2011-11-17T23:04:00.002+08:00

Don't know if it's a blessing or what... the memories of past tests/exam came to mind.

Told Angie tt i spot some short answer qns correctly
(pUC19 cloning vector ~70% answered correctly,
bioinformatics case studies ~25%,
Base Excision ~20% & Mismatch Excision Repair,
global regulatory mechanisms).

40 MCQs consist more than 80% of difficult-to-understand-english questions and a few questions with correct answers (thinking hard to remember the agony of it last year, the mcqs definitely are different with much difficulties!).

Seen the email from new PE about the result of microbio lab test ~63.4%.
Mid-sem MCQ test 75%, fb & twitter msg: hope tt i pass e 2 lab tests. pass final exam w flying colors on thu 161111. Ganbatte, angie, LY & me!!!

FTISLAND 「Distance」 FULL Ver.

2011-11-13T12:51:00.000+08:00

it gives me similar feeling when i listen to Raining mv

Relentless by John Bevere

2011-11-13T12:26:00.001+08:00

Relentless, power to never give up!

Romans 5:17 ~rule in life
3 qns we need to ask:
1) what gives us the ability to rule in life?
2) what does it look like to rule in life?
3) how do we enter rulership?

Q1Ans) God's grace 2 Cor 12:9; TEV & NLT, 2 Peter 1:2-3; NKJV

Q2Ans) Rule over...
   sickness & disease
             lack & poverty
             in world of influence

Q3Ans) we must through many tribulations enter the Kingdom of God

Relentless: resolute, persistent, unyielding

Arise & Build 2011/2012

2011-11-06T12:28:00.001+08:00

Chorus:
Remember us as we give to u
Remember us we sacrifice to u
Remember us Holy One ever true
a memorial Prayer we offer unto u...

As what pastor Kong has said, our offering with a willing heart, God will anoint it & bless us back 30, 60 & a 100 folds.

i give u my savings for school fees feb 2012
give, sacrifice, offering...
believing for the miracles for my circumstances (family, school, work)

PT vs P

2011-09-23T23:36:00.002+08:00

"amanda refuse to dispense! i can't dispense, since i scan the baskets," #4 shouted.
i was thinking, Hello?! i'm dispensing from 1.30pm onwards. who's the STUPID one that allow the caregiver to request acute med from our drs? i'm helping to clear the crowd & somebody's stupid mistake. i stormed out & continue dispensing.

if she thinks that i'm being lazy & skype my dr for favour, so be it! I can't be bothered by her childish behaviour. I'm on leave tmw.

it is not as though she's the only one who is working hard. God & people have eyes to see.

TMNT -> Job (manga bible)

2011-08-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

TMNT = teenage mutant ninja turtle -> Job (manga bible)

... ...

Change by Christian City Youth
lyrics:
change me
i don't wanna be the same
i don't wanna feel the weight of this world

change me
so i'll never be the same
Lord u wanna see the things that you see

You are the one i live for Jesus
You are the one i live for Lord
You are the one i live for Jesus
You are the one that i adore

All that I am
I find in you
All that i have
I find it in you

... ...

Dr Sarah talked abt fight/flight response. I will fight for it.

Tots of wrist ache, storekeeping & LeeShin's hand injury

2011-08-17T22:35:00.003+08:00

Read abt LS's hand injury via twitter.

I think abt wat dr will say abt mine.

it aches sometimes & tt spreads to e whole arm.

Give me wrist guard?

Kang Minhyuk- 별 (Star) lyrics [Eng. | Rom. | Han.]

2011-08-14T16:55:00.000+08:00

Kang Minhyuk, drummer of CN Blue singing solo for OST of Heartstrings.

Five Treasure Island jap album, FTI describe my life

2011-08-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

by FT Island,
Haruka (courage)
Itsuka (my feeling)
Treasure, Satisfaction (in Jesus as guardian angel)
FlowerRock (energy song)
Yume (future?)
MusicLife, Rock n Roll (my life)
Friends

Chill-out w JK, LY... then MX

2011-07-30T23:53:00.002+08:00

Didn't wait long enuf for gene. after lectures, she went home. (she must be tired like angie, me & liyan)

I went Clarke quay for ramen w Jaslyn & Liyan. Under Jaslyn recommendation, i tried e veg ramen. The broth looked light but it was yummy.

We chatted abt some of our uni friends, some weird / happy events.

... ...

My vision blurred so i messaged Meixiu to accompany me to the optometrist.

Meet her for specs shopping & chatted over dinner.

Her optometrist said my shortsightedness is 25 (my bus no. to office is 25).

Told MX tt my eyes hurt sometimes when i stared too long at computers, due to vapors fumed during some chem lab expts, they may tear on their own, after applying eyedrops they still hurt.

I need to be goody-two-shoes to sit in the front / middle of class.
can't doze off.

Thank God Its Fri, for FTI, Final Messenger concert at Budokan

2011-07-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

Thank God It's Friday (TGIF).
Thank God for FTI, Final Messenger concert 2011 at Budokan, Japan.

I love FTI and their songs.

Tracy: u need some love in ur life.
I: hah? (i love my music ppl, forgot to tell her my uni eye candy is in my current class.)
T: consider JT?
I: we'r just friends and he's irritating sometimes, my galfriends & i feel.

Love...? prayer for more love of God for me & everyone (music ppl, family & friends).

Try again smile again BIG TIME

2011-07-20T23:17:00.003+08:00

worry abt appraisal, referral letter, chem3306's result, Play FTI concert in Spore. Huge headache in this hot summer...

Chem3306 has same overall marks as Scie2225? Felt like cleaning my brain & re-start.

Follow oppa's recipe of vitamins & supplements for body & brain power. Gna ask him for more advice...

[MV HD] 2ne1 - Lonely [english subs+romanization+hangul]

2011-07-17T13:48:00.000+08:00

Fel's bday

2011-07-01T22:00:00.002+08:00

Fren's 24th bday,

night b4 FTI Tour 2011 Summer "Messenger", Osaka.

May xiaomei & FTI have a good night rest, work & study harder tmw onwards. Fighting!!!

FT ISLAND SATISFACTION LYRICS ROMANIZATION & ENG TRANSLATION ♥

2011-04-30T19:14:00.000+08:00

シアワセの意味を探していた
shiawase no imi wo sagashite ita
I was looking for the meaning of the happiness.

どこかにあると思った
dokoka ni aruto omotta
I thought it was somewhere else.

そばにあったのに
soba ni atta noni
Though it was right here.

真夜中過ぎ　ぽつりぽつり　
mayonaka sugi potsuri potsuri
After midnight, little by little

街の灯りまた消えて行くよ
machi no akari mata kiete ikuyo
the lights in town are turned off again.

夢が覚めて　眠れないこの部屋も
yume ga samete nemurenai kono heya mo
Waking up from a dream, this sleepless room is also

まぶしい夜景のカケラ**
mabushii yakei no kakera
a dazzling piece of night.

頭上（or地上?）の星座に重ねて**
zujou(or “chijou”) no seiza ni kasanete
Overlaying with the constellations up in the sky,(or “on the ground”)

君の笑顔描くよ
kimi no egao egakuyo
I draw your smile.

明日が今日へと変わる前に**
ashita ga kyou eto kawaru maeni
Before tomorrow turns to today,

涙が愛に変わってく
namida ga ai ni kawatteku
Tears change into love.

シアワセの意味を探していた
shiawase no imi wo sagashite ita
I was looking for the meaning of the happiness.

見えない星みていた
mienai hoshi miteita
I was looking at a star that I cannot see.

君の手を離しては
kimi no te wo hanashite wa
Letting go off your hand,

愛の意味を知らずに探していたんだ
ai no imi wo shirazu ni sagashite itanda
I was looking for love without knowing its meaning.

そばにあったのに
soba ni atta noni
Though it was right here.

頬をなでる　夜の風は
hoho wo naderu yoru no kaze wa
The night wind that passes over my cheek,

地球がまわってる証なんだろう
chikyu ga mawatteru akashi nandarou
it might be a proof of the earth rotating.

動き出せば風向きが変わる事
ugokidaseba kazamuki ga kawaru koto
If you get moving, things change. (like the wind changes its direction)

教えてくれてるのかな
oshiete kureteru no kana
Is the wind telling me that ?
—

シアワセの意味を探していた
shiawase no imi wo sagashiteita
I was looking for the meaning of the happiness.

夢の島を目指して
yume no shima wo mezashite
Heading for a dream island.

あてのない旅しては
ate no nai tabi shite wa
Traveling with no clue.

明日の風に吹かれ
ashita no kaze ni hukare
Being blown by tomorrow’s wind,

流されていたんだ時の波間で
nagasarete itanda toki no namima de
I was swayed in between the time flow.

何を手にして**
nani wo tenishite
By getting what thing,

何をなくした
nani wo nakushita
what did I lose?

何を背負って
nani wo seotte
By carrying what thing,

何を落とした
nani wo otoshita
what did I drop?

大事なものほどありふれていて
daiji na mono hodo arihurete ite
Because important things are everywhere,

気づけないまま
kizukenai mama
I cannot realize it.

シアワセの意味を探していた
shiawase no imi wo sagashite ita
I was looking for the meaning of the happiness.

どこかにあると思った
dokoka ni aru to omotta
I thought it was somewhere else.

自分だけを信じては
jibun dake wo shinjite wa
Believing only myself,

愛の意味を知らずに探していたんだ
ai no imi wo shirazu ni sagashite itanda
I was looking for love without knowing its meaning.

そばにあったのに
soba ni atta noni
Though it was right here.

夜を超えて
yoru wo koete
Passing over the night,

会いに行きたい
aini ikitai
I want to go see you.

20110106 日韓音樂瘋辰亦儒專訪 FTIsland

2011-04-03T14:19:00.000+08:00

love e part where the Five Treasures r playing with ice cream.. Hongki likes sweet things too ;p

2011亞洲星光爭霸戰 20110202 Part 15 FT Island- Hope

2011-03-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

sweet holiday -> raining

2010-12-24T18:03:00.003+08:00

mo0d...
song: sweet holiday (by CN Blue) -> Raining (by FT island)

[Eng/Rom] CN Blue - I'm A Loner Unplugged version

2010-11-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

BURNING lovely Untouchable emotional = blue.

2010-10-16T18:40:00.000+08:00

i've been using korean group,CN BLUE's CodeName Burning Lovely Untouchable Emotional, for my past messenges in facebook.

today's post -> Burning sensation in e stomach & stomach cramps..

My fren smack me on e back (BULLY ME AGAIN! Sobs... >_< i dont know tt person is my fren anot...), i almost fell over from e impact & e weight of my backpack.

Turned & glared at e person. if a stare can kill, e person will be dead at tt moment.

i almost cried out & puke bcoz of e combined pain.

told him, "u might as well hit me unconscious, get me sent to nearby SGH."

Which disorder does she has?

2010-08-28T19:37:00.002+08:00

1) Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder

URL of this page: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000942.htm

Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder is a condition in which a person is preoccupied with rules, orderliness, and control.

Causes

This disorder tends to occur in families, so genes may be involved. Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder most often occurs in men.

Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder should not be confused with obsessive-compulsive disorderobsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), although the two conditions share some of the same symptoms.

Symptoms

A person with this personality disorder has symptoms of perfectionism that usually begin in early adulthood. This perfectionism may interfere with the person's ability to complete tasks, because their standards are so rigid. People with this disorder may emotionally withdraw when they are not able to control a situation.

People with obsessive-compulsive personality disorder believe that their preoccupations are appropriate. They tend to be high achievers and feel a sense of urgency about their actions. They may become extremely upset if others disturb their rigidly ordered routines.

Exams and Tests

Some of the common signs of obsessive-compulsive personality disorder include:

Excessive devotion to work
Inflexibility
Inability to throw things away, even when the objects have no value
Lack of generosity
Limited expression of affection
Perfectionism
Preoccupation with details, rules, and lists
Reluctance to allow others to do things

Treatment

Medications such as selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (for example, Prozac) may help reduce obsessions and compulsions. Cognitive-behavioral therapy may also help. Medications in combination with talk therapy may be more effective than either treatment alone.

Outlook (Prognosis)

The outlook for people with obsessive-compulsive personality disorder tends to be better than that for other personality disorders. This may be because the self-imposed rigidness and control of obsessive-compulsive personality disorder may prevent many of the complications such as drug abuse, which are common in the other personality disorders.

However, the social isolation common with this illness may lead to feelings of depression later in life.

Possible Complications

Relationship difficulties
DepressionDepression

When to Contact a Medical Professional

Call for an appointment with your health care provider if perfectionism is interfering with your job or relationships.

Alternative Names

Personality disorder - obsessive-compulsive

References

Moore DP, Jefferson JW. Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder. In: Moore DP, Jefferson JW, eds. Handbook of Medical Psychiatry. 2nd ed. Philadelphia, Pa: Mosby Elsevier; 2004: chap 142.

Update Date: 10/17/2008

Updated by: Linda Vorvick, MD, Seattle Site Coordinator, Lecturer, Pathophysiology, MEDEX Northwest Division of Physician Assistant Studies, University of Washington School of Medicine; and Timothy A. Rogge, MD, private practice in Psychiatry, Kirkland, Washington. Also reviewed by David Zieve, MD, MHA, Medical Director, A.D.A.M., Inc.

2) Obsessive-compulsive disorder

URL of this page: http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/ency/article/000929.htm

Obsessive-compulsive disorder is an anxiety disorder in which people have unwanted and repeated thoughts, feelings, ideas, sensations (obsessions), or behaviors that make them feel driven to do something (compulsions).

Often the person carries out the behaviors to get rid of the obsessive thoughts, but this only provides temporary relief. Not performing the obsessive rituals can cause great anxiety.

Causes

Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is more common than was once thought. Most people who develop it show symptoms by age 30.

There are several theories about the cause of OCD, but none have been confirmed. Some reports have linked OCD to head injury and infections. Several studies have shown that there are brain abnormalities in patients with OCD, but more research is needed.

About 20% of people with OCD have tics, which suggests the condition may be related to Tourette syndromeTourette syndrome. However, this link is not clear.

Symptoms

Obsessions or compulsions that are not due to medical illness or drug use
Obsessions or compulsions that cause major distress or interfere with everyday life

There are many types of obsessions and compulsions. One example is an excessive fear of germs and the compulsion to repeatedly wash the hands to ward off infection.

The person usually recognizes that the behavior is excessive or unreasonable.

Exams and Tests

Your own description of the behavior can help diagnose the disorder. A physical exam can rule out physical causes, and a psychiatric evaluation can rule out other mental disorders.

Questionnaires, such as the Yale-Brown Obsessive Compulsive Scale (YBOCS), can help diagnose OCD and track the progress of treatment.

Treatment

OCD is treated using medications and therapy.

The first medication usually considered is a type of antidepressant called a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI). These drugs include:

Citalopram (Celexa)
Fluoxetine (Prozac)
Fluvoxamine (Luvox)
Paroxetine (Paxil)
Sertraline (Zoloft)

If an SSRI does not work, the doctor may prescribe an older type of antidepressant called a tricyclic antidepressant. Clomipramine is a TCA, and is the oldest medication for OCD. It usually works better than SSRI antidepressants in treating the condition, but it can have unpleasant side effects, including:

Difficulty starting urination
Drop in blood pressure when rising from a seated position
Dry mouth
Sleepiness

In some cases, an SSRI and clomipramine may be combined. Other medications, such as low-dose atypical antipsychotics (including risperidone, quetiapine, olanzapine, or ziprasidone) have been shown to be helpful. Benzodiazepines may offer some relief from anxiety, but they are generally used only with the more reliable treatments.

Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) has been shown to be the most effective type of psychotherapy for this disorder. The patient is exposed many times to a situation that triggers the obsesive thoughts, and learns gradually to tolerate the anxiety and resist the urge to perform the compulsion. Medication and CBT together are considered to be better than either treatment alone at reducing symptoms.

Psychotherapy can also be used to:

Provide effective ways of reducing stress
Reduce anxiety
Resolve inner conflicts

Outlook (Prognosis)

OCD is a long-term (chronic) illness with periods of severe symptoms followed by times of improvement. However, a completely symptom-free period is unusual. Most people improve with treatment.

Possible Complications

Long-term complications of OCD have to do with the type of obsessions or compulsions. For example, constant handwashing can cause skin breakdown. However, OCD does not usually progress into another disease.

When to Contact a Medical Professional

Call for an appointment with your health care provider if your symptoms interfere with daily life, work, or relationships.

Prevention

There is no known prevention for this disorder.

Alternative Names

Obsessive-compulsive neurosis; OCD

References

Blais MA, Smallwood P, Groves JE, Rivas-Vazquez RA. Personality and personality disorders. In: Stern TA, Rosenbaum JF, Fava M, Biederman J, Rauch SL, eds. Massachusetts General Hospital Comprehensive Clinical Psychiatry. 1st ed. Philadelphia, Pa: Mosby Elsevier; 2008:chap 39.

Feinstein RE, Connelly JV. Personality disorders. In: Rakel RE, ed. Textbook of Family Medicine. 7th ed. Philadelphia, Pa: Saunders Elsevier;2007:chap 60.

Koran LM, Hanna GL, Hollander E, Nestadt G, Simpson HB, et al. Practice guideline for the treatment of patients with obsessive-compulsive disorder. Am J Psychiatry. 2007;164:5-53.

Stein DJ, Denys D, Gloster AT, et al. Obsessive-compulsive disorder: diagnostic and treatment issues. Psychiatr Clin North Am. 2009;32:665-685.

Update Date: 2/11/2010

Updated by: Linda J. Vorvick, MD, Medical Director, MEDEX Northwest Division of Physician Assistant Studies, University of Washington, School of Medicine; and Michelle Benger Merrill, MD, Instructor in Clinical Psychiatry, Department of Psychiatry, Columbia University Medical Center, New York, NY. Also reviewed by David Zieve, MD, MHA, Medical Director, A.D.A.M., Inc.

Oven $79.90, its parking space at home priceless

2010-08-26T21:03:00.002+08:00

I just wanna clear some space on the kitchen top for the oven. Mum must have thought tt i throw all her plastic containers away. She's slamming things everywhere.

This makes me think that I only have A SPACE = my ROOM. Ok, then i'll treat it like my precious hostel room. Really want to rent a room somewhere away from her but i can't let Dad's apartmt go to waste.

She is still busy w household chores, cleaning away like a spoilt robot. She is like blindly by something. my sis's bf mentioned some mental illness b4 but i don't know the medical term. If i know it better, i would recommend her dr to advise her. Old ppl won't listen to youngsters.

Another thing is the stove is going to spoil. Why ain't she saving up to buy? She still buying irrelevant things e.g. instant noodles, many loaves of bread.

I don't mean bad but... how can Dad stand her last time when he was ard? I don't want to come up w excuses for her. Only God knows the whole story. Oh Lord, save our pitiful souls...

[Eng/Rom] CN Blue - Love Revolution MV Unplugged Version

2010-08-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

A cool rock song, 浮世樂(Save me) by DongChengWei tt i found on a new taiwanese idol drama.

2010-07-25T01:15:00.003+08:00

浮世樂(Save me) 歌詞

作詞：修
作曲：冥、修
編曲：東城衛

在這個世界有太多對立和分裂
怎麼會學不會愛是有多難了解
紛亂的是非張牙舞爪作對
怎麼解不了解地球都快被摧毀

我只想找一個空間沒有人發現
直到最後讓愛不被終結

LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU 喔愛愛愛我喔
這個世界需要多點快樂
LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU 喔愛愛愛我喔
抱緊我在墜落之前

看慾望作祟把我們搞的多狼狽
累不累會不會別讓愛荒廢枯萎
說話高分貝歇斯底里爭辯
是與非對不對不如來聽搖滾樂

我只想找一個空間沒有人發現
直到最後讓愛不被終結

LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU 喔愛愛愛我喔
這個世界需要多點快樂
LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU 喔愛愛愛我喔
抱緊我在墜落之前

SAVE ME SAVE ME SAVE ME 愛有什麼不對
SAVE ME SAVE ME SAVE ME 愛有什麼不對

LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU 喔愛愛愛我喔
這個世界需要多點快樂
LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU 喔愛愛愛我喔
抱緊我在墜落之前

http://lyrics.oiktv.com/lyric.php?sid=7406&aid=1787&lid=17197

It PHYL2255 made me feel like e 1st uni exam SCIE1106 but it maybe worse...

2010-07-24T01:19:00.003+08:00

85 MCQs worth 78 out of 100 marks. Some r just too tricky.
I dunno how to answer or forget e answers to more than half of them.
God help me...

Guessed my way through another 12 marks of the script.
Oh my gosh... what have i been studying these few days?

My poor performance was due to my old sickness (gastric reflux), flu/cold germs from some ppl, lack of quiet time to study and premenstrual symptoms (tiredness, sleepy and headaches).

Hope tt i can pass this 60% exam. Then together with e 40% lab score, i can obtain a passing grade for this module.

Ear problem?! :s

2010-03-31T22:46:00.002+08:00

Been having on and off ear pain and swelling but last few weeks, the worst. The swelling doesn't go off after a week.

I went to see dr last week.

I was in a rush, i may have used too much of the antibiotic ear drop into my left ear. I cannot hear properly since Sunday. Hmm...

It was so uncomfortable to listen to my friends' conversation and the invigilators during exam. Haiz... but i'm glad that the exam is over. =p

Gonna check with the dr again tmw. Hope my earring will come back.

Look me in the eye. Lie lie lie.

2010-02-18T21:03:00.002+08:00

When Charmane told me, she heard P and MJ chatting about me seeing Dr S. I'm not surprised by P remark. I just smiled at Char.

I whispered to Char that we'll continue the conversation on our way home, since she's still working.

... ...

Char said, both of them talked normally (it seems as though they wanted her to hear). About me seeing Dr Soh and taking mc tmw.

I didn't say that i will be taking mc tmw, i only said tt i'll be seeing dr after work today. (Don't put words into my mouth!)

I asked her, who will be so ridiculous and stupid to ask for mc tmw when you're in at work today. If i'm sick, i will be seeing my family dr (the clinic is much nearer to my place) and rest at home. Rather than the hassle to get lectured by P or Boss. (What P thinks, doesn't make sense!)

I wanna confirm my doubts on re-scheduling TCU to an earlier date bcoz the heartburn happens quite frequent and the medication don't seem to work. Dr S is helpful to check with me what works and what does not, and asks whether i need an mc for tmw. I told him not (knowing tt i will be "killed" if i'm on tmw.) Maybe i should heed his advice on the mc. Lol...

As precaution, I warned her to be careful bcoz P is like a double-edge sword (you won't know which side you will get cut). I gave her an example from Lala regarding Ah hui. P told Lala something bad about Ah hui. Lala is Ah hui's fren so naturally, Lala will tell Ah hui when was said. (if you have something to say, say it in the person's face. No guts?)

Char said, P is seeking attention. Is it, i asked. Anyway, just ignore her, i replied. Who has the spare time to care what she said?

Note to P ->
Act more professional, don't act friendly or cute.
Say nice things like u mean it.
Don't mean what you say? Use mouthwash bcoz your mouth stinks (big time!).

愛不單行 (Idol drama, Hi my sweetheart's song), this is my feeling @ times

2010-02-14T14:00:00.006+08:00

羅志祥 - 愛不單行

主唱：羅志祥

找不到人說　心裡的寂寞
找不到人懂　怕黑的折磨
找不到命中註定　在一起的那個人
很多人都像我　一個人過生活

＊愛只有簡單筆畫　卻比想像複雜
　很安定愛變化　我愛過幾個人
　也被愛過幾遍　卻還是沒能將幸福留下＊

＃愛是不可數的嗎　為何我還相信　
　它不是獨行俠　我在等一個人
　在等我的永恒　告訴我愛不單行別害怕＃

用不完身邊泛濫的自由
開始怕孤單是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人為何在天黑以後
還是寧願回到　愛情那個枷鎖

Repeat＊＃＊＃＃

我在等一個人　在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行相信她

生理时钟

2010-01-15T12:37:00.003+08:00

羅志祥 show luo - 生理时钟

lyrics

七点钟你在唤醒我
一点钟吃饭来陪我
你在乎著我快乐难过
从不躲懒身边默默跟随我
六点钟终於下班了
六点八分烛光晚餐已做好了
配著你的香味你的笑如糖果好想把你也放进肚里

你是我身体里的时钟甚麼时候都让我感动
你想我想的事做我做的梦
陪著你不会浪费一秒钟
与你跨过爱情的时空
全世界的钟吵吵闹闹吵闹都没用
跟你抱著过跟你看著时间流动

rap:
怎麼样的爱像你的存在给我的生命添了一分可爱
分享你的爱分享你的现在过去过了慢慢占据我的未来

九点半電影看完了
十点半准备洗澡了
你在我身边听我唱歌每一分钟发现永远不够用
十一点你快睡著了
十二点了在梦里继续逗你笑
悄悄的告诉你我内心的秘密
傻傻的我是太有福气

你是我身体里的时钟甚麼时候都让我感动
你想我想的事做我做的梦
陪著你不会浪费一秒钟
与你跨过爱情的时空
全世界的钟吵吵闹闹吵闹都没用
跟你抱著过跟你看著时间流动

rap

匿名的好友

2010-01-15T12:16:00.006+08:00

海派甜心 (Hi my sweetheart), a new show starring Rainie yang & xiao zhu

楊丞琳-匿名的好友
this is one of the songs played in the show, a sad and lovely song.

作詞：李焯雄
作曲：陳穎見

獨送昏暗莫離的風回憶裡被愛
那股激動天色好紅
溫柔好濃在胸口浮現你的面容
一起活在這城市迷宮提起你名字
心還跳動卻沒重逢
只留下碰卻又不敢碰的那種激動
也許我們當時年紀真的太小
從那懵懵懂懂走進各自天空
該怎麼說讓彼此選擇但思念還轉動

不能握的手從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著依然執著
與你無關淚自行吸收
不能握的手卻比親人更親厚
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的溫柔最溫柔

當又一次美夢落空回憶裏被愛
那股激動天色好紅
溫柔好濃在胸口浮現你的面容
也許我們當時年紀真的太小
從那懵懵懂懂走進各自天空
那是甚麼讓彼此選擇又不僅是尊重

不能握的手從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著依然執著
與你無關淚自行吸收
不能握的手卻比親人更親厚
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的溫柔最溫柔

不能握的手從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著依然執著
卻決心和你不再聯絡
不能握的手卻比愛人更長久
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的擁有最永久

來源 http://lyrics.oiktv.com/lyric.php?sid=1468&aid=5918&lid=64211#ixzz0ceRyphcY

A sweet ending theme song from one of e shows (momo love) i'm watching

2009-12-20T20:21:00.003+08:00

很安靜歌詞

演唱：飞轮海

作词：蓝小邪
作曲：Tank

要說的多動聽才能證明最親密的關係
云繞著天空什麽也沒講
遺失最美好的約定

要說的多華麗才能說出最默契的默契
我在你身邊呼吸都沉默
你卻懂我每個情緒

這世界太熱鬧怎麼傾聽
一顆心呼喚另一顆的聲音
這世界再熱鬧還好我們
剛好在這裡剛好很安靜

要說的肯定才能肯定兩個人的心情
風遇上風箏還沒有邀請
已經一起愉快旅行

要說的多用力才能留下最堅定的決定
每一個路口你不用開口
我已經重合你腳印

這世界太熱鬧怎麼傾聽
一顆心呼喚另一顆的聲音
這世界再熱鬧還好我們
剛好在這裡剛好很安靜

所有感受不用形容已經那麼懂
所有的感動是安靜的心動（安靜的心動）

這世界再熱鬧也沒關係
每一個眼神我們就能感應
這世界再熱鬧我們已經
在彼此心裡所以很安靜（所以很安靜）

Blessing or not...

2009-11-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

I take leave to rest today, since it's my birthday. But...
I'm spending the time rushing my lab reports and assignments.

Wat's worse! My mind is blank when i stare at the answer sheets.

Luckily, i take time to pray to calm myself.

I find out the reference online & in CHEM1104 lecture notes. =p

Later in the day...
There's something that i 4got but i must do. Once i reach the sch lab, I remember that I need to pay a fine. I chipped the burette while washing during last lesson. >_<'"

The lab demostrator said, the sch charged high price (almost 100 bucks). I tink it will be difficult for me to source for it, i might as well pay the fee.

My lab mate borrowed my answer to check. She noted some errors in the calculations. Thank God for that! If not, my grade for this will be bad. Period.

傻傻的勇气∕杨子楱 - VENK

2009-10-31T22:22:00.003+08:00

I always gain strength when i hear this song, 傻傻的勇气,

by ∕杨子楱 - VENK

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇蹟我创造一个给妳
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
妳让我相信我可以

梦想紧紧握在手中
人就能自信满满的向前走
希望收藏在胸口
心就会学会要说NO 拒绝脆弱

因为妳在我的左右
因为心中有彩虹
(妳就是最闪亮的那颗星星深深吸引了我全部的力量 oh
我确定你就是我的唯一 Oh Baby you are my only love)

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇蹟我创造一个给妳
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
妳让我相信我可以

伤痛让我开始不同
我哭过更加成熟决心已啟动
希望收藏在胸口
心就会学会要说NO 拒绝脆弱

因为妳在我的左右
因为心中有彩虹
(妳就是最闪亮的那颗星星深深吸引了我全部的力量 oh
我确定你就是我的唯一 Oh Baby you are my only love)

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇蹟我创造一个给妳
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
妳让我相信我可以

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇蹟我创造一个给妳
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
妳让我相信我可以

曾经受伤的我以为是借只剩寂寞
是妳找回我笑容妳的温柔陪我坚持到最后

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇蹟我创造一个给妳
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
妳让我相信我可以

最猛的是我有傻傻的勇气
如果没有奇蹟我创造一个给妳
好的坏的都是我的要撑到底
妳让我相信我可以

Y am i writing this? Bcoz i'm upset at Boss and my colleagues and felt angry tt i didn't take up the courage to fight for my right.

I was supposed to be in class in the afternoon. Boss has agreed to let Tracy and i took the afternoon off even though there was stocktake.

She changed her mind last min. Both of us were devastated. I was so upset and angry tt i cried. I told T abt scolding the slacker but i decided not to. Lack of energy. Joyce, Rence and Cheryl thought what happen to me. I think my hormones are acting up due to the stress from sch assignmts and work.

I told Ah bu about it. Fanny heard abt it too. Those of us doing part-time study are thinking tt work and sch should be of the same weightage in our lives. Too bad tt Boss don't think likewhile. Sigh... >_<"'

永不消失的彩虹 - 卓文萱 (genie zhuo)

2009-09-13T16:45:00.002+08:00

永不消失的彩虹 - 卓文萱 (genie zhuo)

歌詞:

part 1
我看見你的瞳孔看見的那片天空你指尖盡頭架構屬於我的夢那是情冊的星河那是橘色的雲朵遙遠的天國牽出著一道彩虹
你把我眼底的寂寞彩繪成繽紛的宇宙跟在你身后帶我靜靜傲游

請不要放開我的雙手不要缺席我的以后請留給我慢慢消失的那一道彩虹
已經習慣你的雙手牽著我的那种種溫柔只要你懂我會流淚是因為最深處的感動

Only u noe how i feel.. tis is wat i feel from tis song.

A hip & meaningful song... =p

2009-08-25T21:41:00.008+08:00

HQ MV
http://youtube/watch?v=BrDlQbJR5j0
OFFICIAL CHANNEL
http://youtube/user/TopCombine

Singer:Top Combine至上励合

Song title:降临Arrival

(LI) Hey you know who we are
Listen this song and say my name
Scream and shout
We are the TOP COMBINE

(Liu) 干涸的泥土已埋藏千年不变的构图
(LI) Yeah 过滤时光只剩Loneliness But don't afraid
(Liu) 迦南美地消失前开始肆意扼杀生长的幸福
(LI) Yo 是来自异域的艺术警示着历史麻木 New life

(MA) 停不住说不出什么程度
去努力描述风尘已久苍老的石板路
不在乎有若无什么地步
蒸发身体的温度凝结成雕塑

(chorus)当爱重新降临在大地吹散了悲伤的记忆
(ZHANG) 完整了光荣的定义
(chorus)站在重新收获的雨季露出了笑容的美丽
(ZHANG)我想应该是你

Rap(LI) We are the TOP COMBINE
谁说谁很酷 Why 选择一个人孤独的追逐
心跳在加速时间却停住
镌刻的信仰该向谁臣服
梦是不会背叛逃亡的俘虏
吻是可以囚禁幻觉的信物
若即又若离若离又若即的态度
伤口就让时间去弥补

(JIN) 停不住说不出什么程度
去努力描述风尘已久苍老的石板路
不在乎有若无什么地步
蒸发身体的温度凝结成雕塑

(chorus)

(LIU)视线变模糊只剩痛苦
来不及挣脱心的束缚
(ZHANG)努力的去追逐那道光芒
是理想让人勇敢飞翔

(chorus)

TANK 全世界都停電歌词

2009-08-16T21:41:00.001+08:00

連你都會殘忍隔絕
我的心能要誰了解
眼中燭光搖晃著熄滅
為何把我推向邊緣
被砸壞了的一切
卡住了我讓我無法往前

囚禁在距離笑聲最遠的房間
單獨隔離寂寞地盤旋

全世界都停了電全世界都封了街
我所有窗子外面被貼上黑夜
我吶喊思念卻沒人聽見
絕望到極點剩的是疲倦
全世界都停了電全世界白雪滿天
才發覺在我心間有回憶碎片
一作夢翻身就刺痛流血
我卷著身體縮成一個圈像一個句點

Royal Rebel gonna go on strike?

2009-08-12T20:41:00.008+08:00

Gene feels it's like a chore to go for cg at J's and to show face for the sake of attendance. Both Phoebe and i share the same sentiments. Sigh...

We feel that J isn't really concerned about us, he only cares about our attendance for reporting to the elders. Wat the hack!

Gene said she's not going for cg at J's anymore. She wna change cg. She has discussed the latter w Phoebe.

I chatted w Phoebe regarding J b4.

1. He's weird to drop Gene off at the main road diagonally opposite Bishan mrt station after the supper the other day. It was past midnite and she's a gal!!! Wat was he thinking?

2. He likes to gossip about some of the members who r odd / not in the main group.

I mean... wat kind of leader is tis?

My guyfrenz or people of male gender r far beta than he, in terms of character.

Gosh! I shouldn't be judging. Lord, 4give me.. :"l

I like e salon, Chapter 2.

2009-07-16T23:21:00.004+08:00

In order to enjoy the offer (below), I went Chapter 2 salon @ PS to dye hair:

Grand Opening Promotion of C2 Plaza Singapura

I purposely chose the creative stylist (i.e. the senior stylist) to see what the advice the staff will give. The lady was sweet-looking and friendly. I won't have guessed that she is the salon manager. (Wah!)

Then i signed up for the treatment package. It is worth it if u go with frenz or u have hair (thick, flyaway and dry at the ends but oily on the scalp) like me.

I also bought leave-in conditioner which i really needed, a daily shampoo and conditioner for colored hair. But in total, it costs me a bomb. I must save 75% of my next paycheck to recover my spending.

I have the smiley face (shown on the poster above ^_^), since i left the salon.

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2009-07-11T00:03:00.002+08:00

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I thank God for...

2009-05-11T23:37:00.002+08:00

I thank God for
~frenz
1. who r there to borrow homework as reference (Audrey, WX, Kelvin and gene),
2. help me to draw my data and do the calculations (Audrey),
3. helpful to hand up homework on my behalf (Kelvin and WX),
4. stay w me thru thick and thin, and till e end (Audrey, WX, Kelvin and gene, Sarah).
I pray tt Heavenly Father, u will bless each one of them in watevr they do.
~Him
1. who inspire me to think about my lab work and try to do, rather than delay and copy my fren's.
2. calm my nerves and speed up my work.
3. tt today's lab is easily and i complete it quickly so that i can do the previous lab worksheet.

I hate wearing PPE, especially the mask.

2009-05-06T19:17:00.003+08:00

Everyone's busy at work.

Oh God, pls... change the orange zone back to green. It is bcoz my colleagues & i felt tt we'll died of suffocation & heatstroke b4 the swine flu hits our shore.

I pray tt it will disappear very soon. It affects everyone worse, as the world is recovering from the financial meltdown.

Another girlfriend "stepped out of Forbidden City".

2009-04-25T23:33:00.000+08:00

I read E's blog and heard tt she's quitting her job at "Forbidden City". It was her last day yesterday.

I felt relieved for her, since the work caused her health to deteriorate. And her boss seemed to be bullying her.

My heart felt for her bcoz i was once in the same shoes.
Sigh... my nightmare of yesterdays come back again.
Nvm.. I will lecture them in my dreams and pray tt they will be nice to the newbies.

Anyway, back to the story about E.

She is a good fren. She will listen to my complaints and vice versae.

I felt bad when i left without her last year. (Some of my galfrenz had already left b4 me.)

But i thank God tt she found a new job so soon. She gna start working in her ex-workplace.

I pray tt,
Lord,
pls look after my precious fren, E's health, lovelife (give her a good guy) and all other things tt she hold dear to.
All these in the Lord, Jesus' name, i pray. Amen.

=p

A slippery Xmas eve.

2008-12-24T21:50:00.000+08:00

I was running late. Maybe I was drowsy from drinking the cough mixture or I didn't watch my step. I fell at the staircase. No one came to my rescue bcoz it was raining heavily.

Half my pants and purse are wet.

Thank God tt my things didn't fall out from my bag. But I could feel that i have injured my knees and my toe is bleeding. Ouch! I limped my way to the workplace.

I don't know who to turn to. I messaged my sis. She was worried and called me. I told her i will c dr at my workplace, since I'm nearly there.

Boy, i was late! I apologised for being late and scaring her bcoz my voice sounded coarse.

The SPT asked me what is wrong. I told her tt i fell and was injured. She said she fell down yesterday.

A colleague also fell and bumped her head yesterday.

Acacia commented tt this is a slippery Xmas eve. I tried not to think that way bcoz i was having chesty cough so i could be dizzy. =s

Birthday shopping for clothes.

2008-11-16T23:15:00.002+08:00

Meixiu asked me what i want as bday present. I sms back, clothes!
Tis is a msg tt my sec sch fren sent some days ago. I didn't contact them for a few mths.

We arranged 2 meet at Far East 2 shop. They asked me what i need (Well... clothes tt r smart casual bcoz i can wear 2 work & sch).

Aiwei told me tt she approves Xuezhen 2 b her image consultant. With her taking e lead, we shopped around. She wants 2 see me in a dress. We went all over 2 look 4 a suitable 1.

I tried a blue dress, spagehetti top & a floral dress. They commented tt i look sweet in e pink floral dress. So we got tt as my bday gift. Xuezhen laughed, saying tt all of us can wear dresses together next time when we meet (Cool!).

Been to 6 places in a day.

2008-11-15T22:28:00.002+08:00

5.45am ~ i woke up grumpily. I'm tired from the lack of sleep & stomach pain.

6.30am ~ rise & shine 4 sis. she tot tt i tell her we r leaving e house at 7. i told her no, & we'r running late. she said as though it was her fault tt i'm late for my CT scan. I was so angry tt i wna leave without her.

6.45am ~ we stomped out of e house in our opposite directions. i was thinking whether 2 wait 4 her at e bus stop. I saw Aunt boarding e bus tt i wna take & sis running towards tt bus. I stopped her in her track bcoz i don't want Aunt 2 noe where we'r gg.

7.35am ~ we were early 4 e scanning at ttsh. waited 4 e diagnostic staff 2 come at 8.

after 8am ~ i was asked 2 drink 2 cups of yucky water (it contains water & e contrast media). Then e staff poked my vein (i almost teared. I felt e needle is near my bone.). I winced 2 sis, now i noe y old ppl dislike hospital bcoz it's scary & painful.

during the scan ~ e staff jabbed another solution into my vein & informed me tt my body will feel warm. it seems like i'm e meat on the chopping board (Eek!).

after scanning ~ asked 4 mc. went 2 c dr at toa payoh polyclinic bcoz e stomach still hurts & is bloated after taking the chronic medicine. e dr, dr kala was very nice. My fren was surprised 2 be serving me (So weird, since i saw them earlier tis wk 2 celebrate my bday.). She said i look pale (Of course! I'm so hungry & thirsty.).

breakfast at 11plus ~sis wna go toa payoh hub 2 eat Ya Kun toast. we window-shopped at Pepper plus & strolled ard. There wasn't much shops 2 see so we head 2 Yishun.

walking 2 Northpoint ~ i'm accompanying sis 2 shop at Esprit outlet. It looks like a factory outlet but much smaller. told her there's more t-shirts than other clothes. i rmbr tt i need 2 search 4 a fren's bday gift in TM. we waited long 4 e bus tt will bring us 2 Tampines.

TM ~e gift seems 2 b out of stock.
~i want 2 eat e food in bamboo containers tt is found in TM. Too bad tt it wasn't open. My craving doesn't stop there. We took shuttle bus to Ikea 2 eat snacks.

Ikea ~ i luv e showrooms & took photos. I got myself a new pillow. I bought hotdogs & ice cream for my sis & i. It had been a busy day travelling.

4plus ~ went home. Took a shower & nap.

23rd bday celebration...

2008-11-10T22:50:00.005+08:00

I arranged 2 meet Szehui & Sam2 4 lunch. Since it is my bday & i applied leave today, i wna look 4 them at their workplace. =>

It was raining from dawn.

Szehui had 2 fetch me from the bus stop bcoz my train was delayed & i arrived late.

She asked me whether i mind eating vegetable rice (i luv vegetable rice. it's like home-cooked food. i missed grandma's cooking.).

Sam2 was at the coffeeshop waiting 4 us.

They ordered lunch & drink 4 me.

We updated one another on our recent happenings.

Szehui wna buy toto. She used it as a camouflage 2 buy me a 'bday cake'.
Actually, its a chocolate swiss roll w a candle. They sang happy bday song quietly bcoz e uncles & aunties sitted ard, stared at us.

I was very touched, i almost teared. I was surprised by the actions & puzzled. So i asked, did i remind u tt today's my bday? U rmbr?
They laughed, saying when there's facebook & friendster, how can we 4get ur bday?

After the lunch...
They brought me 2 their workplace & showed me ard. It looks bigger than our side.

Szehui showed me her new laptop. It's pink, just like her hp. I told Sam2 2 call her pink panther.

We cracked jokes for awhile. Time flies when we'r enjoying ourselves. We said our goodbyes & hugged.

At home, at nite.
I read my facebook. Szehui posted pics of me.

She wrote, "sam and me enjoyed lunch w u today, hope u don't find our celebration abit small scale .. haha but both sam n me enjoyed lots!" (I really appreciate their thoughtfulness 2 surprise me.)

Sabo... me?

2008-11-08T23:33:00.003+08:00

I thought Tracy is going 2 sabotage me, like play pranks and stuff.
Boy, i was too paranoid.

She just wna give me the bday present.

It's so cute. A butterfly-shaped pendant w a heart in the middle (i didn't notice my name was crafted behind). Szehui commented tt it looks like a dog tag (Yah! i think, since it's heavy n w my name on it.). Haha... Heart and ribbon earrings.

Here's the bday card from my colleagues.
The girl looks kinda like me, i have frizzy hair w a big head.

They sang bday song loudly. I asked them 2 quieten bcoz the patients can hear us from in front.
They r so sweet n helpful.

The old ones shook my hand n wished me happy bday.

Kaleen's last day.

2008-11-05T11:06:00.000+08:00

It's my TP senior's last day at work.

We gave her our well-wishes.

I hope tt she will like the new job.

She bought some cupcakes for us. So sweet, w our individual names written on it!

She also wrote a thank-u card 4 every1. Mine goes like tis, "... I'm not going to say mushy things here. Haha.. Anyway, remember to miss me ard and study hard for your studies k? You have a long way to go! Everything must 'ren'!! Hehe.. Stay in touch! And I'll see you all next year in school! TAKE CARE! Kaleen, 05/11/08"

With frenz like tis, who needs enemies?

2008-10-25T23:42:00.000+08:00

Pastor said tt with frenz like this, who needs enemies?
it's abt a bunch of christians who r weird (i felt).
Later, in today's journey, i'll elaborate on this =>

Today, it is the makeover competition.
I went for the fun of it, not to compete.

During the process, i felt like princess diary / Cinderella.
U muz make an effort 2 look good and stay good for the glory of God.

I have 3 sisters who helped me 2 do makeup.
Initially, Prisc volunteered bcoz e rest haven't arrived.
(Boy, does she looked pretty in her smart causal wear. She really looked much younger! She did e makeup herself & may haf chose e clothes herself. Very impressive! It seems like she is a magician. Actually, she used 2 be in makeup ministry. And also, she likes japanese & korean fashion.)
Anyway, back to my part of e story. It was supposed 2 be Michelle helping. Due 2 lack of time, Pearlyn drew e eyebrows. Michelle did e makeup and Gene did e eyeshadow & sticking of fake lash.
Michelle commmented tt i haf sensitive eyes.

She helped me backstage.

Some things happened towards e end of program. Tis makes me realise who my true frenz r.

Every1 can help and give advice. It's up 2 u whether u want 2 listen anot.
Thinking back...
Junie was my image consultant on last Sun. Phoebe & Andrew's gf, N250 accompanied me 2 shop around Far East.
I was with gene almost e whole week. She recommended eyebrow threading (i wna try but there wasn't a chance tt day, since both of us were late). She shopped w me for makeup & checked on me whether i went 2 do hair at the salon. She wanted 2 help me 2 do makeup but Jason put Michelle in charge. So naturally, i would have choosen Michelle.
It was kinda a mistake. She finished what she was told 2 & left. B4 we left, I didn't realise tt i 4gotten my smart casual wear when i saw Silin, Prisc K, Prisc L & Zhixiu handing them 2 me, smiling. (even though e clothes r worth less than 100 bucks, it was e $$ sponsored by N250 & i like 2 blouse. I was kinda upset.)

Towards e end of the event, Gene wanted 2 help me 2 carry my stuff.
I was in a mess, trying 2 hold on & put things in2 e bag.
Then she stretched out her hand 2 help. I retracted my arm & she 'clawed' me.
I glare & spoke loudly at her. I think she muz be deeply hurt by tt. (even her bf msged me, asking y i'm so fierce. Omg! I told him tt i haf a very bad headache, which was true. If i was having gastric pain? either i wna faint on the spot / sit down & cry bcoz it's getting worse.)

My poor fren! Her bday is coming up soon. Muz make up 2 her somehow.

Hairstyling @ Urban.

2008-10-22T22:49:00.003+08:00

It seems tt Gene knows tt i'm reluctant 2 enter the hair salon. It's so unfamiliar. She gurantee tt they have really good stylists & asked me 2 try for myself.

I walked to the counter and ask the receptionist 2 get me a middle-ranking stylist. I wanna do hair treatment, trim & help me to style my hair.

I was given a form 2 fill & was served a drink. A stylist, Alvin was introduced to me. He is a very nice guy (soft-spoken and very helpful, explained clearly what he's gonna doing).

The jr stylist washed and blow-dried my hair. Omg! He looks around my age or younger. He's like a 'hair dr' bcoz he said tt my scalp's oily so i should wash everyday. (>_<" so embarrassing, since the condition of my hair is bad)

the treatment lotion / hair mask smells sweet and candy-like. i felt like a barbie doll, sitting there to be served. Haha...

alvin: do u want a fringe?
me: will it look funny / fall over the eye?
alvin: i do the style on ur hair b4 i cut. u take photo 1st?
me: nvm lah. just cut.
alvin: u shouldn't have straight hair. ur hair is curly (Ah! i don't like tt word.) ur hair should cover part of ur face, like i'm cutting ur fringe now.

side-tracked...
me: have u eaten?
alvin: no. u going home 2 eat?
me: no. eating out w frenz, usually.
we made small talks, since he has 2 be familiar w e character of his customer to be able 2 design hairstyle for them.

Lets hope tt he may be my resident stylist. Hee. duno... God bless.

I pray for peace of mind for us.

2008-10-11T21:14:00.003+08:00

I pray for peace in our hearts & strength to handle the work bcoz we r irritated by the elders (senior staffs, customers & my mom).

I have to juggle things btw my fren and my boss, my gal fren and guyfren, sis and my aunt these few days. Trying to get on my nerve.

I don't have the energy to entertain any nonsense so i just.. keep quiet during work today.

When Wenting asked me what happen 2 my customer, i told her i'll give the customer a piece of my mind (i.e. purposely explain things slowly to her to get her 2 understand she's wasting her precious time and ours).

Then when i get home to rest, my mom kept nagging. i ignored her totally. Almost scream at her but.. tt may cause my gastric to worsen if i get agitated.
I rmbr the verse in the bible, honor ur parents.
I'll do the things for her but... i won't speak to her these days. Her words r ridiculous.

By myself?

2008-09-14T22:23:00.004+08:00

By myself???

Y?
Sis will go ROM next year, 2009.
Yy has left the cg.
Gene has her bf and family issues.
Nor and sijia thought something bad abt me. I don't contact them anymore.
Tired of the s.c.

Who do i have left?
Of course, my Heavenly Father (always w me in my heart). The devil will try to make me forget >_<". My sec sch frenz. Meixiu, aiwei, limin, xuezhen. Siu Ling jiejie. Felicia & little sam. Jo, sam2, mandy. Silin. Szehui, MJ, kaleen, tracy, fanny (my new found frenz).

With me...

2008-09-01T20:44:00.003+08:00

I will pray and seek God.
This song i'll sing to u...

Artist:	Sum 41
Album:	Underclass Hero
Title:	With Me

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what i did and so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.

All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

I don't want this moment to ever end.
Where everything's nothing without you.

I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.

Celebrate Xuezhen & Aiwei graduation w honor cum Xuezhen bday

2008-07-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

We ate at Botak jones (blk 412 bedok north). It is a western stall in a neighbourhood coffeeshop.

Xuezhen likes to surf the web to find good food. So she brought us there to try.

XZ heard tt the portion of the fish & chips is big so we decide to share.
She commented tt the tartar sauce is good. Both Meixiu & i liked the fish (i simply luv it bcoz it's dory fish, 1 of the fishes i like to eat).
The fries' okay.
The cajun chicken looked unappealing when it came. It was a thick chicken breast with a lump of scratted cheese and cajun sauce on top. I thought it will taste nice like the chicken chop tt i like. But i was wrong. Eek!

Nvm... MX said tt the western food at her parents' coffeeshop is good. We can go there and try next time.

the day after sam jr's 21st bday

2008-07-20T23:49:00.004+08:00

I wanted to give him the vodka tt i bought but i rmbr he say tt he still has an unopened bottle of liquor and another half-drunk bottle. Nah..

actually, it is very simple to get him a gift but... it's 21st bday. Hence, it muz be a special 1. I found a tee tt read 'football head' at the back. And a figure with its head as football. Haha.. i even joked tt it is the only gift for his bday and i can't find any suitable Liverpool jersey from Thailand for him.

He treated Fel and i to Swensens. During the meal, we chatted about going JB or KL together (after he graduate from poly). Fel was saying tt she hasn't opened the bottle of liquor tt we gave for her 21st bday, she wna invite us to sing karaoke and drink w her at her house.

Early 21st bday celebration for Fel.

2008-06-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

We wna get her Hello Kitty merchandise but... we have difficulty choosing.
In the end, we bought hard liquor 4 Fel as her 21st bday present.
I wna 2 give something meaningful (i.e. she can keep and admire), not tt Samuel's idea isn't good.
Just tt, it feels awkward bcoz her family's around and we ain't sure whether they drink alcoholic drinks.

When we reach her place, there were a number of people like frenz and relatives sitting outside.

She said hi to us and mingled around her frenz and family.

She felt bad tt she wasn't able 2 chat with us, leaving Sam and me chatting with each other.

Sam teased her, "Nvm. Get me a big gift 4 my 21st bday. And i'll 4give u."
Haha...

She replied, "Sure. No problem."

She apologised many times for neglecting us.

I comforted her, "It's okay. Don't worry."

We have been frenz since I was in poly year 2 sem 2? I can't rmbr. I'm getting old.

She whispered tt she din invite a lot of frenz, as we have seen majority of the people are her relatives. She don't have tt many close frenz tt are good 2 her. (Sam was saying her definition of close frenz is weird bcoz we sometimes don't contact one another for months, we still count as close frenz? I told him tt every1's categories of frenz are different.
I don't think she tell him b4 about some of her poly schmates. There were some incidents.)

... ...

Sam's bday is 18 days after Fel.
I have 2 start planning what pranks r we gna play. Haha... =p
But 1st, i muz rmbr 2 msg her on the actual day and give Sam a reminder msg.

I feel tt e lyrics of tis song is my heartfelt thoughts abt my ex workplace.

2008-06-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

飛兒樂團 F.I.R

02. 第十行星

愛。歌姬

發行日期 2007-10-05

評分 :

作詞：林尚德　作曲：阿沁/陳建寧　編曲：奧斯卡

冰凍永晝之夜　消失的北極圈　銀白的天際線　在我眼前
有種危險　在妳我心裡面　是貪婪的慾念　多麼膚淺

(Rap)
＃我準備就現在　乘著流星　拋開崩壞的過去
　前往第十行星去　移民未知的星雲
　忘掉記憶中叫作家的藍色行星　還有許多荒謬的人性
　永不滿足的貪心　杞人憂天的擔心
　人定勝天的灰心　天人交戰的善心
　交織成最珍貴美麗的星　卻已消滅在宇宙的中心

＊驕傲的人類　毀　偉大的文明　滅
　哪裡有愛　拯救一切
　終於我犯的罪　永遠在此沉睡
　就算崩潰　也要追回　記憶的美

預言終沒實現　在1999年　地球逃過危險　已好幾遍
那些笑臉　都在記憶裡面　化成繁星點點　掉落天邊

Repeat ＃,＊

星球在碰撞　撞出了信仰　信仰就是愛

Repeat ＊

Let me go..

2008-06-20T23:18:00.000+08:00

Justin called all of a sudden. I sensed that something was wrong.
He asked whether i have started on my new job.

He said tt Lao hei asked him whether he knows I'm working so-and-so place bcoz some1 at retail saw me there. He tried to find out who's the gossiper but no luck (i have a hint on who the culprit).
I felt bad bcoz he is bombarded by the OP aunties with questions about me (we used 2 stick together there).

His sms: maybe the pharmacists duno yet bcoz the head of OP wants to ask me back to teach them the extemp. That made me feel guilty not being able to teach them the tricks. He comforted me by saying tt they r doing fine now.

Another sms: See...! I told u they spreading le. But don't worry. I very good at acting blur. No need to feel bad.

Straight after that, i msg Jo. I complained to her. Very sian..
I told her about the suspect bcoz tt person went around, telling every1 where Sam2 is working.
We share the same views tt it's highly likely tt tt fellow is the culprit.

I was thinking tt on the bright side, she wna let them noe where i am working, since i was on mc on my last days there. On the other hand, she just wna gossip abt others (like tt time, she kept telling me tt she saw Sam2 at T when she covered duty there).

They and she wna bother me?
It's my choice who i wna tell what i'm gna do with my life. Y they so boh liao?

I felt awkward tt i didn't tell some pharmacy frenz what i'm gna do with my studies. Sijia, Nor, Mages, Florence, Bernard, Gerry, Ai shing... Plus some tt i can't rmbr. .

Pastor preached about building lasting frenship.
It made me ponder.

They don't worth to be called frenz, they r mere ex-colleagues. Talking about others behind their backs and in front of them, gossiping. Gosh! They r worse than kids in school.
I thank God tt i didn't get acquainted with them though i was there for 3 years.

When u'r gone...

2008-06-18T21:11:00.009+08:00

.. On our poly frenz' behalf, I sing this to u, Hazel. A sweet song from us, to u in Heaven..
the gals missed u badly. I pray to our Father God, u'r doing well n u'll be happy there =p Amen.

Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song title: When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

Thnx 4 ur care n support, my frenz...

2008-06-14T22:18:00.005+08:00

At first, i wasn't keen to meet my frenz.
I noe tt they will definitely ask about my study plan.
I find them a bother sometimes bcoz they ask & i have 2 repeat again and again.
But... i really thank God tt they r concerned abt me. =p

Today,
SiuLing-jiejie jio me 2 go shopping w her.
I asked her about her Baxter job application.
Told her tt my fren worked hard there. Little time 4 lunch & no extra $$ for OT bcoz of heavy workload.
She's shocked when i spoke abt it.
Oops.. i comforted her by saying, nvm. U'r a pharmacist, not a PT. Just give it a try 1st.

We grew hungry & waited 4 ChorKian-gege 2 have dinner together.
CK gave some advise on further studies and career prospect.
I commented tt he sounded like Uncle Yeow (they r my advisers, tt those in traditional chinese drama, giving ideas 2 e General)
He made similar remarks when i met him & Sijia the other day.
They said...
U can work part time while doing ur degree. Work hard and study hard.
Do a job tt is relevant 2 ur course of study (beautify ur cv).
Y? bcoz it will help u 2 get a higher starting salary than a normal graduate w/o experience.

Hmm... i noe tt it will be very tiring but... some poly frenz have been doing it.
I can also do it w God's given strength and wisdom.
I pray tt i can follow it through w God's guidance. Amen..

Ate Chinese food for the whole day. Juz luv it!

2008-06-07T23:58:00.003+08:00

In the morning, i met my poly fren 4 breakfast and chat. Ate at Din Tai Fung.
It felt so weird 2 b eating breakfast-cum-lunch at 11am.
Nvm.. since i juz luv 2 eat Chinese cuisine =p

Then i went Vivo city 2 shop around w my sis.
She loves 2 shop by herself.
Anti-social.. (i muz nag at her 2 ask her frenz out, it's as though i'm e elder 1 instead of her >_<")

Anyway, i told her tt my pharmacist aka KM jiejie brought me 2 makan at a eatery in Food Republic.
Tasty but... very fulling. Haha..
We shopped for office wear awhile and head down 2 the eatery.

The place looks old-fashioned and cosy but the lights (there's more spotlights than normal lamps) r very glaring. The walking space is very limited during peak hours. U always bump in2 another person. Haiz..

Oh... we order the 2-person Set meal A (costs $30plus, excluding the drinks).

This is the main highlight, seafood noodles (this isn't e dish's actual name bcoz i 4got). U can choose e type of noodles tt u want. E.g. bee hoon (my fav.), mee sua (i don't like bcoz i feel it taste weird) and lor mee.

Deep fried duck meat w yam paste. It's nice n crispy when it's hot. But... i don't like the yam paste and oilyness. Eek!

This is delicious. It's their homemade beancurd. The soy taste is juz nice n the sauce complements it very well.

Chinese herbal soup w prawns. It has a faint alcohol taste (duno whether my allergic nose is giving me wrong signals anot). A few prawns only but.. +ve side is tt they r big and red..

My sister also likes all the dishes. It's juz tt her stomach is too small.
If not, i wna eat their fried buns. Nice, man... inside has mushrooms, veg and meat. Yummy!

21 days of prayer...

2008-06-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

I will carry my cross n follow e Lord.
Practise my praying like wat e pastor taught.

I will pray for everybody n everything.
Church.
Cg.
Family.
Frenz.
Myself.

Pray...

I will never be alone, though i feel lonely in my heart.

2008-06-03T12:52:00.009+08:00

Been out with frenz and colleagues lately..

2008-06-02T14:45:00.005+08:00

Snow Phoenix with her favourite Macha ice cream and other ice cream flavours (wild berry, cookies and cream, tt's with plenty of cookie chunks)

Close-up of her waffle biscuit with Japanese ice cream. Yummy!

ET (she's always the one who makes funny posts and make me laugh. Miss her), Mandy and Jo.

Sam2 favourite dessert (Japanese dumplings with red bean paste). 'Hoyishe'.

Hang-out or gatherings... all these have filled my schedule after the hectic and tiring work.

It is good to relax and have fun with new found frenz who's my juniors in poly and ex-colleagues.
It really makes u feel younger and livelier.

Time flies when u chit chat about everybody's recent happenings and juicy gossips to make everyone laugh. Haha...

Freedom..

2008-06-01T23:35:00.003+08:00

My cg leader asked me whether I am keen to go on a Bangkok trip with them.
"I would love to. And my sister wants to join us." I replied.

He commented, "since u have worked hard these 3 years, u deserved a break."
I feel likewise bcoz i have been working hard.

After i quit, i can relax for awhile.
Take time to think about life and re-charge myself before i start on a new chapter.

Gekidou / Just break the limit.

2008-05-19T20:20:00.002+08:00

Song title: Ji Dong (chinese) / Just break the limit (english) / Gekidou (japanese)
Singer: Uverworld
Info: 4th opening theme of D Gray Man anime

Lyrics ->

Baby, no.
Your sharpened eyes, not fulfilled by the cliched phrases
or somebody's copy.

Spark! It disappears.
Again we borrow the tiger's threat to push through.
I will win without a doubt. Fight!

Pitch black best fight of the last age!
Now hard, at the first round stage
don't feel like losing a little bit!

Try to survive, can't fight 'em down!
Losing the sun, I look fr the whereabouts of the moon.
Losing the sight of things that we could see before,
we drown in the sea of memories, but why?

Even the vows made to each other are voided,
.. and the next passport.

Never alone!
Eternal voice, again!
When will it reach the heart?

Never alone!
Eternal voice, again.
let's hear.

Never alone!
Eternal voice, again!
When will it reach the heart?

Never alone!
Shining point!
Again!

May i get in...?

2008-05-15T17:03:00.004+08:00

God answered my prayer when i was searching for a job in recruitment website.
It came as a chance to gain more knowledge in skincare (since i'm too lazy to clean my face properly and take good care of it >_<") and to have a change of work environment.

I decided not to study overseas bcoz Mum's ill and she injured herself many times, plus sister's relationship w her bf is on the rocks these few months. I need to look after them.

... ...

I was having butterflies in the stomach since last night. I was quite nervous about the interview. What will they ask?

During the interview, the lady was very nice to explain the tricks of writing the resume.

The assistant manager talked about what are the major duties of a PT.

He mentioned tt they haf a pharmacy where 1 PT runs it everyday with around 50-60 scripts per day. Wah! I'm shocked and scared if i will be sent there. I will practise to dispense more. My weakness is tt i don't looked confident enuf and i stutters.

... ...

Another person b4 me said tt i may get the position since i haf more years of experience than her. I told her it depends.

Now, i come to think of the interview. There were some awkward moments of silience.
Err! Dots...

What nonsense i haf said. I can only pray tt my current employer will not speak ill of me to my future employer and my current colleagues. Oh Heavenly Father, please help me to believe tt u will grant my heart's desires bcoz i'm a child of God. Amen.

If the Lord permits me to work there.
I will do my work well and perhaps to be able to study part-time for the diploma in cosmetic science (told my interviewer tt i may want to be a sales rep for cosmetic company in the future. Crap! I was saying without thinking. :c My dream is to be a researcher or scientist. Haha =p ).

Quizz

2008-04-26T09:57:00.002+08:00

Don't worry, Jas. I'll do e quiz. Haha...

The rules are:

1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then go to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
4. Rules are meant to be broken.. teehee..
5. Who comes up with these games anyway? I’m surprised I got sucked into all this.

What was I doing ten years ago (1998 in general)?

1. Started Sec 1 in Damai Sec
2. Joined the Gu cheng club and almost became its chairman, then i drop out
3. Joined the choir at the end of the year, since i prefer singing to playing instruments
4. Spent most of the afternoons after school to play and chat w frenz, rather than study / do homework
5. Moved to another class in 1999 where there is the school's top 3 shuai-ge.

5 things on my to-do list today:

1. Go and visit my grandma
2. Go shopping (it's the day after paycheck)
3. Do some household chores + my baking
4. Hangout with sis / by myself to do my gifts for my fren's bday
5. Go online to watch my fav anime

5 snacks I enjoy (I think this is a trick question. Just 5?!?):

1. Ice creams (all except yam and peppermint flavours)
2. Cakes (from Cheesecake factory, San Francisco and Black Forest cake)
3. Chocolates and cookies
4. FOod with potatoes
5. Chinese dessert soups (except things with almond / sesame seeds)

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:

1. Travel around the world as a missionary
2. Support the Children cancer foundation and Ronald MacDonald fund
3. Go to tour Japan with Leetheng, Taiwan and other countries w frenz
4. Buy a penthouse near East Coast, a golden retriever and renovate the house resort-style, then get my frenz and cousins to come and PARTY!
5. Fill one whole room with my anime figurines n popstars' posters, comic books

5 of my bad habits (Oooooh...):

1. Mood swings
2. Lazy cow
3. Eat lot now? later i starve myself..
4. Likes to buy tee shirts n jeans n sneakers
5. Watch tv

5 places I have lived:

1. Bedok North (babysitter, grandma)
2. Bedok South
3. 2 weeks in sister's fren's place in San Francisco
4. Err. I'm a country pumpkin.

5 jobs I've had:

1. Packer during Christmas
2. Waitress
3. Sales asisstant
4. Cashier
5. Pharmacy technician in KKH

5 people I tag:

1. Gene
2. Nicole Yy
3. Audrey
4. Priscilla
5. Hazel

Veg as the main ingredient of the cuisine

2008-04-19T23:47:00.003+08:00

My sister was asking me to recommend what to eat.
I asked her to choose whether she wants to eat Vegetarian food at Bugis / Korean food at Far East. She chose Far East bcoz she wants to shop at Orchard.

In the end, the Korean food that we ordered has more vegetable than meat.
Y? Bcoz the majority of it is used for bbq meat.
I commented, "don't u think the food that we'r having is like eating vegetarian food? so little meat?"
None the less, it tasted delicious. I gave it a grade 9 out of 10 bcoz so little meat.

Since she's tired from the shopping spree and very hungry, she enjoyed the 6 side dishes 1st.
She tried the Kim chi but she didn't like it. It is due to the hot red color and sourness of the dish. She thought it was quite spicy. It turned out I find it okay, not too spicy by my standards.

This were our main courses, sauteed vermicelli and pork in Korean style; stone bowl rice with beef.

Clean the oilness from our mouths, drinking Korean tea. Refreshing! Tasted like a type of rice or grain tea of some sort. Hmm..

We cleared the plates that's filled with food. Yum...
Wah! She really can eat lot.

Life's a journey.

2008-04-19T20:11:00.003+08:00

"Life is a journey, not a guided tour."
This was told by my Pri. 6 form teacher old ago.

"Go forward. Don't look back."
A sentence came to Allen Walker's mind during the lowest time of his life, (spoken by his foster parent, Manna, at the moment b4 he died). A anime shown on Arts Central and one of the anime that i'm currently watching..

Guest Pastor Kim preached, life is a journey and it is temporary. During her youth, it was difficult to survive. She didn't give up hope and prayed to God. She knows that God loves her and he will give the provisions that she needs.

So... i must go forward, no matter what lies ahead. God is always with me. He will guide me. Even if i made the wrong choice in life? He will lead me towards the correct path that He had planned. Amen..

How Are You Lately? 最近還好嗎

2008-04-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

My galfrenz from OP: Josephine, Samantha & Mandy..

Jo wasn't around these few days with Sam & Mandy resigned, and Siu Ling, Eunice, Nor and Xuefeng's in their departments. Even though they'r in the same hospital, it felt so far.
I feel so alone.
Eunice said it's back to square 1 for me, where i started out as the only youth in CR.
Sianz...
Oh, God. Pls give me comfort and keep me company..

The other day, I told sis that my pharmacy gang has shrunk.
A lot of pharmacists, PTs and PAs had left.

I wondered, how r they doing? Miss them lots..

Traditional Chinese	Hanyu Pinyin	Translation
最近還好嗎 - S.H.E 挑一張耶誕卡寫上滿滿祝福的話地址寫的是心底你能不能收到它天有點冷風有點大城市寧靜而喧嘩這一個冬天我得一個人走回家問自己習慣了嗎沒有你每到夜裏回聲變得好大有沒有什麽好方法讓寂寞更聽話你最近還好嗎是不是也在思念裡掙扎你說會記得我還記得嗎你最近還好嗎忙碌嗎累嗎心還會痛嗎如果真不得已忘了我快向快樂出發有再多的牽掛都已沒有權利表達舊情人給的問候比陌生人還尴尬昨天遠了明天還長回憶模糊但巨大這樣的深夜眼淚要怎樣不流下	Zui Jin Hai Hao Ma - S.H.E tiao yi zhang ye dan ka xie shang man man zhu fu de hua di zhi xie de shi xin di ni neng bu neng shou dao ta tian you dian leng feng you dian da cheng shi ling jing er xuan hua zhe yi ge dong tian wo dei yi ge ren zou hui jia wen zi ji xi guan le ma mei you ni mei dao ye li hui sheng bian de hao da you mei you she me hao fang fa rang ji mo geng ting hua ni zui jin hai hao ma shi bu shi ye zai si nian li zheng zha ni shuo hui ji de wo hai ji de ma ni zui jin hai hao ma mang lu ma lei ma xin hai hui tong ma ru guo zhen bu de yi wang le wo kuai xiang kuai le chu fa you zai duo de qian gua dou yi mei you quan li biao da jiu qing ren gei de wen hou bi mo sheng ren hai gan ga zuo tian yuan le ming tian hai chang hui yi mo hu dan ju da zhe yang de shen ye yan lei yao zen yang bu liu xia	How Are You Lately? - S.H.E Pick up a Christmas card Fill it with best wishes Address it to the heart Can you receive it? Weather is a bit cold, wind is a bit strong The city is quiet with the noise This winter I have to go home alone Ask myself if I've gotten used to it? The nights without you The echo becomes so loud Is there a good way To quiet the loneliness How are you lately? Are you also struggling inside? You said you would remember me, remember? How are you lately? Are you busy? Does your heart still hurt? If you have to, forget me Quickly head for your happiness Regardless how much I care I don't have the right to ask Ex-lover's greetings Are more awkward than a stranger's Yesterday is far, tomorrow is long Memories are blurry yet huge The tears in this dark night How to stop them from falling?

Forgiveness

2008-03-23T12:59:00.003+08:00

The pastor said, "Forgive those who have sinned against u, just as God forgives u. The vertical beam of the cross signifies we receive forgiveness from God and the horizontal beam means to give forgiveness to others.
When God forgives, He forgets completely (Isaiah 43:25)."

4 results of unforgiveness:
1) it keeps the pain alive.
2) it produces bitterness. Bitterness is like an infection, will harm ur overall wellbeing (Hebrews 12:15).
3) it gives Satan open doors (Ephesian 4:26-27).
4) it hinders fellowship w God (Matthew 6:14-15).

Jus let go, let God do His work in and thru us.
Thru prayer and fast, we will get our prayers answered in due time.

=p

I'm one of the Jiemei in SCKSL's wedding.

2008-03-22T23:54:00.006+08:00

Fri 21/03/08 am

The brothers were late. Bro CK must say, "SL, I will love u forever. I'm here to fetch u." under her block. If she's able to hear that, he would be allowed to upstairs to fetch her.

The gate-crashing...
1st hongbao had too little $$ so we played pranks on them.
CK gave it all out when he ate the wasabi-filled bread into a heart shape.

In the midst of it, he kept saying there's short of time and tried to pry the padlock.
We, the sisters were shocked to find that it wasn't locked at all. We locked it.
Then CK drew out the keys (it's the bride, SL's younger bro passed it to him).
Another shock for us. He was very cheeky.
Told him for the sake of SL, pls cooperate.

When we'r satisfied w the sum of $$, we let him in.

Since he still had wasabi taste in his mouth, he felt weird to kiss SL.
The couple was flushed. He was bcoz of the chilli padi inside the wasabi bread and playing the pranks. Her? Heat rashes all over her back from the anticipation and hot weather.
(Hee! :p I brought a mini electric fan for them to use.)

Tea ceremony...
There were many relatives to be served. The relatives really looked similar.
We presented the specially made dessert (M&Ms w CK's and SL's names and the phrase 'meant to be' printed on them) from SL's fren, air-flown from US. Everyone was amazed.

With a bright, sunny weather, the day went smoothly and ended b4 the estimated timing at 1pm.
It began to rain heavily in the early afternoon.
I thank God for the good weather and no upsets had happened during the event.

Sat 22/03/08

Even though it was a heavy downpour, the guests came early for the wedding banquet.

We, sisters were busy helping them to sign-in and drop their hongbaos.
The brothers were inside, doing the final checks on the music and other preparations.

For the 1st march-in...
SL was wearing the sexy wedding gown. It shows her transclucent back and neck area w lace, and a corset in the front. CK in tuxedo, looking charming w a glitter hairdo by the makeup artist.
Blubbles were blown and soft music played when the couple walked in. It was so romantic.

Music performance...
B4 that, Jojo they all made a video of blessings given by staffs of diff pharmacy departmts to surprise SL. She was touched to tears.

She requested them to perform some songs that she would love to hear. (KM and i told her they r very serious about the job and practice vigoursly till very late.)
There was a hiccup somewhere in between but it was still great.
They did a good job.

Food...
SL knows what she likes. The Tung Lok food tasted fantastic. Nice!
It is the best wedding that i've been to.

Service...
The ppl who helping w the march-in, were professional. Great!
Ppl serving food? They are quick to serve and top-up ur drinks.

Hmm.. i'm unhappy about the part where they rushed u to finish up the food.

Bid farewell...

We went up to the suite to disturb the couple after the banquet.
The brothers were so goody-2-shoes. I tink they must be exhausted.

We, gals asked the couple to play games b4 he's allowed to have SL.
I felt bad about it since KM and i had no prior experience as Jiemei to do these sort of thing.

The couple gave each of us hongbaos and gifts other than wat was given by their parents.
I felt worse.

(Had diarrhoea since Sat morning, i duno wat's wrong.)

Bad thing happened to u when u did it to others. =s

My gift for the couple...
It's just a nice card w a design of diff expressions of a couple.
I did written some words inside to bless them and DIY something w a hongbao paper.

I'm tired of the stock take and rountine work.

2008-03-18T23:18:00.001+08:00

We had the annual stock take on 14 & 15 March 2008.
Actually, it was supposed to be on the Easter weekend but... it will be Siu Ling's wedding on Saturday, 22th. So the chief pharmacist pushed it forward.

It was fun and heart-warming to see the old staffs to be hard at work. Haha...
Aishing was very happy to see they were eager and quickly finished the work, and the result of the report.
I'm not surprised at their response.
They can do it fast. It is just a matter whether they want to or not.
>_<"

Towards the end, half the group were resting and chatting while the others assisted the pharmacists to do the last editing of the report.

... ...

The next few days, i have to be buddies to the new perm and temp staffs.
I felt bad leaving them alone at times bcoz i'm busy checking my own work and the different daily works that i have to do.
It's tiring after the stock take and the patients are crowding the place after vacation has ended. Thank God that the new gals are eager to learn and quietly do their work, giving me some peace to attend to my work.

Wanna rest and read the Word of God to recharge the spirit.
Take a breather somewhere away from the buzz and chaos of the place. I need a holiday...

In conclusion...

2008-03-06T22:38:00.002+08:00

in the afternoon...
I was telling E, Jo & Sam that our frenz (the young staffs) will leave the place sooner or later. It is just a matter of time.

E: asked A whether she has found a new job.
A: Yes.
E: what about the rest?
A: cip is waiting for 'time'.

The management is lousy.
I meant that the boss of OP did not control the experienced staff to bully the newbies and others. Let me to be more detailed, the experienced staff taught the newbies some knowledge and dump the difficult tasks on them, while they, themselves slack off (e.g. their mouths move to gossip but the hands are not working, disappear when it is not their breaktime & they work in slow motion / no sense of urgency during peak periods).

We had enough. That is y the few of us r resigning.

Jo & E: the boss did not ask the reason / try to retain the young blood (those who r hardworking, willing to brainstorm new ideas to improve & accept new ideas). They r nuts.

E: the boss should issue the warning letters to tame them awhile. If they do not improve, to ask them to leave.
I: Brillant idea! It is too bad that they r not firm enough. They r leaders in name without leadership / management qualities.

I pray for them to change for the better but... this kind of thing cannot be one-sided. They need to change the attitude.
If not? they will suffer eventually when the newbies & us quit.

at night...
Msg to my preg-reg: all of u r going 2 stay? Don't say that i did not warn u about them.
J: all of us have signed on. Pray for me.
I: i've always prayed but nothing seems to work

To be the same or change for the better

2008-03-05T22:16:00.002+08:00

Magas made a point and I agreed to what she said. We can help out until the weak is able to stand up and earn a living. We are applying what is written in the Book of James.

She can see that the new cashier, M is a slacker and our boss, J is blinded to hire her. J is too caught up in work and to maintain the manpower until… she can’t see that some of us are working hard while others just slack off.

… …

F asked Jo yesterday that her frenz are resigning, when she will leave. She does not want to comment.
F said to her, so it is confirmed that she is leaving too. It implies that there is no secret in the office.

I shared with Jo; a colleague wants to check whether my last day is the end of April. I tried to recall, I only let some ppl know but I forgotten who.

The point is some of them are spending the time to gossip and slack during office hours.

>_<”

Our 'angel' has passed away.

2008-02-18T15:12:00.002+08:00

I visited my pharmacist fren in hospital yesterday.
Omg! i dislike GH bcoz it is a place where very sick people have to stay and recuperate.
Very scary loh!
I remember that time, my sec sch teacher also had a heart attack.
The doctor did a 2nd bypass for him. He looked so frail and pale. I almost cried.

My fren has many tubes and lines connected to her body.
Those things help her to maintain the heartbeat to wait until there is a heart available.

Her spirit is willing but the physical body is weak.
They put her on morphine yesterday afternoon to lessen the pain.
I know that if the patient is on morphine (the strongest painkiller), the person will not last long.

Poor dear, she has been complaining about back pain and bloated stomach.
Some of us prayed with and for her. Sobs...!

Nor msged me this morning, she has passed away.
Heavenly Father has taken her to be with Him.
It is good for her in a sense, to shorten her physical pain and give her spirit freedom.
Everyone will miss u especially her parents and younger brother.
We know that u r in good hands with the Lord. Amen.

够爱

2008-02-13T15:08:00.008+08:00

夠愛(未收錄此專輯中)

　　　　　　　　　　　　　
作詞：A Chord　
作曲：脩　
編曲：東城衛樂團　
演唱：A Chord+東城衛

我穿梭金星　木星　水星　火星　土星　追尋
追尋你　時間滴滴答滴答答的身影 (ｘ２)

指頭還殘留　你為我　擦的指甲油
沒想透　你好像說過　你和我　會不會有以後

＃世界一直一直變　地球不停的轉動
　在你的時空　我從未退縮懦弱
　當我靠在你耳朵　只想輕輕對你說
　我的溫柔　只想讓你都擁有

＊我的愛　只能夠　讓你一個　人獨自擁有
　我的靈和魂魄　不停守候　在你心門口
　我的傷和眼淚　化為烏有　為你而流
　藏在無邊無際　小小宇宙　愛你的我

你聽見了嗎？我為你唱的這首歌
是為了要證明　我為了你　存在的意義

Repeat ＃　＊

愛你的我　不能停止脈搏　為了愛你奮鬥
就請你讓我　說出口

愛　只能夠　讓你一個　人獨自擁有
我的靈和魂魄　不停守候　在你心門口
我的傷和眼淚　化為烏有　為你而流
藏在無邊無際　小小宇宙　愛你的我　愛你的我

我穿梭金星　木星　水星　火星　土星　追尋
追尋你　時間滴滴答滴答答的身影 (ｘ４)

Found tis song that i like.

One of the song sang in The X family.

Jiro and Xiu are very cute. Not shuai but... cute in their own way.

It is from 東城衛+A Chord.

Pls enjoy tis song at (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsL0CTMTw_w&feature=related).

i didnt expect that from you.

2008-02-12T23:24:00.002+08:00

I had a bad headache and cough. It was the feeling that I will have before I fall very sick.
Dots... but i have a date with Jo, Sam and Man' at MOF for Sam and Man's farewell dinner.

If i don't go? everyone will have a difficult time to hangout together.

I told them why i am staying.
1. To clear 2007's annual leave and maybe some of this year's leave (top priority!!)
2. To retain some income until i find a temp job with good pay.
I don't care lah.
No matter what they will say later on? I will give the letter directly upstairs.
Tired sia.

We took photos together and of ourselves and food. Yummy!
The thing that i didn't expect from Jo is: she gave us hongbaos.
Wah! I was joking the other day when i asked her for it.
Haha...

'Zombified'

2008-01-16T21:20:00.000+08:00

Jen: "I need a coffee."
I: "Hah? A cup of coffee? not good for u. i'll get u coke instead."
She meant the coffin.

She asked me, 'Why can't they let us rest in peace?"
She meant why can't they let us leave in happily.

Let me tell u why she and i feel the same way today...

she has 2 ridiculous customers today.
One scolded her bcoz of the long wait for medication and she missed her appointments.
The senior PA, R likes to act 'boss' and irritate Jen and me.

Mine? Is a every other day (eod) happening.
1a) I mean that the seniors are scheduled to do today's extemp.
They didn't do the difficult case and refused to prepare the walk-in case.
1b) R slammed the prescription in front of me on the desk. Who he thinks he is?
They thought i'm the coordinator of extemp so... i must do everything they throw to me?
2) I have to do it myself or beg my other department staff to prepare. It is bcoz some 'smart aleck' didn't change the collection date in the calendar when he/she told the parent that they can collect the extemp medicine today instead of the allocated date.

We don't care le!
We are not going to become slaves anymore, getting our blood and energy sucked everyday.
It's time that we try to resuscitate ourselves before it's too late.

The few of us have given our resignation letters bcoz of the happenings.
We are really going. They all have to bear the cost.

Vice-head asked me whether i can extend my stay anot.
I consulted my frenz and sister, they said "No! Just go!"

They know that we're being bullied by the experienced staffs (irregardless whether PT or PA).
Our families and frenz have listened us when we complained in tears and frustration.

Alone (part 2)

2008-01-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

Noraizah asked me when I am flying to Australia. I told her, it is at the end of June 2008.
She will be alone at the pharmacy, she said. It is bcoz most of us are pursuing our dreams or fulfill our family duties.

Siuling also felt the same way since her little 'sister' (that's me) is going to be a student again.
The least i can do is to help out at her wedding and share her joy of getting married.

I totally forgotten that little Bernard will also be alone there. He asked me "when will be my last day? Monday is my first day of school. I won't be seeing you here during school holidays. " I: "Erm. Aiya! We don't have to meet here. We can hang-out elsewhere."
I mean there is no young blood to click with him. So poor thing. He will be back with the routine of studying and working there on Saturdays. I felt like giving him a hug of comfort. Sigh...

... ...

Now, i feel sad when i send frenz off at the airport, either they are going back to their hometown or flying overseas to study or work.

I am still not mentally and financially prepared. Err!

I pray that Lord will give me and my fren, Gene, a good study loan (pray that it will be a good bargain). Through the power of the Holy spirit, we will have the strength to study hard and the wisdom. Help me to choose 2 majors that are most suitable for me (bcoz i like sciences, biology and chemistry). Protect my loved ones, oh God, especially my sister and grandma. Keep them safe and healthy, be surrounded with good company. All these, i pray in Jesus's name. Amen.

New year blessings

2008-01-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

My fren smsed:

I asked God, "How do i get the best out of life..?"

God answered: "Face ur past without regret. handle ur present with confidence. prepare for the future without fear.."
Then He added "keep the faith & drop the fear. don't believe ur doubts & never doubt ur beliefs. life is wonderful if u know how to live."

I pray that everyone that i know, will have a blessed year in 2008.
May God be with them always and bless them with good health and have good company.
In the Lord's most precious name. Amen.

Alone.

2007-12-22T10:27:00.000+08:00

Anime: Bleach

6th opening theme song: Alones
Singer: Aqua timez

Japanese (not updated version)
Chorus
oreta awai tsubasa
kimi wa sukoshi
aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
mou dareka no tame ja nakute
jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

izen to shite shinobiyoru kodoku
uchigawa ni tomoru rousoku
nigiwau ba ni gouka na shanderia to wa urahara ni

tarinai kotoba no
kubomi o nani de umetara ii n' darou
mou wakaranai yo

semete yume no naka de
jiyuu ni oyogetara anna sora mo iranai no ni
kinou made no koto o
nuritsubasa nakute mo asu ni mukaeru no ni

Chorus

English version
Chorus
Your fragile, folding wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself

That lonely feeling keeps creeping up on me
A single candle burns still inside
There shouldn't be an expensive chandelier in a wild place like this

Can I really bury it all with empty words?
I don't even know anymore

As long as we can swim freely in our dreams
we won't need that sky anymore.
Even if you can't let go of the past
I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow

Chorus
Your fragile, folding wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself

Verse of the day

2007-12-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

From Samsam,

Philippians 4:8
Finally brothers, whatever that is true, whatever that is honest, whatever is just, whatever that is pure, whatever that is lovely, whatever that is of good report, if there is virtue and if is praiseworthy, think of these things.
God bless...

My bad

2007-12-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

Justin kept telling me that he has invited Kelvin to join us for lunch.
I threathened by saying "You try asking him and the 2 of u can eat by urselves."
I'm being mean but... Justin's trying to matchmake us.
I won't buy it. He was nagged by me.
... ...

Another bro is blur like sotong,
He has similar character and hobbies as Justin.
The funny thing is that both are teased by me (always call them Uncle as greeting).

But... he's more cheeky.
Y? We argued about the way to get to Bugis from Bedok.
He don't believe wat I said loh. =l

Then i joked, i wna go home.
That fellow don't let me alight. =S
I almost fainted in the car. (I wasn't feeling well. Honest!)
I pouted.

He said he's gna tell our cell leader on me.
Hemm! I rebuked, "I'm gna complain to 2nd head."
(Hmm. Who asked him to be so bad?)
I ignored him when he's checking w me the direction to Bedok interchange.
(Okay la. Maybe he's very hungry, give him chance.)
... ...

It's my bad. To be wilful, making fun of my "brothers".
Thanks alot, u guys for being such gentlemen and so sweet. =p

The darker side

2007-11-28T15:26:00.001+08:00

A customer shouted at Sam yesterday morning, It happened in front of the long queue. OMG!
She commmented that Sam is unfriendly, purposedly dropped her items and threw the receipt in her face.
Dots.. Our counter tops are crampy and things may topple over.
Sam served her with an expressionless face and left the receipt on the counter.

It is the peak period. We are trying to speed up the waiting time.
I think the Obasan (aka auntie in jap) is Full Of Nonsense (FON) and being unreasonable.
She made Sam cry lo. Crap!

Sam told me that she hate this job. I totally agree with her.
Y? The patients / customers and the staff are FON cum Full Of Crap (FOC).
They always ask for freebies, free of charge (foc) items and more discounts.
... ...

I have to do 3 couriers before today's deadline and my scheduled duty is to help outside.
I'm trying to plan what to do 1st.
He nagged lo.

("Relac lah!" This phrase came to mind. It means to relax and cool. QY mentioned it to us, when he told us he said that to the supervisor. She's like a ganjiong spider.)
It is the same case at our side.
The old staff can be as slow as snails at one time and ganjiong spiders at the other moment.

I got irritated. I scolded Ben for disturbing me.
... ...

I gave my colleague and another student a stern look.
One wna clarify things while the student teased me.
In the end, both gotten scolded.

I should be applying the Gospel (To be quick to listen, slow to anger and slow to speak).
I did reflect soon after and told them what's happening.
... ...

Y is the darker side that is evil, trying to ruin our love of serving others ?
>_<"

It's not Monday blues for today, its the sleepy spell...

2007-11-26T14:09:00.000+08:00

On my way to work, I prayed:
dear Heavenly Father,
I pray that we will not have Monday blues.
Through the power of the holy spirit,
give us strength and wisdom to complete the work and handle the holiday crowd of patients.

But..
our bodies are weak and tired due to the hectic schedule last week and lack of manpower.
I'm also tired le and sleepy.
My frenz and i are going to turn into sleeping beauties before the day is over...

Anime (Bleach) 2nd opening song

2007-11-09T09:42:00.000+08:00

D-tecnoLife

Performer: UVERworld

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Shouler the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live

Your hand that i held...

Will we lose it someday?
I want to protect you and that disappearing smile
The ringing voice that calls me dries out
Even if it gets erased by the wind along time
I will find you

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize

Like a rusted person

It felt so hollow to just pile atop one another
You said you could live on your own
Just with the usual kind words
You ache to a point where I cannot reach you

Your hand that I held searched for some simple kindness
Do you remember
By learning pain, you can become a person who can be kind to others
Drive your Life

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize

How can I see the meaning of life
Disappearing, you're the only. . .

So you will not break, you distance yourself from me
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Now it's by and by, even if you cannot see, there's a meaning to everything
Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live

You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life?
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . though, we cannot return

Like in times of warped memories, we can understand someday

We'r going to leave.

2007-11-05T22:44:00.000+08:00

Sam-sam asked "R u going with us on Jan 2008?"
"We can hand in the resignation letter after we have confirmed the bonus is?
They won't cancel it at the last minute right?"
She looked so afraid that we'll lose the money.

I assured her that on 18th Dec, the bonus will be credited into our bank account.

I was thinking about what I told Kim and SJ that time during meet-up, 16 or 17/10/2007.
(We are leaving the place to look for a better future.
Don't have to feel bad about leaving and they have a lack of staff.
It's not our fault.)

Touched by the Sms

2007-10-25T22:49:00.000+08:00

::: Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life,
but I rather be your moon,
so I can shine on you during your darkest hour
when your sun isn't around::: Goodnight

Alone?
I'm beside u
Afraid?
I'm here to comfort u
Hurt?
U may cry on my shoulders
Need a hug?
My arms r urs
Y?
Coz u'r d some1 special 2 me!

In life..
God doesn't give u the people u want..
instead God gives u the people u need:
2 teach u,
2 guide u,
2 love u
&
2 make u..
exactly the way u like it..

Sian...

2007-10-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

Today is SJ's bday.
Ah... i really miss her.

SL's office has moved back to 7th storey.
I have few frenz there le.
The few frenz are also tired of the work.

Heavenly Father,
I need a revival there.
A major revamp..
We should change the system bcoz it's too stagnant.
We, youngsters can't stand the everyday nonsense.
Give us the energy to fight the evil ones and the
wisdom to improve the workflow.
Change the management's thinking, oh God.
If not? The good staff will leave one-by-one.
And the newbies will resign bcoz they also can't tolerate the evil ones.
>_<"

Blessings and circumstances.

2007-10-23T23:26:00.000+08:00

T: Part 1, Blessed with food

Mages asked me whether i like to eat cheese.
"Of course! I love cheese. Look at my height. I'm tall bcoz i ate all dairy products. Yummy!" I replied enthusiastically.
She gave the cheese biscuit to me.
Haha... happy sia.

It was TWC's last day at work.
She bought us big muffins.
Mages brought one to me and later part of the day, Florence gave me another.

I'm supposed to meet an ex-colleague for lunch.
Something cropped up and I didn't eat with her.
She bought me a muffin, tart and chocolate slice.
I blessed R with muffin since he may get hungry in the middle of the night.

Then, I message my sister to say that I will come home late. If she is very hungry, she can finish the food that she promised to share with me. I will find something to munch.
Thank God that Mum has an extra pack of bee hoon.
Yeah! I'm blessed with my favourite food.
Yummy!
:p

Part 2, weird happenings

M said that Y told J (in front of F) she don't want to stand at the main cashier.
F added that "nobody will want to work with her. Why? She's double-headed person. She says one thing in front of you, den she backstab you."
"Good! The few of us, close ones can laugh and work together. Ignore the troublemakers."
______

Finding faults in me;
- I have a long queue to clear. A young lady has a query.
I told her to hold on. Let me finish the transaction with the auntie.
She muttered, "it's just a simple question."
"May i help you?" i asked politely.
She: "Can I pay this together with the medicine?"
I: Sure, no problem.
Then she stomped off angrily.

- A black lady: Three not tree! Let me spell for you 'THREE! THREE!' I am speaking English, not Chinese.
I turned to ask my colleague to find out whether she can make out what the customer is saying.
Black lady: I am speaking English, not Tamil!
I: I'm sorry. Can you please repeat slowly.
Black lady: Counter three.
I: Counter 3? It's behind you, madam. The red sign.
Then she stomped away.

I told Mages, these people are weird. I can't be bothered with them.
Mages: You're being polite. She's finding faults in your English.
I laughed, "I should have used my English slang, to vs her weird British accent. And tell her that I am ABC, don't understand Chinese also. She will blow her top."
We continue joking about the lady for the rest of the day.
______

Part 3: I may be ill

I was having headache and heat rash during the 2nd half of the day.
What was bad is that, there was a FON customer when i need to close counter.
Omg! It got worse when I realised that nobody help me to call for delivery.

Then QY called to disturb. Sigh...
I told him off "you always call at the wrong-cum-right time."
I mean "wrong time" bcoz I don't have time to chat since I need to handle 2 or 3 things at one time, "right time" bcoz he cheers me up and listens to my complaints.

The worst of all is I feel nausea in the way to patient's home via taxi.
I sms QY that i sounded like a patient when i message him about my symptoms.
I almost vomit when i reach home. It was more than 2 hour trip (in total) from the workplace to patient's home and then to my place.
Eek! I have a big headache. Err!
>_<"

**~Life Like a Musical.. Love is so Beautiful~**

FT Island- 그대 눈물까지도 (Even Your Tears) lyrics [Eng. | Rom. | Han.]

FT Island - Like Birds MV [eng sub + romanization + hangul]

Play FT Island, SG 15012012

Because I Don't Know How To Love ENG SUB

[eng] FT Island - Thunder

New year resoln [eng] FT Island - Trouble Maker 080906

Lyrics Troublemaker - F.T Island

Romaji

Kanji

Translation

FTIsland - Tears Are Falling [subbed eng+romanized]

Nightcore ~ Core Pride 【Ao no Exorcist】

UVERworld - CORE PRIDE Lyric

SCIE2225 exam 2011

FTISLAND 「Distance」 FULL Ver.

Relentless by John Bevere

Arise & Build 2011/2012

PT vs P

TMNT -> Job (manga bible)

Tots of wrist ache, storekeeping & LeeShin's hand injury

Kang Minhyuk- 별 (Star) lyrics [Eng. | Rom. | Han.]

Five Treasure Island jap album, FTI describe my life

Chill-out w JK, LY... then MX

Thank God Its Fri, for FTI, Final Messenger concert at Budokan

Try again smile again BIG TIME

[MV HD] 2ne1 - Lonely [english subs+romanization+hangul]

Fel's bday

FT ISLAND SATISFACTION LYRICS ROMANIZATION & ENG TRANSLATION ♥

20110106 日韓音樂瘋 辰亦儒專訪 FTIsland

2011亞洲星光爭霸戰 20110202 Part 15 FT Island- Hope

sweet holiday -> raining

[Eng/Rom] CN Blue - I'm A Loner Unplugged version

BURNING lovely Untouchable emotional = blue.

i've been using korean group,CN BLUE's CodeName Burning Lovely Untouchable Emotional, for my past messenges in facebook.

today's post -> Burning sensation in e stomach & stomach cramps..

Which disorder does she has?

1) Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder

Causes

This disorder tends to occur in families, so genes may be involved. Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder most often occurs in men.

Symptoms

Exams and Tests

Treatment

Outlook (Prognosis)

Possible Complications

When to Contact a Medical Professional

Alternative Names

References

Update Date: 10/17/2008

2) Obsessive-compulsive disorder

Causes

Symptoms

Exams and Tests

Treatment

Outlook (Prognosis)

Possible Complications

When to Contact a Medical Professional

Prevention

Alternative Names

References

Update Date: 2/11/2010

Oven $79.90, its parking space at home priceless

[Eng/Rom] CN Blue - Love Revolution MV Unplugged Version

A cool rock song, 浮世樂(Save me) by DongChengWei tt i found on a new taiwanese idol drama.

浮世樂(Save me) 歌詞

It PHYL2255 made me feel like e 1st uni exam SCIE1106 but it maybe worse...

Ear problem?! :s

Look me in the eye. Lie lie lie.

愛不單行 (Idol drama, Hi my sweetheart's song), this is my feeling @ times

生理时钟

羅志祥 show luo - 生理时钟

匿名的好友

海派甜心 (Hi my sweetheart), a new show starring Rainie yang & xiao zhu

A sweet ending theme song from one of e shows (momo love) i'm watching

很安靜 歌詞

Blessing or not...

傻傻的勇气∕杨子楱 - VENK

永不消失的彩虹 - 卓文萱 (genie zhuo)

永不消失的彩虹 - 卓文萱 (genie zhuo)

A hip & meaningful song... =p

~Life Like a Musical.. Love is so Beautiful~

20110106 日韓音樂瘋辰亦儒專訪 FTIsland

很安靜歌詞

HQ MV
http://youtube/watch?v=BrDlQbJR5j0
OFFICIAL CHANNEL
http://youtube/user/TopCombine

(chorus)

(LIU)视线变模糊只剩痛苦
来不及挣脱心的束缚
(ZHANG)努力的去追逐那道光芒
是理想让人勇敢飞翔

TANK 全世界都停電歌词