Early 21st bday celebration for Fel.

We wna get her Hello Kitty merchandise but... we have difficulty choosing.
In the end, we bought hard liquor 4 Fel as her 21st bday present.
I wna 2 give something meaningful (i.e. she can keep and admire), not tt Samuel's idea isn't good.
Just tt, it feels awkward bcoz her family's around and we ain't sure whether they drink alcoholic drinks.

When we reach her place, there were a number of people like frenz and relatives sitting outside.

She said hi to us and mingled around her frenz and family.

She felt bad tt she wasn't able 2 chat with us, leaving Sam and me chatting with each other.

Sam teased her, "Nvm. Get me a big gift 4 my 21st bday. And i'll 4give u."
Haha...

She replied, "Sure. No problem."

She apologised many times for neglecting us.

I comforted her, "It's okay. Don't worry."

We have been frenz since I was in poly year 2 sem 2? I can't rmbr. I'm getting old.

She whispered tt she din invite a lot of frenz, as we have seen majority of the people are her relatives. She don't have tt many close frenz tt are good 2 her. (Sam was saying her definition of close frenz is weird bcoz we sometimes don't contact one another for months, we still count as close frenz? I told him tt every1's categories of frenz are different.
I don't think she tell him b4 about some of her poly schmates. There were some incidents.)

... ...

Sam's bday is 18 days after Fel.
I have 2 start planning what pranks r we gna play. Haha... =p
But 1st, i muz rmbr 2 msg her on the actual day and give Sam a reminder msg.

I feel tt e lyrics of tis song is my heartfelt thoughts abt my ex workplace.

飛兒樂團 F.I.R

02. 第十行星
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Let me go..

Justin called all of a sudden. I sensed that something was wrong.
He asked whether i have started on my new job.

He said tt Lao hei asked him whether he knows I'm working so-and-so place bcoz some1 at retail saw me there. He tried to find out who's the gossiper but no luck (i have a hint on who the culprit).
I felt bad bcoz he is bombarded by the OP aunties with questions about me (we used 2 stick together there).

His sms: maybe the pharmacists duno yet bcoz the head of OP wants to ask me back to teach them the extemp. That made me feel guilty not being able to teach them the tricks. He comforted me by saying tt they r doing fine now.

Another sms: See...! I told u they spreading le. But don't worry. I very good at acting blur. No need to feel bad.

Straight after that, i msg Jo. I complained to her. Very sian..
I told her about the suspect bcoz tt person went around, telling every1 where Sam2 is working.
We share the same views tt it's highly likely tt tt fellow is the culprit.

I was thinking tt on the bright side, she wna let them noe where i am working, since i was on mc on my last days there. On the other hand, she just wna gossip abt others (like tt time, she kept telling me tt she saw Sam2 at T when she covered duty there).

They and she wna bother me?
It's my choice who i wna tell what i'm gna do with my life. Y they so boh liao?

I felt awkward tt i didn't tell some pharmacy frenz what i'm gna do with my studies. Sijia, Nor, Mages, Florence, Bernard, Gerry, Ai shing... Plus some tt i can't rmbr. .

Pastor preached about building lasting frenship.
It made me ponder.

They don't worth to be called frenz, they r mere ex-colleagues. Talking about others behind their backs and in front of them, gossiping. Gosh! They r worse than kids in school.
I thank God tt i didn't get acquainted with them though i was there for 3 years.

When u'r gone...

.. On our poly frenz' behalf, I sing this to u, Hazel. A sweet song from us, to u in Heaven..
the gals missed u badly. I pray to our Father God, u'r doing well n u'll be happy there =p Amen.

Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song title: When You're Gone

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]

Thnx 4 ur care n support, my frenz...

At first, i wasn't keen to meet my frenz.
I noe tt they will definitely ask about my study plan.
I find them a bother sometimes bcoz they ask & i have 2 repeat again and again.
But... i really thank God tt they r concerned abt me. =p

Today,
SiuLing-jiejie jio me 2 go shopping w her.
I asked her about her Baxter job application.
Told her tt my fren worked hard there. Little time 4 lunch & no extra $$ for OT bcoz of heavy workload.
She's shocked when i spoke abt it.
Oops.. i comforted her by saying, nvm. U'r a pharmacist, not a PT. Just give it a try 1st.

We grew hungry & waited 4 ChorKian-gege 2 have dinner together.
CK gave some advise on further studies and career prospect.
I commented tt he sounded like Uncle Yeow (they r my advisers, tt those in traditional chinese drama, giving ideas 2 e General)
He made similar remarks when i met him & Sijia the other day.
They said...
U can work part time while doing ur degree. Work hard and study hard.
Do a job tt is relevant 2 ur course of study (beautify ur cv).
Y? bcoz it will help u 2 get a higher starting salary than a normal graduate w/o experience.

Hmm... i noe tt it will be very tiring but... some poly frenz have been doing it.
I can also do it w God's given strength and wisdom.
I pray tt i can follow it through w God's guidance. Amen..

Ate Chinese food for the whole day. Juz luv it!

In the morning, i met my poly fren 4 breakfast and chat. Ate at Din Tai Fung.
It felt so weird 2 b eating breakfast-cum-lunch at 11am.
Nvm.. since i juz luv 2 eat Chinese cuisine =p

Then i went Vivo city 2 shop around w my sis.
She loves 2 shop by herself.
Anti-social.. (i muz nag at her 2 ask her frenz out, it's as though i'm e elder 1 instead of her >_<")

Anyway, i told her tt my pharmacist aka KM jiejie brought me 2 makan at a eatery in Food Republic.
Tasty but... very fulling. Haha..
We shopped for office wear awhile and head down 2 the eatery.

The place looks old-fashioned and cosy but the lights (there's more spotlights than normal lamps) r very glaring. The walking space is very limited during peak hours. U always bump in2 another person. Haiz..

Oh... we order the 2-person Set meal A (costs $30plus, excluding the drinks).

This is the main highlight, seafood noodles (this isn't e dish's actual name bcoz i 4got). U can choose e type of noodles tt u want. E.g. bee hoon (my fav.), mee sua (i don't like bcoz i feel it taste weird) and lor mee.

Deep fried duck meat w yam paste. It's nice n crispy when it's hot. But... i don't like the yam paste and oilyness. Eek!

This is delicious. It's their homemade beancurd. The soy taste is juz nice n the sauce complements it very well.

Chinese herbal soup w prawns. It has a faint alcohol taste (duno whether my allergic nose is giving me wrong signals anot). A few prawns only but.. +ve side is tt they r big and red..

My sister also likes all the dishes. It's juz tt her stomach is too small.
If not, i wna eat their fried buns. Nice, man... inside has mushrooms, veg and meat. Yummy!

21 days of prayer...

I will carry my cross n follow e Lord.
Practise my praying like wat e pastor taught.

I will pray for everybody n everything.
Church.
Cg.
Family.
Frenz.
Myself.

Pray...

I will never be alone, though i feel lonely in my heart.

Been out with frenz and colleagues lately..

Snow Phoenix with her favourite Macha ice cream and other ice cream flavours (wild berry, cookies and cream, tt's with plenty of cookie chunks)

Close-up of her waffle biscuit with Japanese ice cream. Yummy!

ET (she's always the one who makes funny posts and make me laugh. Miss her), Mandy and Jo.

Sam2 favourite dessert (Japanese dumplings with red bean paste). 'Hoyishe'.

Hang-out or gatherings... all these have filled my schedule after the hectic and tiring work.

It is good to relax and have fun with new found frenz who's my juniors in poly and ex-colleagues.
It really makes u feel younger and livelier.

Time flies when u chit chat about everybody's recent happenings and juicy gossips to make everyone laugh. Haha...

Freedom..

My cg leader asked me whether I am keen to go on a Bangkok trip with them.
"I would love to. And my sister wants to join us." I replied.

He commented, "since u have worked hard these 3 years, u deserved a break."
I feel likewise bcoz i have been working hard.

After i quit, i can relax for awhile.
Take time to think about life and re-charge myself before i start on a new chapter.