When I open my eyes tomorrow I hope everything is nothing but a dream oh I hope everything is nothing more than a realistic dream. I hope for you. I still want you. Even when I look back again, you, you're my love Even if I look (at you) thousands of times, I'm, I'm your love Approved by the heavens, you're my love We've been separated for a while, that's all
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
A slippery Xmas eve.
Half my pants and purse are wet.
Thank God tt my things didn't fall out from my bag. But I could feel that i have injured my knees and my toe is bleeding. Ouch! I limped my way to the workplace.
I don't know who to turn to. I messaged my sis. She was worried and called me. I told her i will c dr at my workplace, since I'm nearly there.
Boy, i was late! I apologised for being late and scaring her bcoz my voice sounded coarse.
The SPT asked me what is wrong. I told her tt i fell and was injured. She said she fell down yesterday.
A colleague also fell and bumped her head yesterday.
Acacia commented tt this is a slippery Xmas eve. I tried not to think that way bcoz i was having chesty cough so i could be dizzy. =s
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Birthday shopping for clothes.
Tis is a msg tt my sec sch fren sent some days ago. I didn't contact them for a few mths.
We arranged 2 meet at Far East 2 shop. They asked me what i need (Well... clothes tt r smart casual bcoz i can wear 2 work & sch).
Aiwei told me tt she approves Xuezhen 2 b her image consultant. With her taking e lead, we shopped around. She wants 2 see me in a dress. We went all over 2 look 4 a suitable 1.
I tried a blue dress, spagehetti top & a floral dress. They commented tt i look sweet in e pink floral dress. So we got tt as my bday gift. Xuezhen laughed, saying tt all of us can wear dresses together next time when we meet (Cool!).
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Been to 6 places in a day.
6.30am ~ rise & shine 4 sis. she tot tt i tell her we r leaving e house at 7. i told her no, & we'r running late. she said as though it was her fault tt i'm late for my CT scan. I was so angry tt i wna leave without her.
6.45am ~ we stomped out of e house in our opposite directions. i was thinking whether 2 wait 4 her at e bus stop. I saw Aunt boarding e bus tt i wna take & sis running towards tt bus. I stopped her in her track bcoz i don't want Aunt 2 noe where we'r gg.
7.35am ~ we were early 4 e scanning at ttsh. waited 4 e diagnostic staff 2 come at 8.
after 8am ~ i was asked 2 drink 2 cups of yucky water (it contains water & e contrast media). Then e staff poked my vein (i almost teared. I felt e needle is near my bone.). I winced 2 sis, now i noe y old ppl dislike hospital bcoz it's scary & painful.
during the scan ~ e staff jabbed another solution into my vein & informed me tt my body will feel warm. it seems like i'm e meat on the chopping board (Eek!).
after scanning ~ asked 4 mc. went 2 c dr at toa payoh polyclinic bcoz e stomach still hurts & is bloated after taking the chronic medicine. e dr, dr kala was very nice. My fren was surprised 2 be serving me (So weird, since i saw them earlier tis wk 2 celebrate my bday.). She said i look pale (Of course! I'm so hungry & thirsty.).
breakfast at 11plus ~sis wna go toa payoh hub 2 eat Ya Kun toast. we window-shopped at Pepper plus & strolled ard. There wasn't much shops 2 see so we head 2 Yishun.
walking 2 Northpoint ~ i'm accompanying sis 2 shop at Esprit outlet. It looks like a factory outlet but much smaller. told her there's more t-shirts than other clothes. i rmbr tt i need 2 search 4 a fren's bday gift in TM. we waited long 4 e bus tt will bring us 2 Tampines.
TM ~e gift seems 2 b out of stock.
~i want 2 eat e food in bamboo containers tt is found in TM. Too bad tt it wasn't open. My craving doesn't stop there. We took shuttle bus to Ikea 2 eat snacks.
Ikea ~ i luv e showrooms & took photos. I got myself a new pillow. I bought hotdogs & ice cream for my sis & i. It had been a busy day travelling.
4plus ~ went home. Took a shower & nap.
Monday, November 10, 2008
23rd bday celebration...
It was raining from dawn.
Sam2 was at the coffeeshop waiting 4 us.
They ordered lunch & drink 4 me.
We updated one another on our recent happenings.
Szehui wna buy toto. She used it as a camouflage 2 buy me a 'bday cake'.
Actually, its a chocolate swiss roll w a candle. They sang happy bday song quietly bcoz e uncles & aunties sitted ard, stared at us.

They laughed, saying when there's facebook & friendster, how can we 4get ur bday?
After the lunch...
They brought me 2 their workplace & showed me ard. It looks bigger than our side.
Szehui showed me her new laptop. It's pink, just like her hp. I told Sam2 2 call her pink panther.
We cracked jokes for awhile. Time flies when we'r enjoying ourselves. We said our goodbyes & hugged.
At home, at nite.
I read my facebook. Szehui posted pics of me.
She wrote, "sam and me enjoyed lunch w u today, hope u don't find our celebration abit small scale .. haha but both sam n me enjoyed lots!" (I really appreciate their thoughtfulness 2 surprise me.)
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Sabo... me?
Boy, i was too paranoid.
She just wna give me the bday present.
The girl looks kinda like me, i have frizzy hair w a big head.
They r so sweet n helpful.
The old ones shook my hand n wished me happy bday.
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Kaleen's last day.
We gave her our well-wishes.
I hope tt she will like the new job.
She bought some cupcakes for us. So sweet, w our individual names written on it!
She also wrote a thank-u card 4 every1. Mine goes like tis, "... I'm not going to say mushy things here. Haha.. Anyway, remember to miss me ard and study hard for your studies k? You have a long way to go! Everything must 'ren'!! Hehe.. Stay in touch! And I'll see you all next year in school! TAKE CARE! Kaleen, 05/11/08"
Saturday, October 25, 2008
With frenz like tis, who needs enemies?
it's abt a bunch of christians who r weird (i felt).
Later, in today's journey, i'll elaborate on this =>
Today, it is the makeover competition.
I went for the fun of it, not to compete.
During the process, i felt like princess diary / Cinderella.
U muz make an effort 2 look good and stay good for the glory of God.
I have 3 sisters who helped me 2 do makeup.
Initially, Prisc volunteered bcoz e rest haven't arrived.
(Boy, does she looked pretty in her smart causal wear. She really looked much younger! She did e makeup herself & may haf chose e clothes herself. Very impressive! It seems like she is a magician. Actually, she used 2 be in makeup ministry. And also, she likes japanese & korean fashion.)
Anyway, back to my part of e story. It was supposed 2 be Michelle helping. Due 2 lack of time, Pearlyn drew e eyebrows. Michelle did e makeup and Gene did e eyeshadow & sticking of fake lash.
Michelle commmented tt i haf sensitive eyes.
She helped me backstage.
Some things happened towards e end of program. Tis makes me realise who my true frenz r.
Every1 can help and give advice. It's up 2 u whether u want 2 listen anot.
Thinking back...
Junie was my image consultant on last Sun. Phoebe & Andrew's gf, N250 accompanied me 2 shop around Far East.
I was with gene almost e whole week. She recommended eyebrow threading (i wna try but there wasn't a chance tt day, since both of us were late). She shopped w me for makeup & checked on me whether i went 2 do hair at the salon. She wanted 2 help me 2 do makeup but Jason put Michelle in charge. So naturally, i would have choosen Michelle.
It was kinda a mistake. She finished what she was told 2 & left. B4 we left, I didn't realise tt i 4gotten my smart casual wear when i saw Silin, Prisc K, Prisc L & Zhixiu handing them 2 me, smiling. (even though e clothes r worth less than 100 bucks, it was e $$ sponsored by N250 & i like 2 blouse. I was kinda upset.)
Towards e end of the event, Gene wanted 2 help me 2 carry my stuff.
I was in a mess, trying 2 hold on & put things in2 e bag.
Then she stretched out her hand 2 help. I retracted my arm & she 'clawed' me.
I glare & spoke loudly at her. I think she muz be deeply hurt by tt. (even her bf msged me, asking y i'm so fierce. Omg! I told him tt i haf a very bad headache, which was true. If i was having gastric pain? either i wna faint on the spot / sit down & cry bcoz it's getting worse.)
My poor fren! Her bday is coming up soon. Muz make up 2 her somehow.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Hairstyling @ Urban.
I walked to the counter and ask the receptionist 2 get me a middle-ranking stylist. I wanna do hair treatment, trim & help me to style my hair.
I was given a form 2 fill & was served a drink. A stylist, Alvin was introduced to me. He is a very nice guy (soft-spoken and very helpful, explained clearly what he's gonna doing).
The jr stylist washed and blow-dried my hair. Omg! He looks around my age or younger. He's like a 'hair dr' bcoz he said tt my scalp's oily so i should wash everyday. (>_<" so embarrassing, since the condition of my hair is bad)
the treatment lotion / hair mask smells sweet and candy-like. i felt like a barbie doll, sitting there to be served. Haha...
alvin: do u want a fringe?
me: will it look funny / fall over the eye?
alvin: i do the style on ur hair b4 i cut. u take photo 1st?
me: nvm lah. just cut.
alvin: u shouldn't have straight hair. ur hair is curly (Ah! i don't like tt word.) ur hair should cover part of ur face, like i'm cutting ur fringe now.
side-tracked...
me: have u eaten?
alvin: no. u going home 2 eat?
me: no. eating out w frenz, usually.
we made small talks, since he has 2 be familiar w e character of his customer to be able 2 design hairstyle for them.
Lets hope tt he may be my resident stylist. Hee. duno... God bless.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I pray for peace of mind for us.

I pray for peace in our hearts & strength to handle the work bcoz we r irritated by the elders (senior staffs, customers & my mom).
I have to juggle things btw my fren and my boss, my gal fren and guyfren, sis and my aunt these few days. Trying to get on my nerve.
I don't have the energy to entertain any nonsense so i just.. keep quiet during work today.
When Wenting asked me what happen 2 my customer, i told her i'll give the customer a piece of my mind (i.e. purposely explain things slowly to her to get her 2 understand she's wasting her precious time and ours).
Then when i get home to rest, my mom kept nagging. i ignored her totally. Almost scream at her but.. tt may cause my gastric to worsen if i get agitated.
I rmbr the verse in the bible, honor ur parents.
I'll do the things for her but... i won't speak to her these days. Her words r ridiculous.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
By myself?
Y?
Sis will go ROM next year, 2009.
Yy has left the cg.
Gene has her bf and family issues.
Nor and sijia thought something bad abt me. I don't contact them anymore.
Tired of the s.c.
Who do i have left?
Of course, my Heavenly Father (always w me in my heart). The devil will try to make me forget >_<". My sec sch frenz. Meixiu, aiwei, limin, xuezhen. Siu Ling jiejie. Felicia & little sam. Jo, sam2, mandy. Silin. Szehui, MJ, kaleen, tracy, fanny (my new found frenz).
Monday, September 01, 2008
With me...
This song i'll sing to u...
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I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.
Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.
Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what i did and so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.
All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.
I don't want this moment to ever end.
Where everything's nothing without you.
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, that I won't let go.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Celebrate Xuezhen & Aiwei graduation w honor cum Xuezhen bday
Xuezhen likes to surf the web to find good food. So she brought us there to try.
XZ heard tt the portion of the fish & chips is big so we decide to share.
She commented tt the tartar sauce is good. Both Meixiu & i liked the fish (i simply luv it bcoz it's dory fish, 1 of the fishes i like to eat).
The fries' okay.
The cajun chicken looked unappealing when it came. It was a thick chicken breast with a lump of scratted cheese and cajun sauce on top. I thought it will taste nice like the chicken chop tt i like. But i was wrong. Eek!
Nvm... MX said tt the western food at her parents' coffeeshop is good. We can go there and try next time.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
the day after sam jr's 21st bday
I wanted to give him the vodka tt i bought but i rmbr he say tt he still has an unopened bottle of liquor and another half-drunk bottle. Nah..actually, it is very simple to get him a gift but... it's 21st bday. Hence, it muz be a special 1. I found a tee tt read 'football head' at the back. And a figure with its head as football. Haha.. i even joked tt it is the only gift for his bday and i can't find any suitable Liverpool jersey from Thailand for him.
He treated Fel and i to Swensens. During the meal, we chatted about going JB or KL together (after he graduate from poly). Fel was saying tt she hasn't opened the bottle of liquor tt we gave for her 21st bday, she wna invite us to sing karaoke and drink w her at her house.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Early 21st bday celebration for Fel.
In the end, we bought hard liquor 4 Fel as her 21st bday present.
I wna 2 give something meaningful (i.e. she can keep and admire), not tt Samuel's idea isn't good.
Just tt, it feels awkward bcoz her family's around and we ain't sure whether they drink alcoholic drinks.
When we reach her place, there were a number of people like frenz and relatives sitting outside.
She said hi to us and mingled around her frenz and family.
She felt bad tt she wasn't able 2 chat with us, leaving Sam and me chatting with each other.
Sam teased her, "Nvm. Get me a big gift 4 my 21st bday. And i'll 4give u."
Haha...
She replied, "Sure. No problem."
She apologised many times for neglecting us.
I comforted her, "It's okay. Don't worry."
We have been frenz since I was in poly year 2 sem 2? I can't rmbr. I'm getting old.
She whispered tt she din invite a lot of frenz, as we have seen majority of the people are her relatives. She don't have tt many close frenz tt are good 2 her. (Sam was saying her definition of close frenz is weird bcoz we sometimes don't contact one another for months, we still count as close frenz? I told him tt every1's categories of frenz are different.
I don't think she tell him b4 about some of her poly schmates. There were some incidents.)
... ...
Sam's bday is 18 days after Fel.
I have 2 start planning what pranks r we gna play. Haha... =p
But 1st, i muz rmbr 2 msg her on the actual day and give Sam a reminder msg.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
I feel tt e lyrics of tis song is my heartfelt thoughts abt my ex workplace.
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Friday, June 20, 2008
Let me go..
He asked whether i have started on my new job.
He said tt Lao hei asked him whether he knows I'm working so-and-so place bcoz some1 at retail saw me there. He tried to find out who's the gossiper but no luck (i have a hint on who the culprit).
I felt bad bcoz he is bombarded by the OP aunties with questions about me (we used 2 stick together there).
His sms: maybe the pharmacists duno yet bcoz the head of OP wants to ask me back to teach them the extemp. That made me feel guilty not being able to teach them the tricks. He comforted me by saying tt they r doing fine now.
Another sms: See...! I told u they spreading le. But don't worry. I very good at acting blur. No need to feel bad.
Straight after that, i msg Jo. I complained to her. Very sian..
I told her about the suspect bcoz tt person went around, telling every1 where Sam2 is working.
We share the same views tt it's highly likely tt tt fellow is the culprit.
I was thinking tt on the bright side, she wna let them noe where i am working, since i was on mc on my last days there. On the other hand, she just wna gossip abt others (like tt time, she kept telling me tt she saw Sam2 at T when she covered duty there).
They and she wna bother me?
It's my choice who i wna tell what i'm gna do with my life. Y they so boh liao?
I felt awkward tt i didn't tell some pharmacy frenz what i'm gna do with my studies. Sijia, Nor, Mages, Florence, Bernard, Gerry, Ai shing... Plus some tt i can't rmbr. .
Pastor preached about building lasting frenship.
It made me ponder.
They don't worth to be called frenz, they r mere ex-colleagues. Talking about others behind their backs and in front of them, gossiping. Gosh! They r worse than kids in school.
I thank God tt i didn't get acquainted with them though i was there for 3 years.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
When u'r gone...
the gals missed u badly. I pray to our Father God, u'r doing well n u'll be happy there =p Amen.
Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song title: When You're Gone
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do
When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now
[Chorus]
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah
[Chorus]
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Thnx 4 ur care n support, my frenz...
I noe tt they will definitely ask about my study plan.
I find them a bother sometimes bcoz they ask & i have 2 repeat again and again.
But... i really thank God tt they r concerned abt me. =p
Today,
SiuLing-jiejie jio me 2 go shopping w her.
I asked her about her Baxter job application.
Told her tt my fren worked hard there. Little time 4 lunch & no extra $$ for OT bcoz of heavy workload.
She's shocked when i spoke abt it.
Oops.. i comforted her by saying, nvm. U'r a pharmacist, not a PT. Just give it a try 1st.
We grew hungry & waited 4 ChorKian-gege 2 have dinner together.
CK gave some advise on further studies and career prospect.
I commented tt he sounded like Uncle Yeow (they r my advisers, tt those in traditional chinese drama, giving ideas 2 e General)
He made similar remarks when i met him & Sijia the other day.
They said...
U can work part time while doing ur degree. Work hard and study hard.
Do a job tt is relevant 2 ur course of study (beautify ur cv).
Y? bcoz it will help u 2 get a higher starting salary than a normal graduate w/o experience.
Hmm... i noe tt it will be very tiring but... some poly frenz have been doing it.
I can also do it w God's given strength and wisdom.
I pray tt i can follow it through w God's guidance. Amen..

Saturday, June 07, 2008
Ate Chinese food for the whole day. Juz luv it!
It felt so weird 2 b eating breakfast-cum-lunch at 11am.
Nvm.. since i juz luv 2 eat Chinese cuisine =p
Then i went Vivo city 2 shop around w my sis.
She loves 2 shop by herself.
Anti-social.. (i muz nag at her 2 ask her frenz out, it's as though i'm e elder 1 instead of her >_<")
Anyway, i told her tt my pharmacist aka KM jiejie brought me 2 makan at a eatery in Food Republic.
Tasty but... very fulling. Haha..
We shopped for office wear awhile and head down 2 the eatery.
Oh... we order the 2-person Set meal A (costs $30plus, excluding the drinks).
My sister also likes all the dishes. It's juz tt her stomach is too small.
If not, i wna eat their fried buns. Nice, man... inside has mushrooms, veg and meat. Yummy!
Friday, June 06, 2008
21 days of prayer...

I will carry my cross n follow e Lord.
Practise my praying like wat e pastor taught.
I will pray for everybody n everything.
Church.
Cg.
Family.
Frenz.
Myself.
Pray...
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
I will never be alone, though i feel lonely in my heart.
Monday, June 02, 2008
Been out with frenz and colleagues lately..
It is good to relax and have fun with new found frenz who's my juniors in poly and ex-colleagues.
It really makes u feel younger and livelier.
Time flies when u chit chat about everybody's recent happenings and juicy gossips to make everyone laugh. Haha...
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Freedom..
"I would love to. And my sister wants to join us." I replied.
He commented, "since u have worked hard these 3 years, u deserved a break."
I feel likewise bcoz i have been working hard.
After i quit, i can relax for awhile.
Take time to think about life and re-charge myself before i start on a new chapter.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Gekidou / Just break the limit.

Song title: Ji Dong (chinese) / Just break the limit (english) / Gekidou (japanese)
Singer: Uverworld
Info: 4th opening theme of D Gray Man anime
Lyrics ->
Baby, no.
Your sharpened eyes, not fulfilled by the cliched phrases
or somebody's copy.
Spark! It disappears.
Again we borrow the tiger's threat to push through.
I will win without a doubt. Fight!
Pitch black best fight of the last age!
Now hard, at the first round stage
don't feel like losing a little bit!
Try to survive, can't fight 'em down!
Losing the sun, I look fr the whereabouts of the moon.
Losing the sight of things that we could see before,
we drown in the sea of memories, but why?
Even the vows made to each other are voided,
.. and the next passport.
Never alone!
Eternal voice, again!
When will it reach the heart?
Never alone!
Eternal voice, again.
let's hear.
Never alone!
Eternal voice, again!
When will it reach the heart?
Never alone!
Shining point!
Again!
Thursday, May 15, 2008
May i get in...?
God answered my prayer when i was searching for a job in recruitment website.
It came as a chance to gain more knowledge in skincare (since i'm too lazy to clean my face properly and take good care of it >_<") and to have a change of work environment.
I decided not to study overseas bcoz Mum's ill and she injured herself many times, plus sister's relationship w her bf is on the rocks these few months. I need to look after them.
... ...
I was having butterflies in the stomach since last night. I was quite nervous about the interview. What will they ask?
During the interview, the lady was very nice to explain the tricks of writing the resume.
The assistant manager talked about what are the major duties of a PT.
He mentioned tt they haf a pharmacy where 1 PT runs it everyday with around 50-60 scripts per day. Wah! I'm shocked and scared if i will be sent there. I will practise to dispense more. My weakness is tt i don't looked confident enuf and i stutters.
... ...
Another person b4 me said tt i may get the position since i haf more years of experience than her. I told her it depends.
Now, i come to think of the interview. There were some awkward moments of silience.
Err! Dots...
What nonsense i haf said. I can only pray tt my current employer will not speak ill of me to my future employer and my current colleagues. Oh Heavenly Father, please help me to believe tt u will grant my heart's desires bcoz i'm a child of God. Amen.
If the Lord permits me to work there.
I will do my work well and perhaps to be able to study part-time for the diploma in cosmetic science (told my interviewer tt i may want to be a sales rep for cosmetic company in the future. Crap! I was saying without thinking. :c My dream is to be a researcher or scientist. Haha =p ).
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Quizz
The rules are:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then go to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
4. Rules are meant to be broken.. teehee..
5. Who comes up with these games anyway? I’m surprised I got sucked into all this.
What was I doing ten years ago (1998 in general)?
1. Started Sec 1 in Damai Sec
2. Joined the Gu cheng club and almost became its chairman, then i drop out
3. Joined the choir at the end of the year, since i prefer singing to playing instruments
4. Spent most of the afternoons after school to play and chat w frenz, rather than study / do homework
5. Moved to another class in 1999 where there is the school's top 3 shuai-ge.
5 things on my to-do list today:
1. Go and visit my grandma
2. Go shopping (it's the day after paycheck)
3. Do some household chores + my baking
4. Hangout with sis / by myself to do my gifts for my fren's bday
5. Go online to watch my fav anime
5 snacks I enjoy (I think this is a trick question. Just 5?!?):
1. Ice creams (all except yam and peppermint flavours)
2. Cakes (from Cheesecake factory, San Francisco and Black Forest cake)
3. Chocolates and cookies
4. FOod with potatoes
5. Chinese dessert soups (except things with almond / sesame seeds)
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Travel around the world as a missionary
2. Support the Children cancer foundation and Ronald MacDonald fund
3. Go to tour Japan with Leetheng, Taiwan and other countries w frenz
4. Buy a penthouse near East Coast, a golden retriever and renovate the house resort-style, then get my frenz and cousins to come and PARTY!
5. Fill one whole room with my anime figurines n popstars' posters, comic books
5 of my bad habits (Oooooh...):
1. Mood swings
2. Lazy cow
3. Eat lot now? later i starve myself..
4. Likes to buy tee shirts n jeans n sneakers
5. Watch tv
5 places I have lived:
1. Bedok North (babysitter, grandma)
2. Bedok South
3. 2 weeks in sister's fren's place in San Francisco
4. Err. I'm a country pumpkin.
5 jobs I've had:
1. Packer during Christmas
2. Waitress
3. Sales asisstant
4. Cashier
5. Pharmacy technician in KKH
5 people I tag:
1. Gene
2. Nicole Yy
3. Audrey
4. Priscilla
5. Hazel
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Veg as the main ingredient of the cuisine
I asked her to choose whether she wants to eat Vegetarian food at Bugis / Korean food at Far East. She chose Far East bcoz she wants to shop at Orchard.
In the end, the Korean food that we ordered has more vegetable than meat.
Y? Bcoz the majority of it is used for bbq meat.
I commented, "don't u think the food that we'r having is like eating vegetarian food? so little meat?"
None the less, it tasted delicious. I gave it a grade 9 out of 10 bcoz so little meat.
She tried the Kim chi but she didn't like it. It is due to the hot red color and sourness of the dish. She thought it was quite spicy. It turned out I find it okay, not too spicy by my standards.
Life's a journey.
This was told by my Pri. 6 form teacher old ago.
"Go forward. Don't look back."A sentence came to Allen Walker's mind during the lowest time of his life, (spoken by his foster parent, Manna, at the moment b4 he died). A anime shown on Arts Central and one of the anime that i'm currently watching..
Guest Pastor Kim preached, life is a journey and it is temporary. During her youth, it was difficult to survive. She didn't give up hope and prayed to God. She knows that God loves her and he will give the provisions that she needs.
So... i must go forward, no matter what lies ahead. God is always with me. He will guide me. Even if i made the wrong choice in life? He will lead me towards the correct path that He had planned. Amen..
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
How Are You Lately? 最近還好嗎

My galfrenz from OP: Josephine, Samantha & Mandy..
Jo wasn't around these few days with Sam & Mandy resigned, and Siu Ling, Eunice, Nor and Xuefeng's in their departments. Even though they'r in the same hospital, it felt so far.
I feel so alone.
Eunice said it's back to square 1 for me, where i started out as the only youth in CR.
Sianz...
Oh, God. Pls give me comfort and keep me company..
The other day, I told sis that my pharmacy gang has shrunk.
A lot of pharmacists, PTs and PAs had left.
I wondered, how r they doing? Miss them lots..
| Traditional Chinese | Hanyu Pinyin | Translation |
| 最近還好嗎 - S.H.E
| Zui Jin Hai Hao Ma - S.H.E
| How Are You Lately? - S.H.E
|
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Forgiveness

The pastor said, "Forgive those who have sinned against u, just as God forgives u. The vertical beam of the cross signifies we receive forgiveness from God and the horizontal beam means to give forgiveness to others.
When God forgives, He forgets completely (Isaiah 43:25)."
4 results of unforgiveness:
1) it keeps the pain alive.
2) it produces bitterness. Bitterness is like an infection, will harm ur overall wellbeing (Hebrews 12:15).
3) it gives Satan open doors (Ephesian 4:26-27).
4) it hinders fellowship w God (Matthew 6:14-15).
Jus let go, let God do His work in and thru us.
Thru prayer and fast, we will get our prayers answered in due time.
=p
Saturday, March 22, 2008
I'm one of the Jiemei in SCKSL's wedding.
The gate-crashing...
1st hongbao had too little $$ so we played pranks on them.
CK gave it all out when he ate the wasabi-filled bread into a heart shape.
In the midst of it, he kept saying there's short of time and tried to pry the padlock.
We, the sisters were shocked to find that it wasn't locked at all. We locked it.
Then CK drew out the keys (it's the bride, SL's younger bro passed it to him).
Another shock for us. He was very cheeky.
Told him for the sake of SL, pls cooperate.
When we'r satisfied w the sum of $$, we let him in.
Since he still had wasabi taste in his mouth, he felt weird to kiss SL.
The couple was flushed. He was bcoz of the chilli padi inside the wasabi bread and playing the pranks. Her? Heat rashes all over her back from the anticipation and hot weather.
(Hee! :p I brought a mini electric fan for them to use.)
Tea ceremony...
There were many relatives to be served. The relatives really looked similar.
We presented the specially made dessert (M&Ms w CK's and SL's names and the phrase 'meant to be' printed on them) from SL's fren, air-flown from US. Everyone was amazed.
With a bright, sunny weather, the day went smoothly and ended b4 the estimated timing at 1pm.
It began to rain heavily in the early afternoon.
I thank God for the good weather and no upsets had happened during the event.
Sat 22/03/08
The brothers were inside, doing the final checks on the music and other preparations.
For the 1st march-in...
SL was wearing the sexy wedding gown. It shows her transclucent back and neck area w lace, and a corset in the front. CK in tuxedo, looking charming w a glitter hairdo by the makeup artist.
Blubbles were blown and soft music played when the couple walked in. It was so romantic.
Music performance...
B4 that, Jojo they all made a video of blessings given by staffs of diff pharmacy departmts to surprise SL. She was touched to tears.
She requested them to perform some songs that she would love to hear. (KM and i told her they r very serious about the job and practice vigoursly till very late.)
There was a hiccup somewhere in between but it was still great.
They did a good job.
Food...
SL knows what she likes. The Tung Lok food tasted fantastic. Nice!
It is the best wedding that i've been to.
Service...
The ppl who helping w the march-in, were professional. Great!
Ppl serving food? They are quick to serve and top-up ur drinks.
The brothers were so goody-2-shoes. I tink they must be exhausted.
I felt bad about it since KM and i had no prior experience as Jiemei to do these sort of thing.
I felt worse.
It's just a nice card w a design of diff expressions of a couple.
I did written some words inside to bless them and DIY something w a hongbao paper.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
I'm tired of the stock take and rountine work.
Actually, it was supposed to be on the Easter weekend but... it will be Siu Ling's wedding on Saturday, 22th. So the chief pharmacist pushed it forward.
It was fun and heart-warming to see the old staffs to be hard at work. Haha...
Aishing was very happy to see they were eager and quickly finished the work, and the result of the report.
I'm not surprised at their response.
They can do it fast. It is just a matter whether they want to or not.
>_<"
Towards the end, half the group were resting and chatting while the others assisted the pharmacists to do the last editing of the report.
... ...
The next few days, i have to be buddies to the new perm and temp staffs.
I felt bad leaving them alone at times bcoz i'm busy checking my own work and the different daily works that i have to do.
It's tiring after the stock take and the patients are crowding the place after vacation has ended. Thank God that the new gals are eager to learn and quietly do their work, giving me some peace to attend to my work.
Wanna rest and read the Word of God to recharge the spirit.
Take a breather somewhere away from the buzz and chaos of the place. I need a holiday...
Thursday, March 06, 2008
In conclusion...
I was telling E, Jo & Sam that our frenz (the young staffs) will leave the place sooner or later. It is just a matter of time.
E: asked A whether she has found a new job.
A: Yes.
E: what about the rest?
A: cip is waiting for 'time'.
The management is lousy.
I meant that the boss of OP did not control the experienced staff to bully the newbies and others. Let me to be more detailed, the experienced staff taught the newbies some knowledge and dump the difficult tasks on them, while they, themselves slack off (e.g. their mouths move to gossip but the hands are not working, disappear when it is not their breaktime & they work in slow motion / no sense of urgency during peak periods).
We had enough. That is y the few of us r resigning.
Jo & E: the boss did not ask the reason / try to retain the young blood (those who r hardworking, willing to brainstorm new ideas to improve & accept new ideas). They r nuts.
E: the boss should issue the warning letters to tame them awhile. If they do not improve, to ask them to leave.
I: Brillant idea! It is too bad that they r not firm enough. They r leaders in name without leadership / management qualities.
I pray for them to change for the better but... this kind of thing cannot be one-sided. They need to change the attitude.
If not? they will suffer eventually when the newbies & us quit.
at night...
Msg to my preg-reg: all of u r going 2 stay? Don't say that i did not warn u about them.
J: all of us have signed on. Pray for me.
I: i've always prayed but nothing seems to work
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
To be the same or change for the better
She can see that the new cashier, M is a slacker and our boss, J is blinded to hire her. J is too caught up in work and to maintain the manpower until… she can’t see that some of us are working hard while others just slack off.
… …
F asked Jo yesterday that her frenz are resigning, when she will leave. She does not want to comment.
F said to her, so it is confirmed that she is leaving too. It implies that there is no secret in the office.
I shared with Jo; a colleague wants to check whether my last day is the end of April. I tried to recall, I only let some ppl know but I forgotten who.
The point is some of them are spending the time to gossip and slack during office hours.
>_<”
Monday, February 18, 2008
Our 'angel' has passed away.
Omg! i dislike GH bcoz it is a place where very sick people have to stay and recuperate.
Very scary loh!
I remember that time, my sec sch teacher also had a heart attack.
The doctor did a 2nd bypass for him. He looked so frail and pale. I almost cried.
My fren has many tubes and lines connected to her body.
Those things help her to maintain the heartbeat to wait until there is a heart available.
Her spirit is willing but the physical body is weak.
They put her on morphine yesterday afternoon to lessen the pain.
I know that if the patient is on morphine (the strongest painkiller), the person will not last long.
Poor dear, she has been complaining about back pain and bloated stomach.
Some of us prayed with and for her. Sobs...!
Nor msged me this morning, she has passed away.
Heavenly Father has taken her to be with Him.
It is good for her in a sense, to shorten her physical pain and give her spirit freedom.
Everyone will miss u especially her parents and younger brother.
We know that u r in good hands with the Lord. Amen.
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
够爱
作詞:A Chord
作曲:脩
編曲:東城衛樂團
演唱:A Chord+東城衛
我穿梭金星 木星 水星 火星 土星 追尋
追尋你 時間滴滴答滴答答的身影 (x2)
指頭還殘留 你為我 擦的指甲油
沒想透 你好像說過 你和我 會不會有以後
#世界一直一直變 地球不停的轉動
在你的時空 我從未退縮懦弱
當我靠在你耳朵 只想輕輕對你說
我的溫柔 只想讓你都擁有
*我的愛 只能夠 讓你一個 人獨自擁有
我的靈和魂魄 不停守候 在你心門口
我的傷和眼淚 化為烏有 為你而流
藏在無邊無際 小小宇宙 愛你的我
你聽見了嗎?我為你唱的這首歌
是為了要證明 我為了你 存在的意義
Repeat # *
愛你的我 不能停止脈搏 為了愛你奮鬥
就請你讓我 說出口
愛 只能夠 讓你一個 人獨自擁有
我的靈和魂魄 不停守候 在你心門口
我的傷和眼淚 化為烏有 為你而流
藏在無邊無際 小小宇宙 愛你的我 愛你的我
我穿梭金星 木星 水星 火星 土星 追尋
追尋你 時間滴滴答滴答答的身影 (x4)
Found tis song that i like.
One of the song sang in The X family.
Jiro and Xiu are very cute. Not shuai but... cute in their own way.
It is from 東城衛+A Chord.
Pls enjoy tis song at (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsL0CTMTw_w&feature=related).Tuesday, February 12, 2008
i didnt expect that from you.
Dots... but i have a date with Jo, Sam and Man' at MOF for Sam and Man's farewell dinner.
If i don't go? everyone will have a difficult time to hangout together.
I told them why i am staying.
1. To clear 2007's annual leave and maybe some of this year's leave (top priority!!)
2. To retain some income until i find a temp job with good pay.
I don't care lah.
No matter what they will say later on? I will give the letter directly upstairs.
Tired sia.
We took photos together and of ourselves and food. Yummy!
The thing that i didn't expect from Jo is: she gave us hongbaos.
Wah! I was joking the other day when i asked her for it.
Haha...
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
'Zombified'
I: "Hah? A cup of coffee? not good for u. i'll get u coke instead."
She meant the coffin.
She asked me, 'Why can't they let us rest in peace?"
She meant why can't they let us leave in happily.
Let me tell u why she and i feel the same way today...
she has 2 ridiculous customers today.
One scolded her bcoz of the long wait for medication and she missed her appointments.
The senior PA, R likes to act 'boss' and irritate Jen and me.
Mine? Is a every other day (eod) happening.
1a) I mean that the seniors are scheduled to do today's extemp.
They didn't do the difficult case and refused to prepare the walk-in case.
1b) R slammed the prescription in front of me on the desk. Who he thinks he is?
They thought i'm the coordinator of extemp so... i must do everything they throw to me?
2) I have to do it myself or beg my other department staff to prepare. It is bcoz some 'smart aleck' didn't change the collection date in the calendar when he/she told the parent that they can collect the extemp medicine today instead of the allocated date.
We don't care le!
We are not going to become slaves anymore, getting our blood and energy sucked everyday.
It's time that we try to resuscitate ourselves before it's too late.
The few of us have given our resignation letters bcoz of the happenings.
We are really going. They all have to bear the cost.
Vice-head asked me whether i can extend my stay anot.
I consulted my frenz and sister, they said "No! Just go!"
They know that we're being bullied by the experienced staffs (irregardless whether PT or PA).
Our families and frenz have listened us when we complained in tears and frustration.
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Alone (part 2)
She will be alone at the pharmacy, she said. It is bcoz most of us are pursuing our dreams or fulfill our family duties.
Siuling also felt the same way since her little 'sister' (that's me) is going to be a student again.
The least i can do is to help out at her wedding and share her joy of getting married.
I totally forgotten that little Bernard will also be alone there. He asked me "when will be my last day? Monday is my first day of school. I won't be seeing you here during school holidays. " I: "Erm. Aiya! We don't have to meet here. We can hang-out elsewhere."
I mean there is no young blood to click with him. So poor thing. He will be back with the routine of studying and working there on Saturdays. I felt like giving him a hug of comfort. Sigh...
... ...
Now, i feel sad when i send frenz off at the airport, either they are going back to their hometown or flying overseas to study or work.
I am still not mentally and financially prepared. Err!
I pray that Lord will give me and my fren, Gene, a good study loan (pray that it will be a good bargain). Through the power of the Holy spirit, we will have the strength to study hard and the wisdom. Help me to choose 2 majors that are most suitable for me (bcoz i like sciences, biology and chemistry). Protect my loved ones, oh God, especially my sister and grandma. Keep them safe and healthy, be surrounded with good company. All these, i pray in Jesus's name. Amen.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
New year blessings
I asked God, "How do i get the best out of life..?"
God answered: "Face ur past without regret. handle ur present with confidence. prepare for the future without fear.."
Then He added "keep the faith & drop the fear. don't believe ur doubts & never doubt ur beliefs. life is wonderful if u know how to live."
I pray that everyone that i know, will have a blessed year in 2008.
May God be with them always and bless them with good health and have good company.
In the Lord's most precious name. Amen.


