Touched by the Sms

::: Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life,
but I rather be your moon,
so I can shine on you during your darkest hour
when your sun isn't around::: Goodnight


Alone?
I'm beside u
Afraid?
I'm here to comfort u
Hurt?
U may cry on my shoulders
Need a hug?
My arms r urs
Y?
Coz u'r d some1 special 2 me!


In life..
God doesn't give u the people u want..
instead God gives u the people u need:
2 teach u,
2 guide u,
2 love u
&
2 make u..
exactly the way u like it..

Sian...

Today is SJ's bday.
Ah... i really miss her.

SL's office has moved back to 7th storey.
I have few frenz there le.
The few frenz are also tired of the work.


Heavenly Father,
I need a revival there.
A major revamp..
We should change the system bcoz it's too stagnant.
We, youngsters can't stand the everyday nonsense.
Give us the energy to fight the evil ones and the
wisdom to improve the workflow.
Change the management's thinking, oh God.
If not? The good staff will leave one-by-one.
And the newbies will resign bcoz they also can't tolerate the evil ones.
>_<"

Blessings and circumstances.

T: Part 1, Blessed with food

Mages asked me whether i like to eat cheese.
"Of course! I love cheese. Look at my height. I'm tall bcoz i ate all dairy products. Yummy!" I replied enthusiastically.
She gave the cheese biscuit to me.
Haha... happy sia.

It was TWC's last day at work.
She bought us big muffins.
Mages brought one to me and later part of the day, Florence gave me another.

I'm supposed to meet an ex-colleague for lunch.
Something cropped up and I didn't eat with her.
She bought me a muffin, tart and chocolate slice.
I blessed R with muffin since he may get hungry in the middle of the night.

Then, I message my sister to say that I will come home late. If she is very hungry, she can finish the food that she promised to share with me. I will find something to munch.
Thank God that Mum has an extra pack of bee hoon.
Yeah! I'm blessed with my favourite food.
Yummy!
:p


Part 2, weird happenings

M said that Y told J (in front of F) she don't want to stand at the main cashier.
F added that "nobody will want to work with her. Why? She's double-headed person. She says one thing in front of you, den she backstab you."
"Good! The few of us, close ones can laugh and work together. Ignore the troublemakers."
______

Finding faults in me;
- I have a long queue to clear. A young lady has a query.
I told her to hold on. Let me finish the transaction with the auntie.
She muttered, "it's just a simple question."
"May i help you?" i asked politely.
She: "Can I pay this together with the medicine?"
I: Sure, no problem.
Then she stomped off angrily.

- A black lady: Three not tree! Let me spell for you 'THREE! THREE!' I am speaking English, not Chinese.
I turned to ask my colleague to find out whether she can make out what the customer is saying.
Black lady: I am speaking English, not Tamil!
I: I'm sorry. Can you please repeat slowly.
Black lady: Counter three.
I: Counter 3? It's behind you, madam. The red sign.
Then she stomped away.

I told Mages, these people are weird. I can't be bothered with them.
Mages: You're being polite. She's finding faults in your English.
I laughed, "I should have used my English slang, to vs her weird British accent. And tell her that I am ABC, don't understand Chinese also. She will blow her top."
We continue joking about the lady for the rest of the day.
______


Part 3: I may be ill

I was having headache and heat rash during the 2nd half of the day.
What was bad is that, there was a FON customer when i need to close counter.
Omg! It got worse when I realised that nobody help me to call for delivery.

Then QY called to disturb. Sigh...
I told him off "you always call at the wrong-cum-right time."
I mean "wrong time" bcoz I don't have time to chat since I need to handle 2 or 3 things at one time, "right time" bcoz he cheers me up and listens to my complaints.

The worst of all is I feel nausea in the way to patient's home via taxi.
I sms QY that i sounded like a patient when i message him about my symptoms.
I almost vomit when i reach home. It was more than 2 hour trip (in total) from the workplace to patient's home and then to my place.
Eek! I have a big headache. Err!
>_<"

This is none of our concern.

We had a OP meeting with the bosses
They updated us on the latest news, any patients' complaints and comments?

They highlighted that our job appraisal and performance depends on the waiting time.

"I" kept on complaining about the lack of manpower, others not helping out and just did their own work.
Or she said it's good to have OTC staff but when you need him/her to help?
They are always disappear. (A few of us know who the naughty ones are. We just didn't say.)

They just talk about what we have been doing so far, to keep the waiting time less than 30 mins.
When the bosses asked us to brainstorm ideas to improve the workflow, everyone was silent.
It's bcoz they seem to keep the staffs to the minimum to carry on the flow of things.
There isn't any job satisfaction. When your own department's staff are not cooperating and the patients are FON, you will also be "sian" of coming to work everyday.

M and I exchanged "sian" expressions.
She whispered, "this is none of our concern."

We share the same sentiments.

15/10/2007 AM
~Sam and Jo are tired of working there.

16/10/2007 PM
~ I met YP, Joey and Florence for dinner.

Florence also mentioned that she's tired of working there.
She told YP, "I will stay for another 5 years. Then I'll leave."
YP teased, "You said that before, quite a while ago."


All of us felt that the team spirit is gone.
There's too many newbies, the staffs are coming and going.
It's a mess.

I told Joey if she observe carefully? We usually stick to our own clicks: the seniors vs the juniors.
She asked whether I know about the party in November? Eve invited her.
I replied that I'm not close to Eve, they all. Different clicks lah!

Nor also complained to her that "she's sian with work. Just work a day at a time."

Joey and I share the same sentiment (when will the place close down?).
We feel that way bcoz? We really have lost the passion and drive to continue the job.
The staffs are complaining with their mouths and their hands aren't doing work.
They kept finding faults in the rest.
It's chaotic, man!

>_<"

Sadness in the air..

You're really leaving at the end of this month?
Yes...
One is staying at home to take care of her kids while the other is secretive about where she is heading to.

Everybody is tensed and overworked.
Gonna be over-pressurized by the customers and patients.
Sigh...


I pray for everyday strength, a clear mind and be of good cheer.
To work and help my frenz wherever i can.
Pray that the evil ones will not harm us
and God will protect His sheeps.

Major revamp (MRV) for KP.

My frenz from other departments were complaining to me about the workplace, during lunch on last Sat.
~Haha...
they also sense the weirdness of the atmosphere.
The nurses are bullying them and there's mis-communication among the staffs.


I ask you, how to work like that, everyday in and out?
One of them told me, she suddenly broke down under pressures. That shocked SL.
Great! She's one of my Happy-go-lucky frenz. She also can't take it. What about the rest of us, the youngsters?


I pray daily for a MAJOR REVAMP!
Here's part of a prayer, my fren wrote for me:

Dear Heavenly Father,
Let the "evil" ones not be able to reign in the marketplace, but cause those who have a kind heart, those who walk in integrity to rise up in power and drove out all those "evil ones"...
You said in the Bible that You will not withold Your blessings from those who walk righteously in integrity.
LOrd I lift up all the situations in Your hands.
I know that no matter what happen, You have the power to turn the whole situation around for the good of those who love You and called according to Your purpose.
For Yours is the kingdom, the power and the glory forever and ever,
Amen.


~please don't force us to do the totally unexpected!
We're over-worked and underpaid.

~~ please send our Guardian Angels to stand by us to fight the continuous war against the S.C.

>_<"

Double J and J's wedding

It's our groupmates, John's and Junie's wedding dinner at Orchard Hotel.
And it's also Jacky's and Josephine's at Bukit Batok CSC.
Dots. >_<"
How can we go to 2 different places at one evening?

We have to make the choice of going to either one.
I felt so bad about it.
Sigh...

... ...

After I heard from Mandy that they were asking about the details of Jojo wedding dinner, I felt worse.
Why?
It is because I told Jojo that if you don't have enough seats, don't invite those that you don't want to see. It's your wedding day and I want you to be happy. It's your day.
Does it seem like I "psycho" her not to invite them? I really have no idea.

I told Mages about it. She laughed.
She may be thinking that they are acting like immature adults. They will go where there's good and tasty food.


Anyway, the handful of us went ahead.
I met my frenz at the mrt station and I'm supposed to bring them there.
But... we lost our way due to my poor direction sense.
Sobs.
Thank God that my fren called her bf who's living in the area to lead the way. :p
Err! Why there's so many hiccups?


When we reached, the place looked like a holiday resort in the middle of the HDB flats.
The ballroom was beautifully decorated with pink and champage roses and crystals.

There's my favourite Cornflake prawns. The prawns are big and fresh.

The groom has his own band. He sang their favourite love songs.
Then my fren, Bernard teased me, saying that if it's my wedding, I'll be the one singing. He'll cover his ears.
Haha... I wish.

I prayed that both couples will be Happily Ever After.

Its too bad that I don't have any pics of both couples. I'll grab some photos from them some other time.

Here's the pics Samantha took. Pls enjoy.

Mine? It died on me half-way through the dinner. Dots.

Bernard, me and Samantha











S, Yiting (attachment student), me and Mandy

Group pic of some of my KP frenz: Eunice, Genevieve, M, me, B (at fore ground)
Y, Snow and Tricia (at the back).

I boost my frenz' morale but... mine? It turns to one of the lowest again.

~ my heart is dripping blood, like Allen's of D Gray Man.

I really can't understand. Maybe their mentality is different from ours.

I'm supposed to be on course today.
I kept having the runs.

I sms my assistant to help.
You know what she reply? "Doing cashiering, can't help. Very sorry."

~Crap! I really can't stand their (S.C's) attitude.
If my frenz read this? You will sense our frustration and tiredness.
Let me carry on with the happening.


... ...


Ben told me, Mandy will be your buddy for the syrup duty and she will take over when you go and study.
~Hah? You want me to pass over to my gf and let her suffer? You all do it yourselves!
Mandy whispered, I like doing this kind of lab work.

~I thought of telling her something but... my defense went up. WHY? S.C. like to eavesdrop. They can hear through walls.

I spoke softly, I'll tell you the whole story when we'r alone.


Then a few hours later,

My chief cashiers complain to me about Kamariah.
She just like to sit to do cashiering and refuse to move.
They meant, she don't put back the extra stocks / patients' baskets.
~Wah liao! My chief cashiers are having bad aches and headaches.

I comforted both of them, "Don't worry. We do our best everyday, to help and do our own work. Ignore her. She will be the one who has to answer to her God, not us."


When i was going home,

my colleague, Jennifer looked she's about to cry.
~Hmm.
It's about Uncle Raymond again.
He kept asking her to be faster. He bullied her because she's nice.
He's that type who you have to ask EXTRA nicely, then he'll help you.
~Crap!
"I'm the OTC staff today. I'm sorry that I wasn't there to help." I said.

I said similar things to her, like what I've told my chief cashiers.
"S.C. will always be there until they retire. We need a major revamp, in order to balance out the work."
She's so enthusastic about the revamp.
Haha...

~Dear Heavenly Father,
I've been praying this everyday.
I pray that the S.C. will do their part to help. Instead of making use of the rest of us, the Ant workers.
We'll ignore their bad habits and carry on as per normal.

There'll be a meeting that we not only talk about the workflow, but also the welfare of the staffs.
How can we maintain our standards when the S.C. kept on doing things their way?

I pray for a peace of mind, normal heartbeat and blood pressure for the few of us.
In Jesus' precious name, Amen.

If I didn't meet QY at the end of the day? My mood will drop to the bottom of the pit.
Thank God that a 'brother' is always there to make me laugh (though they like to tease me alot but.. I don't mind.).
They don't have bad motives against you. Unlike some people, S.C.

>_<" I think it's another bad day plus pms le.