Alone.

Anime: Bleach

6th opening theme song: Alones
Singer: Aqua timez

Japanese (not updated version)
Chorus
oreta awai tsubasa
kimi wa sukoshi
aosugiru sora ni tsukareta dake sa
mou dareka no tame ja nakute
jibun no tame ni waratte ii yo

izen to shite shinobiyoru kodoku
uchigawa ni tomoru rousoku
nigiwau ba ni gouka na shanderia to wa urahara ni

tarinai kotoba no
kubomi o nani de umetara ii n' darou
mou wakaranai yo

semete yume no naka de
jiyuu ni oyogetara anna sora mo iranai no ni
kinou made no koto o
nuritsubasa nakute mo asu ni mukaeru no ni

Chorus

English version
Chorus
Your fragile, folding wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself

That lonely feeling keeps creeping up on me
A single candle burns still inside
There shouldn't be an expensive chandelier in a wild place like this

Can I really bury it all with empty words?
I don't even know anymore

As long as we can swim freely in our dreams
we won't need that sky anymore.
Even if you can't let go of the past
I'll still be there to meet you tomorrow

Chorus
Your fragile, folding wings
are just tired from the pure blue sky
You don't have to force your smiles for anyone
It's okay to smile... for yourself

Verse of the day

From Samsam,

Philippians 4:8
Finally brothers, whatever that is true, whatever that is honest, whatever is just, whatever that is pure, whatever that is lovely, whatever that is of good report, if there is virtue and if is praiseworthy, think of these things.
God bless...

My bad

Justin kept telling me that he has invited Kelvin to join us for lunch.
I threathened by saying "You try asking him and the 2 of u can eat by urselves."
I'm being mean but... Justin's trying to matchmake us.
I won't buy it. He was nagged by me.
... ...

Another bro is blur like sotong,
He has similar character and hobbies as Justin.
The funny thing is that both are teased by me (always call them Uncle as greeting).

But... he's more cheeky.
Y? We argued about the way to get to Bugis from Bedok.
He don't believe wat I said loh. =l

Then i joked, i wna go home.
That fellow don't let me alight. =S
I almost fainted in the car. (I wasn't feeling well. Honest!)
I pouted.

He said he's gna tell our cell leader on me.
Hemm! I rebuked, "I'm gna complain to 2nd head."
(Hmm. Who asked him to be so bad?)
I ignored him when he's checking w me the direction to Bedok interchange.
(Okay la. Maybe he's very hungry, give him chance.)
... ...

It's my bad. To be wilful, making fun of my "brothers".
Thanks alot, u guys for being such gentlemen and so sweet. =p

The darker side

A customer shouted at Sam yesterday morning, It happened in front of the long queue. OMG!
She commmented that Sam is unfriendly, purposedly dropped her items and threw the receipt in her face.
Dots.. Our counter tops are crampy and things may topple over.
Sam served her with an expressionless face and left the receipt on the counter.

It is the peak period. We are trying to speed up the waiting time.
I think the Obasan (aka auntie in jap) is Full Of Nonsense (FON) and being unreasonable.
She made Sam cry lo. Crap!

Sam told me that she hate this job. I totally agree with her.
Y? The patients / customers and the staff are FON cum Full Of Crap (FOC).
They always ask for freebies, free of charge (foc) items and more discounts.
... ...

I have to do 3 couriers before today's deadline and my scheduled duty is to help outside.
I'm trying to plan what to do 1st.
He nagged lo.

("Relac lah!" This phrase came to mind. It means to relax and cool. QY mentioned it to us, when he told us he said that to the supervisor. She's like a ganjiong spider.)
It is the same case at our side.
The old staff can be as slow as snails at one time and ganjiong spiders at the other moment.

I got irritated. I scolded Ben for disturbing me.
... ...

I gave my colleague and another student a stern look.
One wna clarify things while the student teased me.
In the end, both gotten scolded.


I should be applying the Gospel (To be quick to listen, slow to anger and slow to speak).
I did reflect soon after and told them what's happening.
... ...

Y is the darker side that is evil, trying to ruin our love of serving others ?
>_<"

It's not Monday blues for today, its the sleepy spell...

On my way to work, I prayed:
dear Heavenly Father,
I pray that we will not have Monday blues.
Through the power of the holy spirit,
give us strength and wisdom to complete the work and handle the holiday crowd of patients.

But..
our bodies are weak and tired due to the hectic schedule last week and lack of manpower.
I'm also tired le and sleepy.
My frenz and i are going to turn into sleeping beauties before the day is over...

Anime (Bleach) 2nd opening song

D-tecnoLife

Performer: UVERworld

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Shouler the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live

Your hand that i held...

Will we lose it someday?
I want to protect you and that disappearing smile
The ringing voice that calls me dries out
Even if it gets erased by the wind along time
I will find you

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize

Like a rusted person

It felt so hollow to just pile atop one another
You said you could live on your own
Just with the usual kind words
You ache to a point where I cannot reach you

Your hand that I held searched for some simple kindness
Do you remember
By learning pain, you can become a person who can be kind to others
Drive your Life

Injured with pain and sadness, the you that cannot be healed
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Everything that happens in the unseen future has a meaning
So stay like this, there'll come a time when you will realize

How can I see the meaning of life
Disappearing, you're the only. . .

So you will not break, you distance yourself from me
Don't say words like you can't smile or you hate people
Now it's by and by, even if you cannot see, there's a meaning to everything
Shoulder the burden of the past that cannot be erased; don't throw away your will to live

You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . your different Life?
You'd better forget everything. Remember. . . though, we cannot return

Like in times of warped memories, we can understand someday

We'r going to leave.

Sam-sam asked "R u going with us on Jan 2008?"
"We can hand in the resignation letter after we have confirmed the bonus is?
They won't cancel it at the last minute right?"
She looked so afraid that we'll lose the money.

I assured her that on 18th Dec, the bonus will be credited into our bank account.

I was thinking about what I told Kim and SJ that time during meet-up, 16 or 17/10/2007.
(We are leaving the place to look for a better future.
Don't have to feel bad about leaving and they have a lack of staff.
It's not our fault.)

Touched by the Sms

::: Everyone wants to be the sun that lights up your life,
but I rather be your moon,
so I can shine on you during your darkest hour
when your sun isn't around::: Goodnight


Alone?
I'm beside u
Afraid?
I'm here to comfort u
Hurt?
U may cry on my shoulders
Need a hug?
My arms r urs
Y?
Coz u'r d some1 special 2 me!


In life..
God doesn't give u the people u want..
instead God gives u the people u need:
2 teach u,
2 guide u,
2 love u
&
2 make u..
exactly the way u like it..

Sian...

Today is SJ's bday.
Ah... i really miss her.

SL's office has moved back to 7th storey.
I have few frenz there le.
The few frenz are also tired of the work.


Heavenly Father,
I need a revival there.
A major revamp..
We should change the system bcoz it's too stagnant.
We, youngsters can't stand the everyday nonsense.
Give us the energy to fight the evil ones and the
wisdom to improve the workflow.
Change the management's thinking, oh God.
If not? The good staff will leave one-by-one.
And the newbies will resign bcoz they also can't tolerate the evil ones.
>_<"

Blessings and circumstances.

T: Part 1, Blessed with food

Mages asked me whether i like to eat cheese.
"Of course! I love cheese. Look at my height. I'm tall bcoz i ate all dairy products. Yummy!" I replied enthusiastically.
She gave the cheese biscuit to me.
Haha... happy sia.

It was TWC's last day at work.
She bought us big muffins.
Mages brought one to me and later part of the day, Florence gave me another.

I'm supposed to meet an ex-colleague for lunch.
Something cropped up and I didn't eat with her.
She bought me a muffin, tart and chocolate slice.
I blessed R with muffin since he may get hungry in the middle of the night.

Then, I message my sister to say that I will come home late. If she is very hungry, she can finish the food that she promised to share with me. I will find something to munch.
Thank God that Mum has an extra pack of bee hoon.
Yeah! I'm blessed with my favourite food.
Yummy!
:p


Part 2, weird happenings

M said that Y told J (in front of F) she don't want to stand at the main cashier.
F added that "nobody will want to work with her. Why? She's double-headed person. She says one thing in front of you, den she backstab you."
"Good! The few of us, close ones can laugh and work together. Ignore the troublemakers."
______

Finding faults in me;
- I have a long queue to clear. A young lady has a query.
I told her to hold on. Let me finish the transaction with the auntie.
She muttered, "it's just a simple question."
"May i help you?" i asked politely.
She: "Can I pay this together with the medicine?"
I: Sure, no problem.
Then she stomped off angrily.

- A black lady: Three not tree! Let me spell for you 'THREE! THREE!' I am speaking English, not Chinese.
I turned to ask my colleague to find out whether she can make out what the customer is saying.
Black lady: I am speaking English, not Tamil!
I: I'm sorry. Can you please repeat slowly.
Black lady: Counter three.
I: Counter 3? It's behind you, madam. The red sign.
Then she stomped away.

I told Mages, these people are weird. I can't be bothered with them.
Mages: You're being polite. She's finding faults in your English.
I laughed, "I should have used my English slang, to vs her weird British accent. And tell her that I am ABC, don't understand Chinese also. She will blow her top."
We continue joking about the lady for the rest of the day.
______


Part 3: I may be ill

I was having headache and heat rash during the 2nd half of the day.
What was bad is that, there was a FON customer when i need to close counter.
Omg! It got worse when I realised that nobody help me to call for delivery.

Then QY called to disturb. Sigh...
I told him off "you always call at the wrong-cum-right time."
I mean "wrong time" bcoz I don't have time to chat since I need to handle 2 or 3 things at one time, "right time" bcoz he cheers me up and listens to my complaints.

The worst of all is I feel nausea in the way to patient's home via taxi.
I sms QY that i sounded like a patient when i message him about my symptoms.
I almost vomit when i reach home. It was more than 2 hour trip (in total) from the workplace to patient's home and then to my place.
Eek! I have a big headache. Err!
>_<"

This is none of our concern.

We had a OP meeting with the bosses
They updated us on the latest news, any patients' complaints and comments?

They highlighted that our job appraisal and performance depends on the waiting time.

"I" kept on complaining about the lack of manpower, others not helping out and just did their own work.
Or she said it's good to have OTC staff but when you need him/her to help?
They are always disappear. (A few of us know who the naughty ones are. We just didn't say.)

They just talk about what we have been doing so far, to keep the waiting time less than 30 mins.
When the bosses asked us to brainstorm ideas to improve the workflow, everyone was silent.
It's bcoz they seem to keep the staffs to the minimum to carry on the flow of things.
There isn't any job satisfaction. When your own department's staff are not cooperating and the patients are FON, you will also be "sian" of coming to work everyday.

M and I exchanged "sian" expressions.
She whispered, "this is none of our concern."

We share the same sentiments.

15/10/2007 AM
~Sam and Jo are tired of working there.

16/10/2007 PM
~ I met YP, Joey and Florence for dinner.

Florence also mentioned that she's tired of working there.
She told YP, "I will stay for another 5 years. Then I'll leave."
YP teased, "You said that before, quite a while ago."


All of us felt that the team spirit is gone.
There's too many newbies, the staffs are coming and going.
It's a mess.

I told Joey if she observe carefully? We usually stick to our own clicks: the seniors vs the juniors.
She asked whether I know about the party in November? Eve invited her.
I replied that I'm not close to Eve, they all. Different clicks lah!

Nor also complained to her that "she's sian with work. Just work a day at a time."

Joey and I share the same sentiment (when will the place close down?).
We feel that way bcoz? We really have lost the passion and drive to continue the job.
The staffs are complaining with their mouths and their hands aren't doing work.
They kept finding faults in the rest.
It's chaotic, man!

>_<"

Sadness in the air..

You're really leaving at the end of this month?
Yes...
One is staying at home to take care of her kids while the other is secretive about where she is heading to.

Everybody is tensed and overworked.
Gonna be over-pressurized by the customers and patients.
Sigh...


I pray for everyday strength, a clear mind and be of good cheer.
To work and help my frenz wherever i can.
Pray that the evil ones will not harm us
and God will protect His sheeps.

Major revamp (MRV) for KP.

My frenz from other departments were complaining to me about the workplace, during lunch on last Sat.
~Haha...
they also sense the weirdness of the atmosphere.
The nurses are bullying them and there's mis-communication among the staffs.


I ask you, how to work like that, everyday in and out?
One of them told me, she suddenly broke down under pressures. That shocked SL.
Great! She's one of my Happy-go-lucky frenz. She also can't take it. What about the rest of us, the youngsters?


I pray daily for a MAJOR REVAMP!
Here's part of a prayer, my fren wrote for me:

Dear Heavenly Father,
Let the "evil" ones not be able to reign in the marketplace, but cause those who have a kind heart, those who walk in integrity to rise up in power and drove out all those "evil ones"...
You said in the Bible that You will not withold Your blessings from those who walk righteously in integrity.
LOrd I lift up all the situations in Your hands.
I know that no matter what happen, You have the power to turn the whole situation around for the good of those who love You and called according to Your purpose.
For Yours is the kingdom, the power and the glory forever and ever,
Amen.


~please don't force us to do the totally unexpected!
We're over-worked and underpaid.

~~ please send our Guardian Angels to stand by us to fight the continuous war against the S.C.

>_<"

Double J and J's wedding

It's our groupmates, John's and Junie's wedding dinner at Orchard Hotel.
And it's also Jacky's and Josephine's at Bukit Batok CSC.
Dots. >_<"
How can we go to 2 different places at one evening?

We have to make the choice of going to either one.
I felt so bad about it.
Sigh...

... ...

After I heard from Mandy that they were asking about the details of Jojo wedding dinner, I felt worse.
Why?
It is because I told Jojo that if you don't have enough seats, don't invite those that you don't want to see. It's your wedding day and I want you to be happy. It's your day.
Does it seem like I "psycho" her not to invite them? I really have no idea.

I told Mages about it. She laughed.
She may be thinking that they are acting like immature adults. They will go where there's good and tasty food.


Anyway, the handful of us went ahead.
I met my frenz at the mrt station and I'm supposed to bring them there.
But... we lost our way due to my poor direction sense.
Sobs.
Thank God that my fren called her bf who's living in the area to lead the way. :p
Err! Why there's so many hiccups?


When we reached, the place looked like a holiday resort in the middle of the HDB flats.
The ballroom was beautifully decorated with pink and champage roses and crystals.

There's my favourite Cornflake prawns. The prawns are big and fresh.

The groom has his own band. He sang their favourite love songs.
Then my fren, Bernard teased me, saying that if it's my wedding, I'll be the one singing. He'll cover his ears.
Haha... I wish.

I prayed that both couples will be Happily Ever After.

Its too bad that I don't have any pics of both couples. I'll grab some photos from them some other time.

Here's the pics Samantha took. Pls enjoy.

Mine? It died on me half-way through the dinner. Dots.

Bernard, me and Samantha











S, Yiting (attachment student), me and Mandy

Group pic of some of my KP frenz: Eunice, Genevieve, M, me, B (at fore ground)
Y, Snow and Tricia (at the back).

I boost my frenz' morale but... mine? It turns to one of the lowest again.

~ my heart is dripping blood, like Allen's of D Gray Man.

I really can't understand. Maybe their mentality is different from ours.

I'm supposed to be on course today.
I kept having the runs.

I sms my assistant to help.
You know what she reply? "Doing cashiering, can't help. Very sorry."

~Crap! I really can't stand their (S.C's) attitude.
If my frenz read this? You will sense our frustration and tiredness.
Let me carry on with the happening.


... ...


Ben told me, Mandy will be your buddy for the syrup duty and she will take over when you go and study.
~Hah? You want me to pass over to my gf and let her suffer? You all do it yourselves!
Mandy whispered, I like doing this kind of lab work.

~I thought of telling her something but... my defense went up. WHY? S.C. like to eavesdrop. They can hear through walls.

I spoke softly, I'll tell you the whole story when we'r alone.


Then a few hours later,

My chief cashiers complain to me about Kamariah.
She just like to sit to do cashiering and refuse to move.
They meant, she don't put back the extra stocks / patients' baskets.
~Wah liao! My chief cashiers are having bad aches and headaches.

I comforted both of them, "Don't worry. We do our best everyday, to help and do our own work. Ignore her. She will be the one who has to answer to her God, not us."


When i was going home,

my colleague, Jennifer looked she's about to cry.
~Hmm.
It's about Uncle Raymond again.
He kept asking her to be faster. He bullied her because she's nice.
He's that type who you have to ask EXTRA nicely, then he'll help you.
~Crap!
"I'm the OTC staff today. I'm sorry that I wasn't there to help." I said.

I said similar things to her, like what I've told my chief cashiers.
"S.C. will always be there until they retire. We need a major revamp, in order to balance out the work."
She's so enthusastic about the revamp.
Haha...

~Dear Heavenly Father,
I've been praying this everyday.
I pray that the S.C. will do their part to help. Instead of making use of the rest of us, the Ant workers.
We'll ignore their bad habits and carry on as per normal.

There'll be a meeting that we not only talk about the workflow, but also the welfare of the staffs.
How can we maintain our standards when the S.C. kept on doing things their way?

I pray for a peace of mind, normal heartbeat and blood pressure for the few of us.
In Jesus' precious name, Amen.

If I didn't meet QY at the end of the day? My mood will drop to the bottom of the pit.
Thank God that a 'brother' is always there to make me laugh (though they like to tease me alot but.. I don't mind.).
They don't have bad motives against you. Unlike some people, S.C.

>_<" I think it's another bad day plus pms le.

Does Your Company Love Misery???

I read an article from the web, "Does Your Company Love Misery?"
It may be applicable to the place that I'm working at.

... ...
I think the area that I'm working in, is weird.
Why?

I have no clue.
It's just that all my close colleagues are quiting / have left.
Majority are the pharmacists.
Hmm.
Maybe there is really a BIG issue but... the suggestions given, were left hanging.
So irritating!
Nobody bothered to follow up / take action.
Dots.

>_<"

2 funny things

1. Cashier Magas told me that she mentioned to Jojo if...
the 5 of us report mc on a day?
Wat will happen?
Hmm..
The pharmacist manager will call each of us on the next working day for a meeting.

2. Little Susu said, "hey! The Senior citizens are having a gathering at the back. Haha.."
Actually they are just filling up the D&D form. (Eek! It's so boring. And I'm not sporty. Don't
want to eat with the hungry ppl like crazy.)

Pray until something happens...

The devils (One who gave my galfren and I problems by acting smart, 2 aunties who don't bother to help) of today annoy me. Wat the hack?!

Thank God that I'm blessed with friends who r like angels. Haha...
They told me to cool it and ignore the devils.

"I pray to Heavenly Father that, I'll be able to withstand their nonsense. And seek God for advice on a Major plan that my pharmacy friends and I have. So the devils will have to face the music themselves when the plan activates."

.............................................................

I almost forsake my remaining 15mins break till my fren grabbed me. Bcoz she noticed I start lunch break late so... she said, don't waste your 1 hour break. Rest! There's still time left."
Lol...

she saw me getting frustrated by our staff.
Then I'm bombarded by another one.
Crap!!!

See you outside the workplace then...

Sigh... i really gonna miss her..

Tricia - initially wna quit, then transfer to inpatient pharmacy,

Joey - wna be a chinese teacher (but can't), gna be a childcare teacher instead.
- i know her since i went there for student attachment 2 yrs ago.

Who will be the next to go?

Anyway, the few of us (juniors) are exhausted and sick in the stomach.
It's bcoz we cant tolerate their style of working. (All r full of nonsense!)

Slimmer? Is it?

Sun 15-07-2007.
Went to meet sec sch frenz to celebrate Xuezhen's bday.
"Wah! So long, 5 years nvr see u. u'r slimmer." Puiming said.
(Heh? Me?)
"Much skinner compared to O level's time."

Watch Harry potter @ the Cathay. The movie's okay. Kinda touching at certain parts (feels as though he's in similar situation as me). Almost cried but my 2 chatty galfrenz kept asking me questions about the previous movies. They disturbed my peace.

Thought about wat Dr Richard Roberts spoke (in sermon),
when it turns from bad to WORSE... normally ppl will tink it'll turn into a disaster.
For us, christians? Pray until something happens. It will be a miracle.

Today...
Dinner with my gege and siuling-jiejie. Haha... They really have the couple face.

Siuling kept telling him tt i look skinner. Have i?
He asked, "did i eat properly?"
(Hmm. For past 2 years, i eat normally but without dinner and excercise. Maybe due to the stress. Tt's why i can't gain weight and always have gastric problems.)
Dots... He nagged like crazy. Lol... He's concerned for my health lah.

Told me to take good care of myself in Aussie and to meet the right ppl.
Go for attachment thr if there's opportunity. (good for me to work and earn extra $$ and it'll look nice on resume. If not, i'll be broke!)
It's good to specialize in a particular area of Chemistry.
>_<" The weird thing is i asked him for a belated 21st bday present, he asked me to wait another 21 years for it. Haha... i looked amused at him, saying "u said the same thing as Uncle yeow. Lol... no wonder u'r frenz. Both at the same frequency de." ;p

Help me???

Tricia changed her mind abt leaving. She's going inpatient.
"Good 4 u. its safer thr"
(but... why she wna stay? i wonder?)

Complain to her tt Siliang said "u beta train another "u" b4 u leave."
(I dont get wat he means? He meant another puppet / person for them to manipulate?)
She respond, "he's influenced by the 'BAD' culture after being with them for so long. Don't get affected by them, tt's more impt."

True... i'll do a proper handover and i'll leave this God-forsaken place. U all are really BAD like... (i duno wat words to describe).

Now... i can only hug myself and cry. >_<"
But.. thank God for Jo, Sam, Tricia and some galfrenz who are still around to keep me company.
If not, i'll turn into an old hag b4 i reach the age of 30, man.
Dots.

Fly away to... Aussie.

Boss need me to check something.
"can't i do it tmw? i've to rush to Airport." (the plane can't wait. the work is always there. It'll be done but.. later only.)

(dont care!) i dashed to send zhiyong and jasmine off.
(Hee...) I din tell Jas that Rongchang may be coming. Anyway, he' late.
We said goodbyes and gave our blessings.

They went in (with tear-stained faces).
I told myself not to cry. (bcoz once i start? its difficult for me to stop. So sentimental sia.)
When i turn around to look for RC, i find him hiding behind me.
(Ahh... seems like he might cry bcoz his eyes r red.) I was thinking maybe he's afraid tt i'll tease him abt it.
Woo... sad sia.




.............................................

I have a craving for dessert to soothe the sad feeling. So i brought RC to Cafe Cartel and chill out.
Through the conversation, i realise tt both of us are sentimental. He can't bear the thought of leaving his parents to study overseas. (bcoz he's sort of a Mummy's boy. I dun get it. Y some guys r jus like tt?) I? Most important ppl r my sister and granny, plus my close frenz. (all r my guardian angels / listening ears to my nonsense.)

(Hack care!?)

Even i feel more frightened than excited abt going Australia to study next year?
I'll still stick to it.

I pray tt Heavenly Father will give me strength and the wisdom about what to do. "Ask, seek and u'll find. :p

I NEED BACK-UP.

It's the time of the month again.
PMS and the long list of courier to be done.
(Wah liao! >_<" the whole body's tired, inside out.)

I was stressed until i feel like pulling e hairs out.

All the couriers are URGENT bcoz there's no sending on Saturdays and they NEED the medicine TMW.

Dots..

So... i took my SLOW pace to check each one CAREFULLY since i don't want to give my courier assistant any troubles.

Another reason is to give myself a peaceful mind to sleep tonight and fight the war tmw. (It feel like im turning 'elmo" again. Meaning: anxious and stressed-up expression with a RED face)

Omg! I wrote another complaint letter to my boss, saying: I can't cope when... they 1) put me in another department when my assistant's unable to help me, 2) other assistant (who's the one that taught me the tricks!?) don't want to BACK me UP.

They ALWAYS take us for granted, i told my galfrenz. Berry "bu shuang" loh!

Local or overseas study?

My sister was too anxious to know the result. She opened my letter from NTU without my consent. Made me so upset! Don't respect my privacy!

I know tt she's very concerned whether i can get in this july. Then she don't have to support me to study in Australia.

She'll miss my company de. Sigh... She's so headstrong and won't shed a tear in front of her xiaomei. (Me! who's a big crybaby) Haha...

What are you trying to do?

Hmm...

Why do you asked me whether i wanna do cashier duty 10-7pm today?
Sorry, i've appointment le.
Even if i don't have a date, i will still refuse bcoz... i really felt terrible this morning.
Bad sore throat and blocked nose. Sigh... really gonna be sick. >_<"

Now, you want me to do emergency pharmacy 10-5pm? Can, on one condition: I'm going off at 6.30pm (i don't care) and i need to call the courier for 3 different cases leh!

You think im very free? Only at times loh. Lol...

Some of us can't stand the crowd sia. And the other ppl, i mean the other staffs.
I wonder what will be the appraisal results.
Anyway, i don't want to stay long here. Will get hypertension lor.
I don't want to die at a very young age. Haha...

Hang-out schedule. Haha...

It will be so nice to take a nap and share a dream with your galfrenz. >_<"



So happy to go and hang out with my galfrenz...
Too busy to entertain the thoughts of him coming back but still... i'm having nightmares about it. So lame!




Sun 22-04-07
Sijia and i had done our Sunday duty. We decided to have lunch together. (its been so long that we have some time to chat with each other.)
She commented that i had a funny expression when i eat. It seems to me that all food is tasty and yummy. Haha...
Then we went to buy bday present for Siuling bcoz i'm afraid that we won't have time to buy. There's many variety to choose from. I dunno where to start sia. Lol...

Mon 23-04-07
The usual window-shopping with my sister...
She's so weird bcoz she only buy one item everywhere we go.

Tues 24-04-07
Catch a movie with Koon mian and Siuling-jiejie.
1st time to be watching movie at the Grand Cathay.
My frenz aint there when i reach. (thought i've gone to the wrong place.)
I'm a blur princess...

Wed 25-04-07
Eat steamboat with young pharm gang (genevieve, samantha, josephine, tricia and xuefeng.)
Too bad that Christine can't join us.
Samantha and i were sad bcoz they dont serve rice there.
Then we go for dessert at Ah Chew dessert house. We took photos of us eating and joking around.
Jo-jo took a pic of me finishing my bowl and they placed their empty bowls next to mine.
(I'm like a dessert-lover)

Fri 27-04-07
Meet silin chc for dinnner

Happy happy...

Yeah!
I just love to have a meal or hang out with my friends.
We can just enjoy the time being together without any words spoken.
Love them sia...

I meet my friend, Sijia for lunch after our Sunday duty. I'm so happy bcoz both of us r busy with work and life, we didn't have time for each other.
She's one of my close friends in the pharmacy.
So nice of her to hang out with me. One of my big sisters. Haha...

We shared our main course. Grilled chicken with potato wedges (I love potatoes!) and mine is poached salmon with citrus sauce. :p

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I remember she teased me about my birthday last year. It is bcoz i told her the group didn't get bday cake for my 21st bday. So upsetting! She said, "then we don't have to scratch our heads to think abt what to get for my bday. We buy cakes for you. Make sure that you can finish up." "Wah! Okay. I want the different types of cheesecakes and my favourite Black forest cake. Hee..." i replied.

Why is this Friday, the 13th the worst?

I don't really feel like going to work today... Berry tired like crazy bcoz i've been working extra hard and sleeping less. Sian...

I muttered to Sam-sam, "actually i want to persuade you to take leave together with me today since Jo-jo's on mc." She smiled, saying "don't want lah. I asked Khat to let me go off early bcoz i have sports training."

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Everyone's berry tired le. Don't know why this week's crowd is EXTRA bad. The patients kept coming non-stop like that time during the school holidays. I'm okay with this but today's happening is something that i can't stand any longer...

2 pt on al, 2 on ual, 1 on fcl, 2 on mc2 pharmacists on mc, 1 off call

Irene and Betty are handling the situation outside. Aishing said to me, "See... where are all the senoir and "old" staff? Xiuli! You'll be in-charge here." (What?! >_<") She and i are the ones calling the shots inside the office.

It's a terrible crisis. No packers with SO many baskets. (Oh, good heavens!)Thank god there's people coming to help after 2-3 hours but... the hope to save the situation is futile.

Towards 3/4 of the day, both Aishing and i are weary and angry... Can't keep our temper checked. I told her "Cheer up, sis. The day will end very soon. Go home, have a nice meal and soak up in a fragrant and hot bath. Hee... don't get beaten by the bad people." (i'm trying to be my bubbly and cheerful self again. Don't wna get HURT by the baddies and the chaotic situation.)

Met jo-jo and linda for dinner. Told them that the day was really terrible.

Jo-jo whispered, "we must get out of the place quickly. They are making use of our young energy and speed." (Hmm...) "Yes. Come up with a plan and get our butt out of the horrible place," i replied.

(I'm feeling faint. It's not like the usual tiredness. It's the worst, man.)

I'm more crazy than them...

First thing first... It's not my fault that they are short-handed. They are always busy so... they should ask the boss to employ more people lah!

And I'm not obligated to do overtime for them everytime they ask me. (Hello! Can't I have a rest and my private time?) Please use your tiny brains to think about it... you all have children to take care while I also have to relax and hang out with my friends. (What!?)
Selfish people... Haa!

Asked me to OT last night (never mind). Asked again today and there's another scheduled one tomorrow. (Hello!!!) Won't I be tired to be working 11 hours straight these 3 days? (Wah liao!) I'm really too crazy and gullible to be helping them so much and all the while.

Haiz... my galfrenz and elder sister said that I'm nuts, to be hurting myself like that.

Anyway, thank god that I applied for MC on monday bcoz... I need an excuse and a break to rest my mind, sleep more and watch vcds. Haha... Don't care about them le, i told my sister. I've been working very hard last week, cashiering and handling the never-ending queue of patients. (Crap!)

I won't give a damn le, I remind myself again. I'm weary and they have other back-up personnel to call. I'm not in-dispensable and important what?!

Hmm...

I don't know what to write le...

Should I continue to draft my stories or dig a black hole and dump everything, every memory good or bad in?

I don't have the answer.. So lost again.
>_< "

Anyway, I've applied for Chemistry major, NTU (this july, 2007) and UQ (july 2008). Bcoz I don't want to see Uncle Hie's face. He's being too childish and crude about his reply. And... I really want to further my studies.

So I told my close galfrenz in the pharmacy "Come. Let us leave this stupid, corrrupted place that's filled with politics. It's worse than last time when the two retail pharmacies are separated." Haha... the few of us have decided to find another job / go further studies.

I don't want to care about the place anymore. I'm waiting for my NTU application / hang around the damned place until next year to... fly off le. Haha...

Too bad that i can't give them a hard kick in the butt bcoz the retail in-charge knows Ms Hor. (What the hack?!) I've bad luck loh. Anyway, I remembered that I told her i'm saving up to further study and i'm not going to stay here till old age. (The!) We, youngsters should be going out to do fun and exciting stuffs, not to spoil our time and rot in a dumb place like this.
Haa...

So tired & sick of this noisy place...

My friend asked, "R you going to the AHS party later?" "Nah... I don't feel like going. Wanna go home to sleep and rest," I replied.

<- my feelings r like his (Syaoran's): stranded and upset expression...

It's been a busy week since the start of the March school holidays. Wah liao! So sian and tired... I messaged this to my gf. Haiz... (I've always been sighing. Think i'm gonna become an old auntie, way before i reach that actual age.)

Then, the day goes on. Busy & busier with the CEO (who thinks she is the PT in-charge loh. Bloody idiot! Who she thinks she is? Wna take over Empress Dowager's place? Most of us will object like crazy if she wants tt position.) shouting commands at everyone.

After we clear the day's crowd, everyone is ready to party. Not me, of course! My friend sms me again, "you coming up? Where's ya? Wna me to fetch u?" (So nice of her. But i'm just too stressed and exhausted to go.) "Erm... i'll wait for u at the bus-stop. We go home together but i really don't feel like going. It's so noisy and i'm tired le. Sigh..."

"Hmm... Don't wait for me bcoz i don't know what time the party will end. Go home 1st," she sms back. "Orh... u have fun, okay?" (She knew about the situation upstairs. The people & the others sux like big time loh. Only grumbles and likes to walk around. They don't do work. When there's trouble or times of crisis, they push the blame on the new or inexperienced staff. Crap! I despise them for doing that.)

A nice melody sounded... it's my NEW ringtone (Winter Love by Boa). Love it sia :p My friend was calling to say, the dinner hasn't started and she's hungry. So she wants to check whether I wna have a meal with her and Siuling-jie. "Cool... I would love to."

It's been so long with Siuling planning for her ROM and Sijia looking for a new job, we haven't chat for a long time. So nice to have a heart-to-heart talk with my two jiejies. Haha...

Siuling asked me whether there's any reply letter from the schools that I've applied. Nah... no news yet.

She continues, "Haiz... the two of u r leaving." Well... we still can hang out, outside that stupid place, I mean. (I don't care. I dislike the people and the environment even though my friend tried in vain, to persuade me.)

Then we chat about her, going to be a bride soon. Hee... saying that she felt weird when the two of us greet her as Mrs See. "Nvr mind lar, we'r just teasing u," Sijia laughed.

So sian to go to work everyday now... tired..

Why do I've to entertain you? Can't you be nice? How could you treat your dardar the same way as you treat us? So bad... auntie!!!

I kept thinking about this bcoz' she is always trying to be funny with me. What the hack?
I'm trying to be nice to you but you want to treat me like dirt. (Fine!?)
Asked you to double-check things & you say that I'm being difficult. (Hello!) I've much better things to do than to play or entertain you. Crazy baddy! Hemm...

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That is an example of an auntie. I'm better at handling my own granny than her. (Wah liao.) Crap lady!

Another one will just laugh in your face when you say bad things about her to a third party, she'll just standing nearby. (The few of us felt like slapping the smile off her face.)

They all just nag and nag everyday. All old aunties. I definitely don't want to end up like that. (The!)
The whole group of them r all BIG baddies. Please go and rot in Hell. Don't care bcoz' they r so extreme corrupted loh!

>_<" Haiz...

It's good to have a quiet moment...

"Why suddenly the pharmacy is so quiet xia...?" i told jo-jo. "Hah? Ooh.. because the 'CEO' is on half-day leave so she won't have the time to nag at us / give orders lo" she replied.

Then i laughed.. The rest of the gang just smiled back at me, coz our great minds think alike about something Uncle Ben said yesterday...
He said "we boycott her one day where she has to do all the duties of a PT & PA." Haha... he meant to do cashiering, type, pack & dispense the med plus prepare extemporaneous syrups.

Haha... really need to let her see that, what the rest of us r doing r equally important. Why u like to treat us like dirt all the time? Funny meh?! Who are you to say that we'r not doing our jobs? My fren (who's the same rank as her) kept giving her face. When we give her an inch, she wants a yard. Bloody bad fellow xia..

You all might think i'm childish but i won't talk to him anymore..

The reason... you gals thought the 2 of us as a couple. And tease us all the time. But... the problem is: He's a helpful and nice guy to his frenz. So he treat me as a younger sister mah.

You all tease and joke with him. He's upset le, thinking that i didn't get the hint (Hello?! I'm not so thick-skinned de.) .
He did something to piss me off. So...

I'm not gonna be his friend and delete all his messenges & numbers. Also, gonna bury the 21st yr-old present he bought in a place where i'll nvr see it again. Ever... (when i said this to my gf, she laughed. "Are you sure you'll do that? Can 4get meh?")

Don't care... coz' whenever i'm free, the memories of him will appear. (Crap!) Wanna throw them to outer space or i told my gf to brain-wash me. (Better!)
Haiz...

I pray for you today...

This is the content of a berry nice card my galfren buy (on my behalf) to give somebody de.

"I pray for you today, gave thanks for your life, wished you the best, asked the heavens to bless you with good health and happiness. I sent you good thoughts, surrounded you with hope and faith and love. I asked your guardian angels to protect you and keep you safe from any harm and blanket you with joy and contentment and peace and prosperity...

I pray for you today. I asked that you be guided with the wisdom to make choices to enhance your life and the awareness to make changes that are in your best interest. I wished for you a storehouse of opportunities, the ability to meet your goals, and the joy of your own approal and acceptance. I wished for you your heart's desire, every nedd met, every prayer answered, and every dream come true.

I pray for you today. I asked that you be prepared for whatever life hands you or whatever you're going through. I asked that your spirit be strong and lead you and guide you each step of the way down every path you take. I asked the universe to confirm for you that you're someone very special. I asked the earth to be good to you, and I asked God to show you His perfect way. I prayed for you today."

Nice rite? Haha... my English isnt so good de. It's really from a card.
Gna give to my "uncle". Ha...