PA2 laboratory..

haiz... last week the UV-Vis resultz are alrite but this week... haiz... all fail liao..... coz the stupid volumetric flasks not dry enuf.... angry xia.... so long liao still not dry.. haiz.... den dr ong wantz us extend our standard solution range...... tink sth wrong there ba..... only jas's results pass.... hmm....

leslie say I 2dae weird weird one..... where got loh...??? den another (part-time) jun-shi aka Pigger say girls wear long skirts look nice... hmm..... he duno the outfit muz suit the girl's figure mah.... haiz.... guyz lah.....

ask mi to ask Peter out... haiz... he also busy mah..... Dun kare about him lah... not free to be bothered..... sad case! he himself last time ask why I din contact him.... whoz not busy with sch wrk loh...

cross-eyed with a huge headache...

aiyo! shi qian's part of the DPP has kinda tonnes and tonnes of scientific "qiem" words..... sharon and i see until wna k him liao..... did editing from 11+am to before PA2 lecture still cnt finish... upsetting lah.....

Song: endless road

this iz a song that I like to listen to coz it kinda describe my mood these dayz....

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time


Chorus:
Why am i still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time i ask if this would be the last

Why am i still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
but it just draws me deeper
How do i get out of this I think i never will


A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding pathdown my face
Till i begin to taste the bitterness inside

love story.....

They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

Today, she's being willfulagain.

Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? Shepromised she'd pay."
Him: "I don't have time that day."
Her: "Humph!"
Him: "Huh?"
Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels,and you will have allthe time you need."
Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."
Her: "Humph! I don't care. You'll have to do it for her!"
Him: "No."
Her: "Just this once?"
Him: "No."

Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yeswithin three days, or else..."

First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator,television, hi-fi except the double bed, to show her "benevolence". Ofcourse, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences."He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, he's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him: "We need to talk."
Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."
Him: "It's something very important."She remains silent.
Him: "Let's get a divorce."She did not believe her ears.
Him: "I got to know a girl."She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish.

But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that'sthe only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.

Him: "She's a nice girl."Her tears fell.
Him: "She has a good personality too."She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.
Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.
Him: "She loves me truly."She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"
Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't wantto do."She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.
Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?"
Her: "...!"

He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face. He sighs. She cries. He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket. He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up.

He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him. She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have an intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore.She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh. It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him onhis cheek. He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

"You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

May all Love & Joys be with you...

the three little piggies.....

during DPP meeting, elder Piggy and little Piggie like talking about something but i cnt get what they are saying... then luk at mi and mention my name... wat the......!

during pa2 tut, elder Piggy and Pigger chat about sth again.... Great! den both look at mi... like I did sth berry wrong or whatever loh.. Sian.....

Dun kare lah.... cnt be bothered liao.... cnt think and always so sleepy...... my galfrenz say dun tink too much lah again..... all the things i told her before, were thrown back to advise mi.. hmm.... ya lah... guys....??? anyway little Piggie still berry the childish loh but sometimes alright lah... nice guy but like to copycat wat i say one... so mei you zhu jian.....

Continuing questioning...

yesterday in lab, Sarina gave mi that weird smiley look again... coz i juz chat a while with Pigger.. nothing wrong wat...... hez my groupmate loh...

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today during pmt meeting, Sarina ask mi where is he..... juz teasing for fun lah.... Shaz down there blur blur one.... duno the thingy we talking about..... Later, Pigger and his DPP grpmates sat behind us..... den only him and a gal of his group left there... Sarina said she wna change teasing target liao... haiz... thank god xia.....

spoke to jeremy about csas project den Frank ask mi "got stead ahh.."? hmm... of course i deny mah... i ask him how he know the thingy...? he read what i wrote here loh... haha.. but itz still too complicated lah... he duno the situation... headache leh.... Jas says we "patch" ok..... after what had happened in the past.... hmm... juz frenz baah....

we went to play squash... played pair with Pigger.... kept asking mi to tink of the guy.. Idiot lah! tink once, cnt even hit the ball loh.. Sigh..... den he said he and his gf used to play badminton together last time.. so sweet.. hmm.... I couldnt catch the ball twice and it hit me... wan mack him loh... angry liao.. haha.... haiz......

MatChmAker..?

at the end of pmt lecture, mr lam said therez no pa2 lecture later on.. so no school liao... Great! Dun wna be lamppost mah, yanzhen accompany go library zap thingy... saw Pigger with the book we need and borrow frm him.... haiz... he says what wo xian mu Jasmine and zy together, go find a bf loh.. like his business like that... hmm..... Sarina came and gave mi that weird smiley look that Sha have given mi before... hmm... what the hack...? Both of the galz started teasing and Alex came & joined in soon after... I treat him like a brother loh.. although some times in the past, his way of talking and usage of words are like my fren.... haiz... not possible lah now....

pmt project's hard....

difficult to find information lah.... should have choose the easier ones.... haiz wants to slack le but 3rd year liao, last chance to do well loh but itz hard leh how to do that.... sobz! see until eyes wna close le still cannot really find anything.... den found two websites with same graphs and info.... duno who copy who loh... so boh liao... haiz...

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sms the dementor ask her muz send Stanley the things 2dae... she say hving mtg now and wants me to tell him... XIAO lah...! I say Im not her loh... so not sure of her schedule mah... (as tot Im her worm in the stomach... dun wna be loh) not sure she did sent him but remind her thrice le if she still force mi to remind her... the number of times I wnt be able to count with my fingers and toes le.. haha... until now still din sent mi.... never mind lah... but if she din send to him, her peer appraisal gna be berry nicely done loh... by mi of course.... not to be mean lah.. but depends on the question mah.... itz gona be colourful loh... heez.... paiseh in advance....

what the hack is going on 2dae?

zy kinda almost last minute msg have CSAS meeting... ??? if I din wake up before that, I wnt have seen loh... haiz.... den wait for everyone then can go eat lunch... whatz much worse bcoz some1 ( I duno whoz fault) spill iced teh xi on the table den I got kinda patches of yellowish tea all over my jeans (thank god Im not wearing my C0nverse shoes loh.. coz itz not 50% waterproof even.. sigh! or else I'll scream loh and thank god that the tea isn't hot tea.... I'll take my iced milo and wash the person's face....) --> can say Im being childish but Hey! its not my fault to start with Im the victim leh, the fried fish slices mee was tasteless and Alex gotten choked on a wooden splinter (frm his wanton mee, duno why...weird lah)..... so in shock cum upset cum angry loh.... stupid day.. like gotten cursed by some one like that.. hmm... duno lah... odd....

itz juz being not any ordinary holiday in school lah....

ask the dementor to sent project over say wat... she havent finish editing den dun say on and a half hour b4 that will sent lor.. Xiao one... whoz not busy lah....??? in the evening, stupid loh.... -> onli sent the procedures of the SOP over.... plz loh give you such a long time to complete liao still cnt finish... mi and stanley not 3 yr-olds loh.... stressed lah! muz lower blood pressure.... no wonder stanley ask us to send him our parts several weeks before the deadline... premonition xia, he knows this confirm will happen one loh.... haiz.... I duno what to say le.... juz shoot her kinda abit directly loh.... give her an inch she wants a yard.... (well... she will get something strange lah.... no time to tink of a plan now...)

I tink itz a pre-friday-the-13th thingy baah.... haiz... sad lah...

ouch ouch...

After shower, I realise that my ankles hurt like crazy ( as though some1 still is holdin onto them like that le, so scary loh...)... Sobz! somemore said Im weak... idiot lah! he himself also not any better loh... still say mi.... stupid mud hunk loh... Haha... hee.... coz upper torso so muscular all not muscles lah --> fat cells swell up all over... hemm.... muz spar more with him.... or else I not happy one.....

....... different story now...

my xiao mei called saying she cnt join us go touring ard sp... ask mi go find Peter ( she muz be joking lor... mi myself not even sure of my feeling now coz nao dai kong kong xin ye kong kong.. haiz..) still tease mi somemore... hez gna have his term tests or somthing like that next week baah, she still ask mi go ji xiao him.... hez not good at studying lor somemore he said before that he regret going into the IT course, stupid boy....

she also in a weird spot herself but I tink not that realli bad as mi lar, of course... Sobz... so troublesome--> headache ahh, migraine... hmm..... haiz... a fren like her den that secret gotten leaked from duno who... Recentli, she sayz she maybe accepting her gege as her stead liao.... haiz.... I tink shez will treat him as subsitute loh... coz she still luv her ex mah... so mah huan larh....

den almost all of my girl-friends are pang "saying" mi le... haiz... yi ge ge bu jiang yi qi de... haiz.... never mind... i still have my lao jie... halleluya... haha... hmm... :s

Hmm....

Haiz... afraid will fail all the term tests loh coz cannot really do and also the lecturer is weird loh ( dun give us back our lab report still expect us to do the 10 marks qns in PA2).... hez crazy lah... study kinda hard but i tink itz not realli useful loh... all my brain cells slacking or too tired liao...

had pmt project mtg juz now.. so hungry den my stomach growl... (hope nobodi notice.... hee..)
at first, wna wake up early den go Mac eat big breakfast de (yum!) but.. overslept....

tmw having GMP lessons and napfa test--> fail lah.. Im not good at running loh somemore onli give us 1 month to train... Xiao lah..!

what can i say ???

Guess i never really know anyone in these days
The spell of distance between the hearts, it never goes away.
Time to give up. Time to fall deeper.
Let me choose one, right now.