Sad day.... to leave.... but....

i was thinking of buying roti prata for the children in-patient pharmacy's staff.... Mericar U bought that, Santhi bought curry puffs and Aye Aye youtiao... hmm.... the food is nice but very oily... and my dry and itchy throat is not going to respond well to that....

the pharmacist, PAs and PTs are nice and helpful (not implying the other pharmacy department's people are not lah) but... the pharmacists are well-known for being fierce. Well... they are but they are just concerned and want to help out too. I will miss them coz they let me blend in more than when I was in W.I.P.

Let me learn how to do the operation theatre billing. Heez, itz quite easy to get the hang of it..... and the pharmacist-in-charge explained how they go about calculating the dose for the paediatrics patients... So complicated for some of the things.... itz fun... but I dun think I want to be a pharmacist in the future... I tend to make some errors sometimes...

can't breathe......

Crap.......! I've been coughing and sneezing these few days.... and the project isn't going as smoothly as I thought it will. Sharkz.... this usually happens when I'm busy with the other pharmacy help-out and the Oncology pharmacists are busy. Crap Crap!
Sobz......

i like you?

"Why?" Alice shouted to her guardian angel. "Why can't I let him know that I have liked him for so long......" haiz..... dotz..... so sad.... the comic book's lead actress cant tell him or else her senior will die... sobz... so poor thing!

but thank god that the guy wake up and asked her whatz wrong..... and whether she wants to speak to him about something important...... heee..... then he stopped her on her way out.... and turned her around to face him and kissed her on the lips....

Merry Christmas & a surprised belated bday gal...

So nice of him… but itz just plain weird. I didn’t expect to see Yingtong when I’m gna meet Sam jr. We went to the Hereens there to purchase the wallet I wanted as my belated birthday present. Actually, I don’t have anything in mind but I find that the one we gave Felicia is nice le, I like the simple and sleek design). I didn’t want to get the same one as hers so I chose a sky blue long wallet in another brand. Still berry expensive.

And he also gave me a Christmas present (Weird!) because the gift is a Christian Dior lipcolour, it smells very nice but….. heez??? It looks more like a lipstick to me….. i din see him for a while le... it seemz as though he has matured a little or hez just being nice since he wants me to have a good time celebrating my belated bday outing. Itz because he acted sort of strange, din bicker with me like he always does and not being so crude.

Then he paid for everything lor except transport fee (bday and Christmas presents, lunch and dinner) lorh..... he has burnt a big hole in his own pocket...

FInd my wAy back......

will i be able to find my way back to where? when? what? And how.....? maybe the guardian angels of mine don't even know the answer to this......

Yoo.... hoho.... i should say to my loved ones..... but i don't even feel like itz Christmas..... but thank God that LeeTheng is back in Singapore and Im able to see my church frenz and gave each of them a hug.... misss them sia..... hope to go church more often next year...... miss Serene also, duno how is she le..... haiz.... everyone is getting prettier but im growing fatter.... sobz..... no wonder my brother (a pre-reg pharmacist) sayz "go excercise lah....." so i must keep to my tight schedule and plan properly le.... eat lesser too..... or else all my brothers gna say"xiuli, you have grown more sidewards..." sobz.....

so tired and sleepy..... need to rest..... and I use to get away so much.. Now I can't get away.... I even thought that it was simple... To say the things I wanted to say... but now, things have became different....

Christmas Eve.....

actually tonght, therez a bbq at East Coast with my ex-colleagues but...... im not feeling well and also someone who i dun realli like may be there..... and afraid to find Pete there... haiz..... i think i should say goodbye to you le.....

hope to get a second chance.... to get to know you.... to start anew..... to begin afresh as a newborn.... to be cheerful and happy again....

herez the lyrics of a song "Second Chances" by Michelle Branch

Sometimes we get
Second chances
Sometimes we never
Make it past the first
It really makes me wonder
Why some things happen
When they do
It really makes me wonder
Why it wasn't me
Instead of you
And when you say
It doesn't matter
Well it does
And all it takes is a mistake
To eat your words
Just one more time
I thinkI'll drive on home tonight

Sometimes
We never see the warning
And the voice in your head
Tells you not to go
It really makes me wonder
Why some things happen
When they do
It really makes me wonder

Why it wasn't me
Instead of you

And when you say
It doesn't matter
Well it does
And all it takes is a mistake
To eat your words
Just one more time
I thinkI'll drive on home tonight

And when you look
It's gone
It's too late to turn around
And it's another day
Facing yourself and
The things that you've done
Woh, oh, oh, oh, oh

And when you say
It doesn't matter
Well it does
And all it takes is a mistake
To eat your words
Just one more time
I thinkI'll drive on home tonight

Piano..... a touching story....

At the prodding of my friends, I am writing this story. My name isMildred Hondorf. I am a former elementary school music teacher from DesMoines, Iowa. I've always supplemented my income by teaching pianolessons-something I've done for over 30 years.

Over the years I found that children have many levels of musicalability. I've never had the pleasure of having a prodigy though I havetaught some talented students. However I've also had my share of what I call "musically challenged" pupils. One such student was Robby.Robby was 11 years old when his mother (a single mom) dropped him offfor his first piano lesson.

I prefer that students (especially boys!)begin at an earlier age, which I explained to Robby. But Bobby said that it had always been his mother's dream to hear him play the piano. So Itook him as a student.Well, Robby began with his piano lessons and from the beginning Ithought it was a hopeless endeavour. As much as Robby tried, he lackedthe sense of tone and basic rhythm needed to excel. But he dutifully reviewed his scales and some elementary pieces that I require all mystudents to learn.

Over the months he tried and tried while I listened and cringed andtried to encourage him. At the end of each weekly lesson he'd alwayssay, "My mom's going to hear me play some day." But it seemed hope-less.He just did not have any inborn ability. I only knew his mother from adistance as she dropped Robby off or waited in her aged car to pick himup. She always waved and smiled but never stopped in.

Then one day Robby stopped coming to our lessons. I thought aboutcalling him but assumed because of his lack of ability, that he had decided to pursue some-thing else. I also was glad that he stoppedcoming. He was a bad advertisement for my teaching!Several weeks later I mailed to the student's homes a flyer on theupcoming recital.

To my surprise Robby (who received a flyer) asked meif he could be in the recital. I told him that the recital was for current pupils and because he had dropped out he really did not qualify.He said that his mother had been sick and unable to take him to piano lessons but he was still practicing. "Miss Hondorf . .I've just got to play!" he insisted.I don't know what led me to allow him to play in the recital. Maybe it was his persistence or maybe it was something inside of me saying thatit would be all right.

The night for the recital came. The high school gymnasium was packed with parents, friends and relatives. I put Robby up last in the programbefore I was to come up and thank all the students and play a finishing piece. I thought that any damage he would do would come at the end ofthe program and I could always salvage his poor performance through my"curtain closer."Well the recital went off without a hitch. The students had been practicing and it showed.

Then Robby came up on stage. His clothes were wrinkled and his hair looked like he'd run an egg-beater through it."Why didn't he dress up like the other students?" I thought. "Why didn'this mother at least make him comb his hair for this special night?"Robby pulled out the piano bench and he began. I was surprised when heannounced that he had chosen Mozart's Concerto #21 in C Major. I was notprepared for what I heard next. His fingers were light on the keys, they even danced nimbly on the ivories. He went from pianissimo tofortissimo... from allegro to virtuoso. His suspended chords that Mozart demands were magnificent!

Never had I heard Mozart played so well bypeople of his age.After six and a half minutes he ended in a grand crescendo and everyone was on their feet in wild applause. Overcome and in tears I ran up onstage and put my arms around Robby in joy. "I've never heard you play like that Robby! How'd you do it? " Through the microphone Robby explained:"Well Miss Hondorf . . . remember I told you my mom was sick? Well, actually she had cancer and passed away this morning. And well .. shewas born deaf so tonight was the first time she ever heard me play. I wanted to make it special."There wasn't a dry eye in the house that evening.

As the people from Social Services led Robby from the stage to be placed into foster care,I noticed that even their eyes were red and puffy and I thought to myself how much richer my life had been for taking Robby as my pupil.No, I've never had a prodigy but that night I became a prodigy. . of Robby's.

He was the teacher and I was the pupil. For it is he who taughtme the meaning of perseverance and love and believing in yourself and may be even taking a chance in someone and you don't know why.

Robby was killed in the senseless bombing of the Alfred P. MurrahFederal Building in Oklahoma City in April of 1995. And now, a footnote to the story. ]

still the same....?

at first, i din want to go for Alan's 21st bday buffet at his house.... but i juz tack along with meixiu, aiwei and xuezhen.... to see see.... his flat is kinda hard to find but hear his voice so loudly at the common corridor.... confirm the flat upstairs is his house le.....

let mi introduce my secondary school guy frenz to everyone.....

Chin Aik (i.e. the most yandao of our year de....) is still so charming but with a little pimples on his face..... so kiddy coz hez wearing a cap... jackson grew much taller.... xuezhen was abit upset that weixiong (i.e. a fren of Daddi's also... hee) is taller than her now.... Alan's (i.e. the HongKong guy whose voice is the loudest)hairstyle is nice and the same as Pete's... haiz.... Seng Choong's (i.e. one of the funny guys of the group) face is clear of acnes le, good for him..... then Guangzheng (i.e. my primary sch fren... ) became darker like indian man.... haha... Yiwei... hmm... his face is broader and hairstyle has changed.... Buan teck (my brother who also lend me his A maths homework to copy de), cheok yew and james are still the same..... kevin still so kawaiii.. oops!

there were people from other class.... weilin, joyce and darren, melvin.....

the group of guys sabotage Seng choong to let meixiu sit besides him... well.. of course she wont lah.... so bored but itz so nice to see them again.... since we went for BBQ together 2 years ago....
when we are leaving, Alan ask aiwei and i why we din bring our boyfrenz.... diao! she chose to not answer.... i replied "why must i bring?" i also dun have lah.... duno whether aiwei have anot...
then Chin aik asks us whether we will miss him... yah lah, we will de..... haha.... hez a nice brother..... always makes me laugh de when he sat besides me in sec 2 class....

will I be down with my 2-weeks old flu bug again?

ahhhhh..... sick or ill..... im not feelin well already.... sobz..... but no choice lah.... attachment mah....

my project supervisor was ill and she still is 2day loh.... so poor thing..... then some pharmacy technicians and assistants are sick too.... make me so guilty conscious..... not my fault but.... the flu bug is being carried around lah..... diao....

today learn some new things..... my morning supervisor, ying shu.... is fierce but she can be nice lah..... said they as the pharmacists have to calculate the BMI or BSA to know the suitable dose to give to the paediatric patients (i.e. children lah)..... they can also guess the diagnosis by looking through the IMRs and the case notes written by the doctors..... So cool but complicated leh....

In a MesS....

met Frank up for dinner.... dun be mistaken lah.....! itz just weird... he said so himself..... he dun dare to look straight at me... hmm.... i also duno why, we are not what we used to be le..... asked me strange questions about some of my brothers in tp.... "well..... so sorrie but nooob," i replied... some of my sisters will know the answers, sortof.... im also not sure of it...... thatz why im lost in my sweet misery that my angels and "advisors" cant save me from.....

I was lost
And you were found
You seemed to
Stand on solid ground
I was weak
And you were strong
And me and my guitar
We strummed along, oh

Sweet misery
You cause me
That's what you called me
Sweet misery
You cause me
I was blind
But oh, how you could see

You saw the beauty in everything
Everything and me
I would cry
And you would smileY
ou'd stay with me
A little while

Sweet misery
You cause me
That's what you called me
Sweet misery

You cause me
And in my heart
I see, oh
What you're doing to me
And in my heart I see, oh
Just how you wanted it to be
Sweet misery

Oh, whoa

Sweet misery
You cause me
That's what you called me
Sweet misery
You cause me

And in my heart I see, oh
What you're doing to me
And in my heart I see, oh
Just how you wanted it to be
Sweet misery

I was weak
And you were strong
And me and my guitar
We strummed along

haha..... yeah....

So tired and sleepy..... but now i can go back online le..... of course with my brother, Wen Ming's help.....

hez bringing his fren and im asking my elder sister along to carry the CPU things... so many wooh.... then the place alot of people... it realli is "people mountain people sea"..... but his fren kinda kawaii.... oopz! hee.... i ask his fren to guess my sister and my age.... he thought im 17 and my sister 16 yrs old loh..... my brother and sis laughed their heads off le..... spend quite a sum of money but thank god, my sister is paying first.....

my brother took out the hardware and put in the new ones.... so heavy loh, thank goodness i didnt bring the whole CPU to his house..... then i will have to take taxi home le..... he also took stressed or i duno what lah.... 4get to install something, then he remember.... poor kid...... the microsoft office software cant install leh... now no MS word and watsoever...

i treat him dinner loh, i took quite a while to think where to bring him to... in the end, go BK.... diao.... haha......

yesterday or today then the stupid Hr department of KKH bank in the October's pay for us loh.... if I didnt tell Mr Ko ahh... still no money leh..... im so bad luck sometimes but got two days of last month are the worst sia..... haiz... if i tell my brothers.... i gna get lectured and i'll burst into tears again..... haiz.....

a berry nice teacher cum LO.. haha....

Mr Ko called my house. haha... i asked him to de lah.. he berry nice loh, chat with me on the phone. saying that dun give myself too much stress. haiz... how not to. and ask mi to jiayou. i replied too much fats le, no "you". he said "then i wat? plump ahh?" please lah, he juz of alrite build loh, not like me. growing sidewards le... haiz.... told him again that sometimes cnt communicate properly with the assistant project pharmacist. Diao... duno what to do then i cry le...

ahh... im doomed

2dae is the eve of my birthday loh.. haiz.... im jinxed.... last year kind of also like that de.... so sad....


gotten scolded xia..... sobzz... so many thigs to do, i think i screw them up lah.... so blur.... bad choice to be blur these dayz.... crappy mi.... gna die liao... can someone juz shoot me in the head....???


later gonna meet up with mr ko.... didnt noe that i miss his calls opening lines "Hi, this is Mr Ko here. May i speak to xiuli, please? Xiuli ahh... How are you?" he so sweet loh...

shirley and i make him lose face like crazy loh and duno how deep it is liao.... to the deepest part of the Earth's ocean liao.... haiz....

First friday at the workplace....

Maymay gave us two files about SOPs and Oncology PT/PA training. There was a major miscommunication coz the Oncology pharmacy staff is usually busy in the morning. So we helped to pack some medication in the CR. Our packing are double-checked but mine, for one, I gave extra drugs.

Oops… Foziah showed us how to use the tablet counter to count loose tablets and put them in a bottle. For promethazine syrup, I have to pour from original bottle to another new bottle via a conical measure. Then I pasted the label on the new bottle, write expiry date on the label and bundled both together. We also pre-packed adaptors together with syringes and topped up some stock.

Chia yang told us to read through the part on aseptic dispensing and she will test us later as she nds to go for a mtg. She asked Katijar to show us how they prepare the cytotoxic medications in syringe form, Kimberly to teach us how to break an ampoule, fill up the syringe with the content of the ampoule and normal saline, May to show us how they prepare the labels for the drugs and what are they for.

aiyo... wat do i have to do....

Pat did an overview of Total Parental Nutrition (TPN). She spoke berry fast. Since she was busy, she briefly explained the reading materials and we looked through them. We followed a PT to walk rounds to collect the TPN or IV mixture forms from the Neonates’ ICU (NICU), Neonates’ Special Care (NSC) and Women Operating Theatre (WOT). Neonates who are premature or with complications, are sent to the NICU. When they are much better, they are brought to NSC. Then they can be discharged.

Jia Yang briefly explained what is PIP and what she wants me to do but… I still kind of confused. I was asked to find information about PIP from the KK intranet… haiz… no password to access so need to use my I/C’s.

Saying that she wants me to write out a synopsis and gave mi some ideas. Then she will read through to see whether I understand what she meant and wrote the correct thing. If it is okay, I send one copy to Mr Ko to see whether it is related to my course of study and that I have to choose a suitable title. The sch will see and approve it.

I spent a few hours typing and scratching my head to tink abt ideas. But I still have to go home and tink through.

Need to see Rina again... haiz....

Yoke Hwa drew out the hierarchy of the department of pharmacy for us and explained to us how hey purchase the drugs. Then we are brought to the pharmacy store and take a more detailed look at how the drugs are categorized and kept. The freezer was spoilt because we found a long iceberg-like ice block inside.

Our orientation with Rina hasn’t complete yet. We did a recap of the job scope of a packer and what should be covered on the label. We were tested and corrected many times to familiarize ourselves the proper way to stick the label. Some leaflets of drugs must be removed.

Rina as the empress dowager cum my Geography teacher that im most afraid of....

Weird… why Pete appeared again in my dream? But the dream was nice lah (at least it is not nightmare le)… this may have make mi miss him again….

Rina gave us a drug list and procedures on how to pack the medication. These are to be memorized and applied… Great…. We noe less than 10% of the drugs, I tink. It is worse than exams or dpp practicals…. coz we were tested on how to calculate the quantity of drugs and read prescriptions. Even though now the doctors type into the electronic system for the prescriptions, Rina wants us to also read doc’s handwriting (cnt really make out some, though) and see whether thr are things tt we dun understand. She seems to mi, like my sec sch geography teacher... (will have a nitemare with her in it soon….) but cnt blame her lah…. Shez the overall pharmacist-in-charge. Shez cnt spoonfeed us mah, must make us tink but im juz stupido lah…

She gave us another (more detailed) tour of the hospital and introduced us to the remaining staff. She shows us the Central Line Drug Delivery System (CLDDS) with 3 "taps" to allow 3 different drugs to be injected at different timings.
Tink I won’t be able to make it le (Chia Yang says dun luk so sad and feel despair). After I actually meet her a tiny while, I find her berry kawaii and nice de. She passed mi a booklet to read abt (saying itz related to my upcoming MP) but dun seem really related to what I learnt in sch leh… hmm…. Tmw gna call mr ko baa… he muz be worried… so paiseh…

Met Bro Kelvin at Bugis…. I tot I heard wrongly… he still joked abt mi and Sam jr together… wat??? Ppl like to assume things…. Ask whether im wrking for the expo sale… "Noo lah, cnt. Attachment le" he looked upset that we are not able to be with him during the sch holiday…. Haiz…. Wna to lah but… he made the same comment as another fren of mine (go tell the guy, you like him lah)…. Ahhh? I have beta things to do…. Im not implying hez boh liao but… I duno how to say….

So blurredd.....

Had a dream in the early morning abt grandpa… hmm… suddenly miss him sia…
So tired and bored…. Saw Becky, Sam and shoo yi… kind of awkward lah….
Crap!!! I 4got to bring IC and bank book… great! First day lah, im doomed… Being showed around the place so confused…. thr have 3 auto machines to move things ard… (One big "bug" like robot aka. the cockroach) and introduced to some of the staff in the different pharmacies. Stayed in the Women inpatient pharmacy (WIP) the longest, helped uncle to pack some drugs and stock up the almost empty trays of drugs. The pharmacist in-charge of me, Ms Chia Yang wasn’t free to discuss my MP, saying we r mtg on wed… ahhhhh??? It wasn’t writing in the time schedule leh… since shez still not sure and seems berry busy; I apologized and end the call. Shirley’s pharmacist in-charge, Mr Hing explained to us the dept he leading (drug info dept) and how to find information online. He gets calls from ppl in kk or other hospitals also who have queries.

Why i meet my laodi and we go east coast park again?

My laodi wna mi tutor mi his practical test the next day… but he brought the wrong textbk lah… Diao… he wna eat at the coffeeshop except that I wasn’t hungry (he afraid I’ll stare at him)… Boh liao loh….
We passed the seats that we sat b4 (with Pete)… Diao…. I tink I miss him again…. (Sobz….) he wanted to cycle…. The!!! Of course I won’t want…. Next day first day of attachmt mah….

When we are abt to go home, Derek called. Hmmm… So rude loh that boy…. "Amanda Foo. Hi" I replied, "why you called." Then we kind of argued again… after we end the conversation, I asked my bro… "Really ‘sounds’ like a guy ahhhhh?" "Yeb," he answered. I dun care abt xiao pang loh…. In the end, cnt fall aslp… haiz….

itz been so long since we last meet up and chat le..

Gone to meet with Aiwei, Meixiu and Li Min at V8 movie cafeteria thr. Ate the seafood pineapple rice. It looked appealing lah… the prawns were berry fresh and soft…. it tasted kind of weird (coz the sauce kind of too thick and the rice was spicy)….
So long never meet them le… haiz…. Meixiu wna mi fill them in what happen these few months…. and they said, " berry interesting ahh!" Right….

KK hospital here I come....

gonna go KK thr for my attachment... duno I should be happy or wat.... we gotten separated, tink should be some of us baah.... sad leh.... mi being sentimental again... sobz....


itz Lijing's bday today.... walked to TM popular to find Daddi and gals.... so like drama series (coz they came down the opposite escalator while I went up.. oopz....) felt a pat on my arm.... ooh... it Sarina with Geri, Charmaine and Fadhil.... said hi and byes... hehe...
went Kbox with them... so expensive ooh.... Daddi (who is Yili), chaipheng and I sang the most..... Shoo Yi and Lijing kinda a bit shy, i guess... but for one or two songs, Lijing sang solo.... Yeah!!! haha.... although its kinda soft.... Oh dear... get influenced by Daddi liao.... wna cry... coz some songs the lyrics berry meaningful larh.... den abit no voice to sing liao and i stoned a while.... (itz a bad thing.... pics of him flooding back again bursting the riverbanks...) hemm.... haiz.... forget it lah..... another bad thing is that gotten chased out by the staff coz more ppl coming.... sad lah... i likes to sing so much..... heee...


den my stupid brother msg "how? i miss her again... wna cry liao..." told him "ahh.. paiseh i cnt help u lah.... i rmbr someone again..." i cnt tell him lah... so long liao, gna get K by him.... Stanley
wna noe where i gotten posted.... and juz wna complain to mi..... Yoo, dude bro.... wait ur dear wu hui lah.... juz joking.... he likes to disturb lah... but nice to have him to chat with also.... (P.S. : friends of mine especially the few cheezy ones dun mistaken ooh.... hez a friend like the rest of you are lah...)

Why.....

itz one month away from my birthday le..... dun really want to celebrate... so boh liao le.... dun tink he will rmbr....

meet up with my brother (Sam jr) to chit chat and walk around.... shouldn't have gone thr sia..... wore a skirt that he accompanied mi to buy the other day.... he say "you slim down again? the skirt seems lower..." yeb, kinda abit baah....

on the escalator connected the suntec and city link, we saw Pete and his friend coming down the opposite one.... Sam was not sure thatz him.... but I ask so he decided to give it a try... Dao leh..... msg him also din reply..... of all my friends, why must I see him of all people.... then Sam saw his classmates... haha... hez "dead" coz they ask who I am.... juz one of his sisters mah.. no big deal de....

we went back to East Coast again.... he asked should he and his ex patch up? well.... he was tinking of giving up but he still miss her (memory kept coming back to haunt him..) poor brother... asked sth which my gut wna mi to ask him.... (you wanna to forget but some things juz kept the memories thr.... reminding you).... "you tink i still like her?" "THE!" of course what.... haiz.... so hard, gna fade off completely maybe but see him again liao.... nan naaah....

Sentimental already.....?

kinda weird 2dae..... ms hor played on the media player 2 classical songs.... pretty nice and showed photos of us doing pmt and dpp practicals.... so touching.... and gave us chocolate as it is children's day..... (sigh.... this reminds mi of last year on tat day our CEP tutor, mr Wong also gave us sweet things....) then mr Ko and her went through the drug list...... Woorh... long leh.... at the end, we tuk 2 photos together and she said something that will remind her of each of us..... so nice..... feel strange as though she gna leave us liao..... sobz....

Not again......!!!

boo ohh ohh.... tink yesterday the beef steak got problem... i wasnt feeling well tiz morning..... so stay in to do my fashion design work..... tummyachy..... big headache.... haiz..... but the good thing is that i finished colouring 3 of the models.... ( in one, the shoes luked nicer... Diao!)

i accidentaly slamed the PMT lec theatre door.... Kok Sin said wah! den Rong Chang say i should be alrite le bcoz able to slam door..... Diao! the spring in the door spoilt liao.... Derek and him talking sth abt mi... Derek asks mi sth but i wasnt able to catch wat..... he says "dun ask mi liao.... she looked blur...." well.. of course lah... cnt hear properly and i din feel like bickering with them.... tummy and head pain painn....

heehh?

After PMT lecture, bored! dun wna do my cds 1st.... found yanzhen to chit chat.... Great! she also tink otherwise.....Diao! watevr......

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I saw Frank and Jeremy at the design canteen den i sat down and chit chat..... ask him where is she... he said she wna eat with her frenz.... ohhhh... he pop another weird question of the blue..... "so who you like? Pigger? Pete?" not his fault lah coz yanzhen also dun understand wat i wrote and who i like........ well....i apologize here lah..... he say the word "pete" and it sounded like "pig" hmm??? goodness mi lah..... Pigger and mi are just FRIENDS mah...... nothing else, my frenz.... if therez anything I'll tell you de.....

Matchmaker?

yanzhen ask mi who i like??? hmm.... i told her itz in the past alreadi... tink shez confused abt reading my blog.... P.S. yanzhen, if ur reading tiz.... i'll explain to u some other time if thrz any chance.....
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while i was watching my show, little Piggy called... wna mi help him tell jas, zhiyong and Pigger about tmw meeting at 7.45am, must wear long pants..... we chit chat until he say sth about do not wear long pants..... hah? then i say wat u mean..... then we argued.... haha....

called Stanley to discuss abt cGMP tut assigment...... he say he dun mind be my matchmaker..... Great! jas and Pigger wna be also... he has joined the matchmaking club for moi.... haha..... Diao!!! he say Marko and Guowei are the hao nan ren in our course.... well, both are really nice guys i agree... but... i duno lah.... i dun realli noe my feelings these days..... Pigger say no wonder the weather changes like my mood..... i tink itz kinda true lah..... bluezz...

am I busy?

yesterday the gmp quiz i tink i wrote crap lah... my stupid bro still ask mi wat to study for his o level prac.... stupid boy! im a pure science not combined science student.... haiz.... dr ong say jas's gmp grade is alrite but tink she still doubt it....

2dae the pa lab very the short ahh..... ask dr ong about cgmp tutorial assignment i tink i noe wat to do le but no confidence to do well leh...

he say that we must work extremely hard these 3 weeks then can rest and prepare for SIP le.... hope i'll do ok..... last sem the results like shit loh....

Peter?

why Pigger and Frank kept asking mi to go after Peter... this puzzles mi.... they tease mi, i tease them back lah.... both are my brothers mah.... hehe.... den force info out from Frank..... dun wna tell mi whoz his gf..... ni hao...! i'll find out sooner or later de.... hehe.... tease Pigger abt msging some1.... he said shez his close fren... oooh... ur ex? no lah... den i ask am i ur close fren? ya lah... dun wna tell mi whether he has someone else he like.... hehe....

go back lab, little piggy say hez bored.... stupid kid so free.. like to hao lian.... Pigger ask mi to accmpany him loh.. crazy lah! im not that free... hez my fren... but i realli not free lah... of course he has other sisters to acc him de mah.....

what am i doing?

i slept only 4+ hours...... my pc also cnt take it le..... my mum ask whether she forgot to switch off the light..... i answered i did my schwrk until very late.... i cnt fall aslp le so juz wake up and do loh.....

tot my brother upset over sth or realli wna mi teach him OC..... so i juz mt him lah.... in the end he say i dun luk well.... so many things to do... how to luk alrite? den i complained what had happened these few weeks.... ask mi to try to rest... i cnt finish my work mah....
ask mi how to tell whether a girl likez u? usually girls dont give clues de.... sometimes guys also like that wat!

den it gotten colder in the east coast mac, we left and took a stroll in the direction where we walked that time with Peter.... i forgot where we sat and gonna forget how he looks like le..... i stoned again like the day b4.... my brother tot im gna cry..... im too tired to lah.. and if i did, i tink im gna fall sick.... with my poor immune system growing worse..... we juz sat thr.... and im trying to remember... sobz! im gna fall aslp le.... then he ask mi go hm and slp early...

on the way to the bus stop, Pigger called.... ask mi whom im with...... no wonder yesterday i was stoning away... Peter? no lah... its his fren.... den my brother said Pete? ask mi whether Pigger noes abt Pete? ahh... i said yeb... i was tinking u noe lah that berry bright lamp post but i cnt say out or else im exposed.... coz my brother ask mi b4 whether he noe the guy i like... hmm.... that time i wasnt sure.... i said no loh.... gosh! duno if i realy have lied... oops!

im still not sure about anything lar.....

it feels like the worst day of my life

today so sad loh... having lessons in school the whole day..... wna sleep liao but cnt.... the DPP lecturer they get for us is a nice lady lah..... some of the guys kinda like her.... will flush or their ears will turn red.... haha.....

we went for dinner at tampines mac..... qingyuan was kinda happy that we ate thr with him....
Pigger kept asking why im stoning away... well.. i still have things to do mah.... must plan and organise properly..... he tot im tinking abt Peter..... (but im tinking abt him abit lah coz he dun like to eat fast food, maybe itz bcoz of his broad shoulders after eating too much oily food he grows fat liao, cnt maintain.. haha..)

plz lah... i dun evn hv adequate sleep time liao... too weary to evn tink of him.... den we went to toy'r'us to walk ard.... great lah! i told them the place remind mi of him coz he mentioned b4 he wants a gundam figure but his mum gets him a transformer or a voltron... haiz.... den heard Alex's name being called as the contestant juz go and see for fun... itz kinda comical.... (the detailed story go to jas or zy's blog) this lights my heavy mood a bit....

stayed up the whole nite to edit cGMP... haiz.... some of my frenz kinda surprised why we are the first to comple but last to hand in..... weird right? ttz a hidden story that some unlucky ones had heard from mi.....

strezzed out....

tiz morning saw Frank walked up the stairs to our dpp lab with huixuan.. hmm.... makez mi wonder leh.. hehe.... haiz.... who ask him to ask mi weird qn that time.... hmm... i rmbr ohhh... (Frank, if ure reading... im gna dig info out from you le... hahaha...)or itz juz any coincidence.. hmm....

am I stupid? i kinda say wrong things in dpp counselling lah... nxt week, gna be counselling test liao... die loh.. haiz.... during dpp mtg, we talking crap loh... waste my time but nd to fulfill the required timing for attendance..... nd to add information in again.. upset lah....

Pigger ask mi eating ant.. well.. no time lah.. he say wat, i slim down le dun starve myself.... haiz.. not time to eat lah... he tink i not hungry meh? yesterday din even have lunch loh doing project, wna cry liao..... strezzed up..... go pc lab do thingy den jas aka my 2nd generation guardian angel cum one of my top ranking junshi volunteered to buy snacks for mi.... hee..... my saviour sia... hehe.... thank god i have her sia.... Pigger appeared and wna give mi his baos, nice right.. hehe... two junshi who dote mi..... halleluyah

in pa2 tut, mr lam ask mi to answer qnz... good lah.... my maths gets worse when i encounter tricky, wordy and lotsa numbers qns..... i nd my sec 2 maths teacher, Mr toh..... but he gao lao huan xiang le... sobz... kinda miss him... den yanzhen ask i ate candlelight lunch with Pigger... hmm??? whoz that? i rmbr telling her someone else mah.... jas joined in... Pigger overheard and said he noe the guy lah... i still blur blur... who??! itz him lah.... ooh...... i treat him like a brother loh and sometimez he give weird advice (u wna noe ask him urself)..... bu ke neng de.....

majorz projects gna end but still have some to come.... everytime like that de... haiz.. like two semesters ago de situation.. everyone strezzed like gna key xiao le.... can find out others good and bad points lah... nobodyz perfect but some are really extreme zone loh.....

bad hair day......

last nite have lotsa things to do but the modem still dun give face leh.. haiz....

so today I have pmt meeting, go bookshop buy CDS materials, download and edit DPP report, send it and cGMP thingy to derek and stanley respectively..... haiz..... havent eat lunch loh, hungry like xiao...... but thank god, eventually Im able to log into my yahoo email account or else I cry ahhh! tink the library pc dun like mi also.... Sigh!

heard ms hor say: have a talk about pharmaceutical manufacturing and something de at SP leh.... hehe.... wna go and see him leh but... haiz... you yuan wu fen lah..... he also din contact mi mah.... Sobz.......

PA2 laboratory..

haiz... last week the UV-Vis resultz are alrite but this week... haiz... all fail liao..... coz the stupid volumetric flasks not dry enuf.... angry xia.... so long liao still not dry.. haiz.... den dr ong wantz us extend our standard solution range...... tink sth wrong there ba..... only jas's results pass.... hmm....

leslie say I 2dae weird weird one..... where got loh...??? den another (part-time) jun-shi aka Pigger say girls wear long skirts look nice... hmm..... he duno the outfit muz suit the girl's figure mah.... haiz.... guyz lah.....

ask mi to ask Peter out... haiz... he also busy mah..... Dun kare about him lah... not free to be bothered..... sad case! he himself last time ask why I din contact him.... whoz not busy with sch wrk loh...

cross-eyed with a huge headache...

aiyo! shi qian's part of the DPP has kinda tonnes and tonnes of scientific "qiem" words..... sharon and i see until wna k him liao..... did editing from 11+am to before PA2 lecture still cnt finish... upsetting lah.....

Song: endless road

this iz a song that I like to listen to coz it kinda describe my mood these dayz....

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time


Chorus:
Why am i still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time i ask if this would be the last

Why am i still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather
but it just draws me deeper
How do i get out of this I think i never will


A crystal forming in the eye
Maybe this would be the last
The winding pathdown my face
Till i begin to taste the bitterness inside

love story.....

They have been married for two years. He loves literature and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography and he handles their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper and always bullies him. He is a gentleman and always gives in to her.

Today, she's being willfulagain.

Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? Shepromised she'd pay."
Him: "I don't have time that day."
Her: "Humph!"
Him: "Huh?"
Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels,and you will have allthe time you need."
Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."
Her: "Humph! I don't care. You'll have to do it for her!"
Him: "No."
Her: "Just this once?"
Him: "No."

Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yeswithin three days, or else..."

First day, she "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator,television, hi-fi except the double bed, to show her "benevolence". Ofcourse, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day, she conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences."He's nervous now. That night, on the bed, he begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day, he's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him: "We need to talk."
Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."
Him: "It's something very important."She remains silent.
Him: "Let's get a divorce."She did not believe her ears.
Him: "I got to know a girl."She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him. But she held it down, wanting to let him finish.

But her eyes already felt wet. He took a photo out from his chest. Probably from his undershirt pocket, that'sthe only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.

Him: "She's a nice girl."Her tears fell.
Him: "She has a good personality too."She's heartbroken because he puts a photo of some other girl close to his heart.
Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."She's very jealous because she said the same thing in the past.
Him: "She loves me truly."She wishes to sit up and scream at him "Don't I?"
Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't wantto do."She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.
Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?"
Her: "...!"

He brings the photo before her eyes. She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning slap on his face. He sighs. She cries. He puts the photo back to his pocket. She pulls her hand back under the blanket. He turns off the light, and sleeps. She turns on the light, and sits up.

He's asleep. She lost sleep. She regrets treating him the way she treated him. She cried again, and thought about a lot of things. She wants to wake him up. She wants to have an intimate talk with him. She doesn't want to push him anymore.She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.

She slips the photo out. She wanted to cry and she wanted to laugh. It's a nicely taken photo. A photo he took for her. She bends down, and kissed him onhis cheek. He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.

"You learn to love, not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."

May all Love & Joys be with you...

the three little piggies.....

during DPP meeting, elder Piggy and little Piggie like talking about something but i cnt get what they are saying... then luk at mi and mention my name... wat the......!

during pa2 tut, elder Piggy and Pigger chat about sth again.... Great! den both look at mi... like I did sth berry wrong or whatever loh.. Sian.....

Dun kare lah.... cnt be bothered liao.... cnt think and always so sleepy...... my galfrenz say dun tink too much lah again..... all the things i told her before, were thrown back to advise mi.. hmm.... ya lah... guys....??? anyway little Piggie still berry the childish loh but sometimes alright lah... nice guy but like to copycat wat i say one... so mei you zhu jian.....

Continuing questioning...

yesterday in lab, Sarina gave mi that weird smiley look again... coz i juz chat a while with Pigger.. nothing wrong wat...... hez my groupmate loh...

.........................................

today during pmt meeting, Sarina ask mi where is he..... juz teasing for fun lah.... Shaz down there blur blur one.... duno the thingy we talking about..... Later, Pigger and his DPP grpmates sat behind us..... den only him and a gal of his group left there... Sarina said she wna change teasing target liao... haiz... thank god xia.....

spoke to jeremy about csas project den Frank ask mi "got stead ahh.."? hmm... of course i deny mah... i ask him how he know the thingy...? he read what i wrote here loh... haha.. but itz still too complicated lah... he duno the situation... headache leh.... Jas says we "patch" ok..... after what had happened in the past.... hmm... juz frenz baah....

we went to play squash... played pair with Pigger.... kept asking mi to tink of the guy.. Idiot lah! tink once, cnt even hit the ball loh.. Sigh..... den he said he and his gf used to play badminton together last time.. so sweet.. hmm.... I couldnt catch the ball twice and it hit me... wan mack him loh... angry liao.. haha.... haiz......

MatChmAker..?

at the end of pmt lecture, mr lam said therez no pa2 lecture later on.. so no school liao... Great! Dun wna be lamppost mah, yanzhen accompany go library zap thingy... saw Pigger with the book we need and borrow frm him.... haiz... he says what wo xian mu Jasmine and zy together, go find a bf loh.. like his business like that... hmm..... Sarina came and gave mi that weird smiley look that Sha have given mi before... hmm... what the hack...? Both of the galz started teasing and Alex came & joined in soon after... I treat him like a brother loh.. although some times in the past, his way of talking and usage of words are like my fren.... haiz... not possible lah now....

pmt project's hard....

difficult to find information lah.... should have choose the easier ones.... haiz wants to slack le but 3rd year liao, last chance to do well loh but itz hard leh how to do that.... sobz! see until eyes wna close le still cannot really find anything.... den found two websites with same graphs and info.... duno who copy who loh... so boh liao... haiz...

....

sms the dementor ask her muz send Stanley the things 2dae... she say hving mtg now and wants me to tell him... XIAO lah...! I say Im not her loh... so not sure of her schedule mah... (as tot Im her worm in the stomach... dun wna be loh) not sure she did sent him but remind her thrice le if she still force mi to remind her... the number of times I wnt be able to count with my fingers and toes le.. haha... until now still din sent mi.... never mind lah... but if she din send to him, her peer appraisal gna be berry nicely done loh... by mi of course.... not to be mean lah.. but depends on the question mah.... itz gona be colourful loh... heez.... paiseh in advance....

what the hack is going on 2dae?

zy kinda almost last minute msg have CSAS meeting... ??? if I din wake up before that, I wnt have seen loh... haiz.... den wait for everyone then can go eat lunch... whatz much worse bcoz some1 ( I duno whoz fault) spill iced teh xi on the table den I got kinda patches of yellowish tea all over my jeans (thank god Im not wearing my C0nverse shoes loh.. coz itz not 50% waterproof even.. sigh! or else I'll scream loh and thank god that the tea isn't hot tea.... I'll take my iced milo and wash the person's face....) --> can say Im being childish but Hey! its not my fault to start with Im the victim leh, the fried fish slices mee was tasteless and Alex gotten choked on a wooden splinter (frm his wanton mee, duno why...weird lah)..... so in shock cum upset cum angry loh.... stupid day.. like gotten cursed by some one like that.. hmm... duno lah... odd....

itz juz being not any ordinary holiday in school lah....

ask the dementor to sent project over say wat... she havent finish editing den dun say on and a half hour b4 that will sent lor.. Xiao one... whoz not busy lah....??? in the evening, stupid loh.... -> onli sent the procedures of the SOP over.... plz loh give you such a long time to complete liao still cnt finish... mi and stanley not 3 yr-olds loh.... stressed lah! muz lower blood pressure.... no wonder stanley ask us to send him our parts several weeks before the deadline... premonition xia, he knows this confirm will happen one loh.... haiz.... I duno what to say le.... juz shoot her kinda abit directly loh.... give her an inch she wants a yard.... (well... she will get something strange lah.... no time to tink of a plan now...)

I tink itz a pre-friday-the-13th thingy baah.... haiz... sad lah...

ouch ouch...

After shower, I realise that my ankles hurt like crazy ( as though some1 still is holdin onto them like that le, so scary loh...)... Sobz! somemore said Im weak... idiot lah! he himself also not any better loh... still say mi.... stupid mud hunk loh... Haha... hee.... coz upper torso so muscular all not muscles lah --> fat cells swell up all over... hemm.... muz spar more with him.... or else I not happy one.....

....... different story now...

my xiao mei called saying she cnt join us go touring ard sp... ask mi go find Peter ( she muz be joking lor... mi myself not even sure of my feeling now coz nao dai kong kong xin ye kong kong.. haiz..) still tease mi somemore... hez gna have his term tests or somthing like that next week baah, she still ask mi go ji xiao him.... hez not good at studying lor somemore he said before that he regret going into the IT course, stupid boy....

she also in a weird spot herself but I tink not that realli bad as mi lar, of course... Sobz... so troublesome--> headache ahh, migraine... hmm..... haiz... a fren like her den that secret gotten leaked from duno who... Recentli, she sayz she maybe accepting her gege as her stead liao.... haiz.... I tink shez will treat him as subsitute loh... coz she still luv her ex mah... so mah huan larh....

den almost all of my girl-friends are pang "saying" mi le... haiz... yi ge ge bu jiang yi qi de... haiz.... never mind... i still have my lao jie... halleluya... haha... hmm... :s

Hmm....

Haiz... afraid will fail all the term tests loh coz cannot really do and also the lecturer is weird loh ( dun give us back our lab report still expect us to do the 10 marks qns in PA2).... hez crazy lah... study kinda hard but i tink itz not realli useful loh... all my brain cells slacking or too tired liao...

had pmt project mtg juz now.. so hungry den my stomach growl... (hope nobodi notice.... hee..)
at first, wna wake up early den go Mac eat big breakfast de (yum!) but.. overslept....

tmw having GMP lessons and napfa test--> fail lah.. Im not good at running loh somemore onli give us 1 month to train... Xiao lah..!

what can i say ???

Guess i never really know anyone in these days
The spell of distance between the hearts, it never goes away.
Time to give up. Time to fall deeper.
Let me choose one, right now.

aiyoo...

i duno wat happen lorh seriousli.... sha tot i hv boyfren.... and aud ask i whoz my prince charming lor?? well... to tell my dear frenz... nobodi lah, sadly.. (sobz!) nobodi wantz mi lerh... haiz... so depressing, den jas'z afraid that shez neglecting mi.. well... erm.. i duno... im juz in a world of my own, i guess... maybe im hanging ard the guys too much but not my fault wat.... they wna pickle with mi loh.... ( one tease mi abt another guy dan he getz teased by his good frenz and one of mine... haha.. not my fault loh...) hehe... too bored and dtressed lah, everibody...) adios!

Something to ponder about....

herez something that usualli happens to mi.... maybe you're also in the same shoez as mi.....
thingys nvr happen the way you wna it to... juz let nature takes its course baah.... :p 
 
To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE

Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it,
the more it eludes you.

But if you just let it fly, it will come to you
when you least expect it.

Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but
love's only special when you give it to someone
who is really worth it.

So take your time and choose the best. 
 
2dae like last 2 weeks but kinda weirder... Frank say i hv that face again like yesterday he saw mi... like i noe sth but wna ask him about it... ??? i duno wat he mean lor... but he dun wna tell... hmm...

moody and greyyish weather....

I cant even sleep the nite b4 loh.. tink shouldnt be too excited liao but hv taken a afternoon nap and hav a nightmare loh.. haiz.... den duno something wrong or whatever lah... 3 spectacles-guyz kept teasing mi since last week loh.. haiz... no energy to rebuke lah... dying soon liao... so tiring.....

but happy to see liting again and gotten present from her again (so embarrassing).... weird lah to give mi an umbrella with pinkish heart-shapes and a hp keychain in the shape of a japanese dessert (yum...) ;p... haha....

bad nite and bad day...

tink i was doing work or checking email... den Peter wna chat loh.. say i din contact him... y muz i loh? ( Felicia sayz i mite give him the wrong msg)... i argued with him den he dun wna chat liao.. Fine! who karez wat he do or watevr..! Hate him lah... ( i noe im being childish but cnt help it lah sometimes...) haiz... chat with Frank nicer... ( hez kinda concerned loh, i mean he always has been lah but unlike some ppl.... so duahh paii....) hemm...
nitez.... le....
nXt morning, tummI ache like xiao... den my bag broke and i 4got to bring lunch money.. haiz... being cursed lah by him... that stupid weird-hairdo, mage-cum-baby-brother of mine.... hemm....

Haiz.... bluey day again...

Gna go crazy liao... i cnt seem to find the cGMP thingy... haiz... den yesterday go & jog again... so boring loh, should be at home studying for quizzez and do storyboard for CDS one but.... bad day lah... hope wont tink of him 2dae, i guess... So sick ( fell down -> ble black all over, rashes duno wat i ate wrong)and tired (friday napfa pracitce aching all over)... $igh.... onli my little k-po sister show her concern... haiz... thank god got her ard.... heez... :S

Xiann naah....

So sleepy 2dae during PA lecture i wna slp liao lor.... the lecturer juz read frm the slides.... no wonder my senior say he almost fail last year bcoz of him lah.... haiz... still kinda empty, i tink.. xian... wna go vacation but i tink i will stil tink abt it lor... no purposely lah... ( juz out of the blue, my moemories of our 2gether will appear out of nowhere)... Dear god, i pray that it will fade soon... berri the bored lah....

2dae my mood iz like the weather.... so bluey & grey...

Haiz... i duno wat to say... itz raining so heavily in the morning and i gotten drenched 75% liao... but the weird thingy iz that i dun evn feel cold and din evn shiver lerh... die liao... my heart iz solid ice core again... my fren dun wna mi be in her shoes but it has happen so many times liao.... sigh... ooh fairy godmother and guardian angelz, where has my prince gone to??? gna die liao.... ----> be a "sister" in a church in Korea... haha... like the All In drama series lor but i dun tink my bai ma wang zi will be there... Sigh!

Why? onli god can tell mi why but i need answerz NOW....

Why the stupid thingy happenz AGAIN.... im damn tired and bored of it... plz give mi a break lah.... i duno i should be happy or sad about something tt i found out... but think i shldn't give it a damn lah.... so mah han.....! so sad lah..... onli some of mi frenz noe what happenz.... & they advise mi not to tink abt it so im trying to do that these few days lah... busy like xiao liao... dun kare lah... juz take thingy as they cumz ( let nature takez its course lah)... hope god bless MOi, man....

Oh dear mi.....

Im doomed lah... the dementor is in my group for cGMP project.... duno how to do and hav someone to suck my blood at the back..... aiyo... die liao..... now i hav 2 big problems @ hand.... god help mi sia...
den my sister and fren, felicia say I kept on mentioning Peter ( a fren's fren who's 2 yrs younger than mi).... ask mi do i like him? well.... i duno even hv a clue myself about that... haiz.. headache lah..... hmm... felicia teases n=him by asking is he interested in any pretty gals in his course.... he said naah.... aiyoyo.... i duno wat to say... tink i'll juz take everyting as they come...

*grins*

ash:
hey amandaa (^=^) thanks for the invitation..haha..i dunno where else to type this so..viola...here it is..haha...
eh go add a tagboard yea...hee..actually i suck at all these html crap too..always just anyhow..maybe zhiyong noes better..haha...
oOoo..n nice song! heh~

hehe... so nice to have some1 to help mi..

i saw ashley in the pc lab... she help mi with tiz weird thingy.... i so paiseh.... hehe.... dementor tot she did something wrong... but i juz dun wna talk to her leh...

i hv a spiltting headache and im so tired and sleepy...

AIYO! i duno how 2 use this thingy.... Help, anybody... SOS... the stupid bloody big head Mr Chan is pushing us too far loh.... but at least the problem is solved liao... haiz... bad hair day and bad luck sia....